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DreamEnd

Enlightened
Aug 4, 2022
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Are you going to tell them? Or do it in secret? Is it better to let them know before?
 
new2blue

new2blue

Student
Dec 11, 2023
115
Part of me thinks it would be easier for my family if I told them in advance, helped them to understand my position. In reality, it's not so simple. They likely will have you institutionalised, which to me would be like hell. But I suppose it depends on your family. I once saw a news video about a guy who had awful mental health issues which resulted in conversion disorder as well. His parents supported his wanting to die and tried to push for legislation to pass. It took too long, the guy died alone in his hotel room.

Depending on your relationship with them, leave them a note. Tell them it is not their fault (if that's the case). Tell them everything you need to, and everything you can to lessen the blow. I won't tell a soul in my life. No one would understand. I will leave a note, and a video. I will die alone, just as most people do, CTB or not.
 
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almaPerdida

almaPerdida

"Oh God, I’m so depressed." - Marvin
Nov 24, 2023
173
I am afraid they might stop me or lock me in a psych ward. I won't tell them.
When the day arrives, i will say that i'm gonna sleep in a friends house, hug them and say goodbye.

I am apologizing in my letter for hiding my suicide wish from them, i think it's enough.
There's also a chance that i give up on CTB, so i don't want them worrying about me for the rest of their lives if i decide to live.
 
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Sleeper System

Sleeper System

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May 5, 2022
936
Are you going to tell them? Or do it in secret? Is it better to let them know before?
Sometimes I feel that nothing that I could say would help my family understand.
I would still have to write it because disappearing without a word is too cruel.
Not knowing would be worse than the pain of being told the truth I think.
But in the end as individuals we all have our paths. If they want to live then sadly it is their burden.
I want to leave my note and take a trip somewhere far away and peaceful.
 
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Sluggish_Slump

Sluggish_Slump

Specialist
Mar 29, 2023
300
Been institutionalized twice because I got caught making plans to ctb and got threatened (with malice) to go back there if I make another one so obviously I won't tell them when the time comes again. I honestly think they don't care about my well-being (they don't care that the hospitalizations made my mental health worse) but see me as an extension of their own ego so if I die they'll see it as a blow to the ego and loosing an investment they made (they made children so someone could take care of them when they're old...).
 
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Gonnerr

Enlightened
Mar 12, 2023
1,321
I cannot tell them , only my best friend know , he is trying to save me but he understands me. We have the same vision of life.

My family would freak out but if i have to do it. So be it.
 
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Return2themoonlight

Return2themoonlight

Sele'ne shall guide me to peace and tranquility
Dec 31, 2023
153
After hugging my mom due to the mental, physical, and emotional pain she goes through All I ask is for her to stay strong cause if she breaks than I will too and if I break I will end up at the point of no return. She also has CTB tendencies but I save her every time Without me I dont think she would've lasted as long as she did....
With that being said Outside of my mom im not leaving a note or calling none. People who have family that will send thm somewhere to get "help" I find to be extremely lucky. My family would either laugh and not believe me, get mad cause im somehow insulting them, or give me a gun loaded and all and say prove it. They all can here about me on the news for all I care but my mom... Yea she's the one string that's holding me from falling into the abyss. Everybody else are simply spectators but if by chance I leave before she does I will record a message, leave a note, as well as a playlist so that way she can heal properly and know I will be waiting for her so we can have true peace.
 
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thetruetato

thetruetato

Suicidal Femboy :3
Jan 1, 2024
160
Are you going to tell them? Or do it in secret? Is it better to let them know before?
Telling anyone beforehand would result in me being involuntarily taken to mental institution, so I would definitely have to write a note. I'm probably just going to write an apology and an explanation as to why it isn't their fault that I'm dead. I would make sure it answers any questions they might have so that they don't have to carry the weight of them going unanswered.
 
PinkyStat

PinkyStat

It’s killing me
Jun 4, 2023
143
I will just write ''sorry'' there isnt really much that i can do
 
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Best carried out in secret to avoid being detected and potentially stopped.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,310
Probably your family won't understand your personal reasons why you want/must CTB. Most likely they'll interfere against your will.

It's better that nobody knows about your plan this increases the chances to succeed.
 
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