hi im new... sharing some thoughts about heaven

[highwaytoheaven]

Hey. I have to come to a new peace about ending it all. I am a believer in God and I know that I will be going to heaven. I hate my life and everything in it. No hope for the future. Life is not worth living. Just sharing some thoughts since I have no friends and family. I have had visions of heaven which I believe were from God and heaven is true bliss and beauty. I am a little bit scared about my method and the pain but I think if I spend more time reading forum posts it will encourage me. God bless you all

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Welcome to the forum!

 

[failure383]

I am a believer in God and I know that I will be going to heaven.

What religion are you believer of perchance? I'm asking because the reason most suicidal, religious people don't do it, is because they think they go to hell, because of it.

 

[Dingusguy]

Religious or Atheist all are welcome

If you decide to ctb I hope that there is a heaven waiting for you

 

[failure383]

Also welcome to the forum.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find what you are searching for, I wish you all the best.

 

[highwaytoheaven]

What religion are you believer of perchance? I'm asking because the reason most suicidal, religious people don't do it, is because they think they go to hell, because of it.

I am a born again christian [non-denominational] since last year . I had a divine encounter with God on halloween last year.. it changed my life. I know he is real. But I am poor, ugly and alone. Plus many other things that make me beyond depressed. I don't believe I will go to hell for suicide, although I know other believers think that. My belief is that I will go to heaven, and that Jesus gave us eternal life if we believe in him. Life on earth is only going to get increasingly worse. Heaven is way better and I will be closer to God there too

Welcome to the forum!

thanks

Religious or Atheist all are welcome

If you decide to ctb I hope that there is a heaven waiting for you

From some of the posts I've read, I thought christians wouldn't actually be welcome so I thank you for the warm welcome guys.

What is ctb ? Can you send me a link that explains it?

I have been looking into rope method. Will be purchasing soon

 

[highwaytoheaven]

I hope that you find what you are searching for, I wish you all the best.

you too and everyone who reads this

 

[Bubbly]

Welcome! I have also had these visions, understand the feelings they bring. I hope all goes well for you.

 

[highwaytoheaven]

Welcome! I have also had these visions, understand the feelings they bring. I hope all goes well for you.

this is comforting to hear that someone can relate.

Heaven is such a beautiful place. Anyone can google 'heaven art' and see for themselves. It makes passing away seem more like a good option.

Heaven feels like my real home. A place of true peace, void of all earthly suffering.

 

[Ironborn]

Welcome, hope you find what you are searching for.

 

[highwaytoheaven]

Welcome, hope you find what you are searching for.

thanks ma friend

 

[divinemistress87]

I've been watching a lot of Ndes on you tubes and its giving me comfort that there is somewhere better than here after this

 

[highwaytoheaven]

I've been watching a lot of Ndes on you tubes and its giving me comfort that there is somewhere better than here after this

so have i. it is comforting

 

[divinemistress87]

so have i. it is comforting

I think we did come here to learn and experience but our soul can choose if it wants out of this difficult learning realm

 

[Hotsackage]

I am the most spiritual person on the planet, all I can say is you know best, unfortunately SOCIETY let's us all down. Safe travels

 

[highwaytoheaven]

I think we did come here to learn and experience but our soul can choose if it wants out of this difficult learning realm

life was meant to be joyful. But life does not play fair. its not even fair that there's such a lengthy planning process to exit this life.

I am the most spiritual person on the planet, all I can say is you know best, unfortunately SOCIETY let's us all down. Safe travels

we were let down big time

 

[suffering_mo]

@highwaytoheaven Hi there. I am also Christian, though my faith has suffered so much these last months, given the hell on earth that I am currently living. I know suicide is wrong and many who do it are not going to heaven. But when you are suffering so much as I am, I really, really struggle to understand that a merciful God, a heavenly father, who loves us more than we can imagine, would send His child to hell when they are suffering so horrendously and can't take it anymore. My faith has taught that you endure suffering no matter what and that God gives graces to withstand it but this iatrogenic, chemical damage and suffering is beyond imagination for most humans. It's unnatural. And yet so is suicide, unfortunately, and not how we are meant to go. The knowledge of this makes it all so much worse for me.

 

[Light_]

I think we did come here to learn and experience but our soul can choose if it wants out of this difficult learning realm

I can't feel my soul anymore what does that mean? I feel like what happened to me wasn't supposed to happen. I felt true evil when I lost my brain function. I'll never be able to explain it. What do you think this means for an afterlife? Some people say it doesn't matter because your soul is what goes on, but what if my whole life I felt like I felt my soul inside? And now I don't feel anything there like it's already gone. I'm going soon so this is important to hear what other people think because I can't process internally anymore. I can only listen to other people's words. I can't understand it any other way. Did my soul die because it was held in brain tissue that was killed?

 

[eden101]

i also believe in heaven very strongly, it gives me hope

 

[divinemistress87]

I can't feel my soul anymore what does that mean? I feel like what happened to me wasn't supposed to happen. I felt true evil when I lost my brain function. I'll never be able to explain it. What do you think this means for an afterlife? Some people say it doesn't matter because your soul is what goes on, but what if my whole life I felt like I felt my soul inside? And now I don't feel anything there like it's already gone. I'm going soon so this is important to hear what other people think because I can't process internally anymore. I can only listen to other people's words. I can't understand it any other way. Did my soul die because it was held in brain tissue that was killed?

I feel like conciousness lives on its energy. Your soul is still there its just our stupid meatsuit, brain, and pain effects it

 

[Light_]

I feel like conciousness lives on its energy. Your soul is still there its just our stupid meatsuit, brain, and pain effects it

This is what a couple people told me, I hope you all are right.

 

[highwaytoheaven]

@highwaytoheaven Hi there. I am also Christian, though my faith has suffered so much these last months, given the hell on earth that I am currently living. I know suicide is wrong and many who do it are not going to heaven. But when you are suffering so much as I am, I really, really struggle to understand that a merciful God, a heavenly father, who loves us more than we can imagine, would send His child to hell when they are suffering so horrendously and can't take it anymore. My faith has taught that you endure suffering no matter what and that God gives graces to withstand it but this iatrogenic, chemical damage and suffering is beyond imagination for most humans. It's unnatural. And yet so is suicide, unfortunately, and not how we are meant to go. The knowledge of this makes it all so much worse for me.

I believe God is merciful too. The Bible says that His mercy endures forever. I have personally seen the goodness of God. I can testify of his existence and his absolute loving kindness. His loving is so healing like no other love that a human gives. It's supernatural.

The suffering of life mentioned in this forum reminds me of the book of Job where he was cursing the day he was born and asking God why he was suffering so much. He did not understand the higher reason for it.

I honestly feel a lot better after receiving prayer from some people now. Prayer is so very powerful. As Steve Harvey says, prayer changes things.

I sometimes question too why he allows us to go through sooo much though, even though his love is so big for us. The Bible says, his ways are higher than our ways, just as how heaven is higher than the earth. That's where faith has to come in and you just have to believe in Him regardless of what is going on in life. Faith is something you build up, and faith comes by hearing. I hope this helps.

Faith is the only thing that has kept me strong. I listened to sermons about christians going to heaven on YouTube today. It was comforting, but I think I want to enter into recovery instead of suicide. God is still good. Christians are called to be the light in this dark world, and if you're reading this, don't give up on God. Don't give up on life.

 

[highwaytoheaven]

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I don't think I will find the right words to bring you any comfort, but I am going to try and write you a prayer here:

Dear Heavenly Father, where 2 or more are gathered, there you are in the midst of us. We lift up your name and magnify you Lord. Father, I know that you are good and that your ways are higher than our human ways. I cannot claim to understand the amount of torment and suffering that @suffering_mo_7 has been going through. It has been beyond bearable to the point of not seeing a way out. It has been back to back suffering and prolonged suffering. Father, your word says that you are the same today, yesterday and forever, and it was the woman's faith that made her well. I intercede on behalf of my friend here that you would lighten their suffering and remove it altogether. I pray for a healing miracle to take place in their life. I pray for hope to be restored and for faith to renewed. Your word says that we should be transformed by the renewing of our mind. I believe that anything is possible, and I have heard stories where you have miraculously healed people when they sleep and even in their dreams and even when they are awake too. Father in your mercy I pray that you would not give up on @suffering_mo_7 even if they have given up on you at points. Bless them with strength, wisdom, peace and a new joy for life, and show your compassion to them and your loving kindness because it is your supernatural love that all humans crave and need to keep going on. If the word of God has become dull to @suffering_mo_7 then please revive the word again in their heart. And Father it is also a physical healing that I am praying for also so that they can live a functioning and healthy life again. Do it for your child and do not let the enemy resist this move of God. Your word says who God blesses no man can curse, and it says in Isaiah 14:27 that no one can stop God when he moves. Father, make a mighty move in @suffering_mo_7 's life, this same day, this same week, this same hour, in Jesus mighty name I pray, amen.

 

[Steff1337]

Welcome to the forum! I hope that you'll find what you're looking for here.

 

[situationalsui]

I believe that Christians who believe in God and Christ Jesus will goto heaven when they commit suicide. It is just a sin like any other and he forgives all sins. I have heard reputable preachers state that those who commit suicide will not go to hell, but to heaven.

 

[Kali_Yuga13]

And yet so is suicide, unfortunately, and not how we are meant to go. The knowledge of this makes it all so much worse for me.

I am in a similar plight. I already had challenges in life and I made them infinitely worse to the point that I feel I have deviated so far from the life I "should" have lived or would want to live that it feels like a crappy sci-fi horror novel. I'm scared that on the other side of ctb that I will once again be confronted with the consequence of my mistakes and nothing will change. Really what I want is a cosmic eraser and a reset or do over.

Did my soul die because it was held in brain tissue that was killed?

I'm curious what happened to you...but only if you're comfortable sharing. Maybe you already did in a prior post or comment. I've heard an analogy that I like where the body is the antenna that picks up the signal from the higher self. So if your 'antenna' is broken the signal doesn't come through or not very clear but it's still there. Of course we can't easily swap out for a new antenna to test this out :(

 

[painofzed]

I believe God is merciful too. The Bible says that His mercy endures forever.

Try explaining that to the Canaanites, oh you cant, according to the bible he killed them all...

 

[highwaytoheaven]

Try explaining that to the Canaanites, oh you cant, according to the bible he killed them all...

My belief is that God creates life and can take life as well.

I'm on here because I've been feeling suicidal, so I obviously believe in taking your own life too.

Concerning the Canaanites and stories like sodom and Gomorrah, I believe he destroyed them because they were so deep into grave sin and wickedness. God is holy and pure, he doesn't like evil... they say that's why the devil got kicked out of heaven

 

[painofzed]

My belief is that God creates life and can take life as well.

I'm on here because I've been feeling suicidal, so I obviously believe in taking your own life too.

Concerning the Canaanites and stories like sodom and Gomorrah, I believe he destroyed them because they were so deep into grave sin and wickedness. God is holy and pure, he doesn't like evil... they say that's why the devil got kicked out of heaven

If some divine being destroyed humans it made flawed for no reason other than it didn't like their "sin" which it also created, it can go take a long walk off a short cliff. I don't need it, and it doesn't deserve the respect I'd give to a cockroach. I sincerely hope if it does exist that it fucks clean off.