Venting Hopelessness

[Terrible00]

I just can't take it anymore, being alive is a torture. I can't take it anymore.
I wish I could just die here and now. My head feels empty but still extremely heavy.
I hate waking up, I hate going through an entire day, I hate going to sleep.

I just hope the time to attempt ctb for me is very soon.

 

[FuneralCry]

I agree that existing certainly is so torturous, for me the only relief could certainly ever lie in death, I understand that it's awful feeling trapped in an existence that you hate. But anyway I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.

 

[MrDarkness]

I just can't take it anymore, being alive is a torture. I can't take it anymore.
I wish I could just die here and now. My head feels empty but still extremely heavy.
I hate waking up, I hate going through an entire day, I hate going to sleep.

I just hope the time to attempt ctb for me is very soon.

I know the feeling, for me I wouldn't say torture, but nothingness or hopelessness. I do feel suffering but it isn't towards me, I hate seeing awful things done to people, and I hate myself for failing people, I might try to hang myself tonight see if I can finally pass out from it. I just feel empty