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- Feb 13, 2026
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all i say here is very literal and i select all my words carefully and very literally, think about each word, i do not lie, i'm telling the truth etc. it's unwise to regard my text as less worthy of your attention bc of my RAGE (Race, Age, Gender, Ethnicity) or bc I type in british english.
I just don't know. I just really don't know. I think everyone's living because they don't have the time to think and.... like, I think alot and can come to conclusions that I deem to be true, and I was just thinking why I'm like this and I realised I've been groomed and I don't even like the things that I like and I just feel so stupid. Like, I'm a theist or at least in a sense, so I thought that God really loved me but it's complicated and I'm doing myself a mercy by not explaining it but... everything and love and that sort is not really what we think it is. We just love what what the object of our love represents, like we love the sentiment behind it- animals... they love us bc they see us as representatives of use and very useful to their survival and cannot even fathom how we're being so nice to them so they sort of just trust us, like us to God. We just... like, I think God real/is like how the the Golden Ratio is/is real, or how maths is real. Just because it works and results in a thing that seems resplendent to the ignorant or foolish eye, doesn't mean that it actually loves you. We just don't take the time to think about half of why we do things and lol wow... take the time to think why you love whoever and then think about what happens if that reason or symbol or whatever vanishes- not really 'unconditional love' is it? bc you loved them under a condition, hence why people always say 'you lose them how u got them' bc they were attracted to you by a condition, and when that condition goes then. But with God it's like, all conditions are certain and everlasting and there that's why we 'love him so much'. It's like how we love someone faithful, they never go away right they just stay there and are with us through everything so we are faithful and we trust them. Like maths, we understand that it's principles are never changing, never in subjection to anyone else's foolishness or subjection so we trust it and are faithful to it because it's a certain domination (we cling to certain dominations, like powerful useful men, most beautiful women, perfect forms of things), hence why why are trustful, faithful and confident in maths and so we use it for everything and it's in everything- like a abstract UNSEEN never changing thing that is not in subjection to anyone. Bible says that 'God shows no 'favouritism'.... like I was just thinking yesterday and bc my brain knows for certain I'm going to die it's pathetically trying to rationalise everything and it's like playfully interesting in a way but I don't have to worry bc I'll be dead in a few hours. I think my advice to the world is to just be happy, enjoy your husband or wife don't think too much about why you love them, act like a dog. Jesus knew a lot and it's crazy how no one will really, or I hope at least no one will understand it and change the world in like 500 years i think. Jesus just speaks in monkey language for us to understand but when you believe that he's is God as in is interchangeable with God or like a perfect metaphor of God and equal to God then you understand that the world is really evil lollll very evil and honestly if you just don't think it'll be fine for you. some are oppressed enough to believe that they are stupid and honestly, if you're oppressors treat you with relatively good treatment, just put up with it because life is final and when you keep ascending you'll look down and realise how fucked everyone is, hence why we don't dwell on psychology or meaning too much for fear of the ugly truth about humans. very scary to think about when you know that nothing will change for at least 500 years, that's if we survive. i always think about what the 'end of this age' may look like, I think it'll look like when everyone overcomes evil with good, i.e., publicising good instead of privatising it (which looks like giving to the ones who don't have enough money to buy good, like giving to those who have had no goodness in their life and so cannot get goodness because they don't have to means to. so someone with the means, who has known goodness, gives to them because they want to.) that's why animals are dumbfounded when you publcise goodness to them. with animals we look at how crazy and brutal and debase their life is and their society, but that's literal how we are in a form but more 'sophisticated' (and i think sophisticated or sophistication is such a stupid word, and it's connotations, because it entices that attributing and idolised form of something is somewhat good, and more superior to fundamentals which is wrong by nature because you can never be superior to fundementals because the fundamentals are what MADE you, hence why Jesus says that nobody can be greater than the one who bore or nursed or taught you, e.g. (jesus's speech all here) 'no one greater than teacher', 'no one greater than father', 'honour your mother and father', 'why do you call me good, only God is good'. When you take everything literal, like an autistic you see things for what they are and it's so utterly crushing and crazy to know that and be a member of society, that autistics either dumbify themselves or dominate the world, hence why zuckerberg dominates, jobbs dominates,. they understood the world and chose to conquer it and it's crazy and i like to think that i understand the world but it's just so frightening and depressing that this will go on for a good few years and people will die in the process out of vain, and evil will continue that I just can't live anymore. I understood that God isn't a literal Father but I saw the truth and I don't think I can live, hence why I say don't think about it too much, just live and act like a dog literally, your owners, if they're nice to you, will treat you well. Everything really is meaningless, humans just got bored and were so whatever about life that they attributed false values to everything, i.e., idolisation and now we can live i guess but when we think and strip the false values away and think fundamentally we get so depressed cause it's like wow life really is meaningless, and some use their understanding to just give into the hell and conquer it, some use just commit suicide or some get killed, i.e. prophets. like... i think that autistics are like blips in genetics that are so accustomed and find in naturally hard to succumb to the pathology of the world, hence their pure nature and relatively disabilty in telling lies therefore being true in ways, that's why you find it so refreshing to see an autistic because he just acts how he acts without worry of shame (why do we shame the truth, because we don't want it- because we can't accept it for fear of unsocialisation, which isn't bad- all verified through 'the spirit of truth is coming, the world cannot accept it because it neither hears it or sees it') and you cringe to that because... idk anyway i might die in a hour or two just wanted to get it all off my chest, this all seems so apparent to me that. no i did not go to uni, i'm 18 and i just well, i just asked God wisdom and I guess he h=gave it to me, since I believed with all my heart soul and everything and did not doubt for a second, like truly truly believing that 1+1=2, that's why when people marvel at me it's like how can you not believe that. anyway when I thought about this yesterday I got so tired I just passed out because i think i'm using too much of my brain and I thought I was dying I was like thank God lol but no I woke up the next day. and my neighbours made me want to put a bullet through my head or theirs so i thought why am i even prolonging this. i feel like i have a (in relation to others in my world) a good understanding of things and it pains me a lot that no one will see this in like a good few years. i'm sweating a lot, getting agitated, my brain feels like i'm going to pass out... i believe these things and act by them and i see purely and now everyone just like oh my gosh sorry. any goodbye
evil people, i.e. humans who have had good privatised from them, shouldn't rely on someone to understand them. they need to be brave and have compassion on those who they hate and that's how you start the process of the publication of good, making good available to the public- explains how when a stranger does a good deed to you, it's a chain reaction, bc they publicise and are merciful and compassionate and if it keeps going will lead to the kingdom of heaven. Trust me literally, love will conquer the world. Just... I think this is one good thing, for humans, to keep to, 'love the Lord your God' and 'love your neighbor as yourself'. Rid all false values of each other that podiumise one and just be content with everyone equally being truly at the feet of the podium. That means Caesar truly being at the feet of the podium with you, that means Drake truly being at the feet of the podium with you. You're scared for maybe you're like but what will people say or think... oh my gosh brochcocho people think as they breathe, you cannot fear the inevitable, it's like saying to someone 'hey can you please stop breathing, i'm scared that i may affect your breathing if i say something offensive so i will hope that you stop breathing .' it's going to cringe you and you're going to get hurt and you'll want alcohol and that stuff but 'the love of most will grow cold, but the one who perseveres until the end will be saved'. When everyone is at the feet then all will rise and it be good, but everyone just wants to dominate. Hence why Jesus says, the one who is a slave to all will be the greatest among any- THAT IS THE 'TRICK' to LIFE. bro, please i just, I hope someone reads this takes me seriously and hears it. i love you and not for my ego or for someone , because it makes sense and the world is fucked and it disadvantages me and you to even dislike you in the slightest. i don't say these things to be good, it's because they're true. it's like me saying to you '1+1=2' and you reply 'oh my gosh wowwww, you're good for believing that.' like what the fuck? people don't believe me cause they're too scared and it's like yeah i DON'T blame you. some people come to branches of knowledge and get too depressed and think that's all and spread false ideology thinking themselves to be right, but that's why i regurgitate that 'the one who perseveres until the end will be saved', trust trustttttt bro honestly. if you don't trust my words then trust how i understand this and shallowly breathe as i type and want to die because you don't understand it. literally, i have my rope and hanging my set up and i want to die.
throw away everything and deem yourself as unworthy to everyone, that's what i did. that's why people who are wise in the world eyes, i.e. those who credentials and recommendations and influence from their coveted abundances, i.e. uni people, rich people etc. do not see 100% clearly. God hid it all from the wise and learned but when you trust that God is truly above all of that and and seek it like you seek for food, then you will find it, TRUST ME. like in modern terms, Jesus was literally telling you how to conquer the world with good with x234 'trust me bro' and then they killed him, like, you see how it's useless? you see as i speak now i bet you won't even read until here? if you did i won't congratulate you because it's your duty. it's like saying well done for finding water, YOU WERE GOING TO DIE IF YOU DIDN'T FIND IT. i refuse to just regurgitate this for my own ego to pretend to be a good pure selfless person. good pure selfless people are killed half the time, not believed or commit suicide.
i'm tired and i feel myself passing out so i'm going to sign off, if i don't die die today then idk. suicidal thoughts and the accessible means to completing them makes me think clearly so idk, might die today, but i'll be in heaven whatever that looks like, eternal peace and no worry about falsehood. if God is truly like wings and angels then cool i guess. i'm so hungry lol, gonna eat some beans on toast as my last dinner. i didn't really love anyone unconditionally, only God. i love God. thank God. Amen.
it's easy to label anything you find unintelligible as crazy. you can deem me as crazy just as you deemed that guy who left life to live in the woods. as you understood how he got to the decision to leave to go to the woods you start to abandon that deemation of craziness, because you understand therefore it is intelligible. you can deem the girl who became a stripper crazy and slut, did you ever consider that she's like that because she didn't have a family. you can deem that guy who looks autistic when he finds something great in music and you just can't fathom it. you can deem people crazy because you don't understand them, and you can get away with it, because you are sure that you won't be in that position. but what happens when you are? that;s why it's good to believe first and then intelligibility will come to you.
everyone's autistic and you can tap into it. trust. just let go man. bye
i'm literally having a stroke, my speech is slurred and my tongue is like too tired to do anything, and i feel tired. i might die as i type this. I'm very grateful for Jesus and all the people that He influenced. also, don't bother with pleasantries or falsehood or flattery towards God, that's why you don't see him. be humble true and transparent and inferior like a child and then you'll see God.
just believe, i'm not calling myself anything, discern what you think this is. Amen, amen.
I didn't go to uni I just read the Bible and were attracted to those who by their fruits were the message of the Bible in a form and learnt from them too.
i'm black, female, 18, like... everything the world sees as stupid. but this is to reveal God's glory, not mine, and show that he reveals himself to anyone- like maths. maths will go on exactly how it wants without favoritism or prejudice to anyone, it subjects to no one and no matter who wields it it comes with the truth. i abandoned all my privileges and made myself nothing, i abandoned the privileges of my race, age, sex and ethnicity and saw God. I purified myself and saw myself as just God's creation and saw God. it scared me so much I can't live.
i love you. bye.
I just don't know. I just really don't know. I think everyone's living because they don't have the time to think and.... like, I think alot and can come to conclusions that I deem to be true, and I was just thinking why I'm like this and I realised I've been groomed and I don't even like the things that I like and I just feel so stupid. Like, I'm a theist or at least in a sense, so I thought that God really loved me but it's complicated and I'm doing myself a mercy by not explaining it but... everything and love and that sort is not really what we think it is. We just love what what the object of our love represents, like we love the sentiment behind it- animals... they love us bc they see us as representatives of use and very useful to their survival and cannot even fathom how we're being so nice to them so they sort of just trust us, like us to God. We just... like, I think God real/is like how the the Golden Ratio is/is real, or how maths is real. Just because it works and results in a thing that seems resplendent to the ignorant or foolish eye, doesn't mean that it actually loves you. We just don't take the time to think about half of why we do things and lol wow... take the time to think why you love whoever and then think about what happens if that reason or symbol or whatever vanishes- not really 'unconditional love' is it? bc you loved them under a condition, hence why people always say 'you lose them how u got them' bc they were attracted to you by a condition, and when that condition goes then. But with God it's like, all conditions are certain and everlasting and there that's why we 'love him so much'. It's like how we love someone faithful, they never go away right they just stay there and are with us through everything so we are faithful and we trust them. Like maths, we understand that it's principles are never changing, never in subjection to anyone else's foolishness or subjection so we trust it and are faithful to it because it's a certain domination (we cling to certain dominations, like powerful useful men, most beautiful women, perfect forms of things), hence why why are trustful, faithful and confident in maths and so we use it for everything and it's in everything- like a abstract UNSEEN never changing thing that is not in subjection to anyone. Bible says that 'God shows no 'favouritism'.... like I was just thinking yesterday and bc my brain knows for certain I'm going to die it's pathetically trying to rationalise everything and it's like playfully interesting in a way but I don't have to worry bc I'll be dead in a few hours. I think my advice to the world is to just be happy, enjoy your husband or wife don't think too much about why you love them, act like a dog. Jesus knew a lot and it's crazy how no one will really, or I hope at least no one will understand it and change the world in like 500 years i think. Jesus just speaks in monkey language for us to understand but when you believe that he's is God as in is interchangeable with God or like a perfect metaphor of God and equal to God then you understand that the world is really evil lollll very evil and honestly if you just don't think it'll be fine for you. some are oppressed enough to believe that they are stupid and honestly, if you're oppressors treat you with relatively good treatment, just put up with it because life is final and when you keep ascending you'll look down and realise how fucked everyone is, hence why we don't dwell on psychology or meaning too much for fear of the ugly truth about humans. very scary to think about when you know that nothing will change for at least 500 years, that's if we survive. i always think about what the 'end of this age' may look like, I think it'll look like when everyone overcomes evil with good, i.e., publicising good instead of privatising it (which looks like giving to the ones who don't have enough money to buy good, like giving to those who have had no goodness in their life and so cannot get goodness because they don't have to means to. so someone with the means, who has known goodness, gives to them because they want to.) that's why animals are dumbfounded when you publcise goodness to them. with animals we look at how crazy and brutal and debase their life is and their society, but that's literal how we are in a form but more 'sophisticated' (and i think sophisticated or sophistication is such a stupid word, and it's connotations, because it entices that attributing and idolised form of something is somewhat good, and more superior to fundamentals which is wrong by nature because you can never be superior to fundementals because the fundamentals are what MADE you, hence why Jesus says that nobody can be greater than the one who bore or nursed or taught you, e.g. (jesus's speech all here) 'no one greater than teacher', 'no one greater than father', 'honour your mother and father', 'why do you call me good, only God is good'. When you take everything literal, like an autistic you see things for what they are and it's so utterly crushing and crazy to know that and be a member of society, that autistics either dumbify themselves or dominate the world, hence why zuckerberg dominates, jobbs dominates,. they understood the world and chose to conquer it and it's crazy and i like to think that i understand the world but it's just so frightening and depressing that this will go on for a good few years and people will die in the process out of vain, and evil will continue that I just can't live anymore. I understood that God isn't a literal Father but I saw the truth and I don't think I can live, hence why I say don't think about it too much, just live and act like a dog literally, your owners, if they're nice to you, will treat you well. Everything really is meaningless, humans just got bored and were so whatever about life that they attributed false values to everything, i.e., idolisation and now we can live i guess but when we think and strip the false values away and think fundamentally we get so depressed cause it's like wow life really is meaningless, and some use their understanding to just give into the hell and conquer it, some use just commit suicide or some get killed, i.e. prophets. like... i think that autistics are like blips in genetics that are so accustomed and find in naturally hard to succumb to the pathology of the world, hence their pure nature and relatively disabilty in telling lies therefore being true in ways, that's why you find it so refreshing to see an autistic because he just acts how he acts without worry of shame (why do we shame the truth, because we don't want it- because we can't accept it for fear of unsocialisation, which isn't bad- all verified through 'the spirit of truth is coming, the world cannot accept it because it neither hears it or sees it') and you cringe to that because... idk anyway i might die in a hour or two just wanted to get it all off my chest, this all seems so apparent to me that. no i did not go to uni, i'm 18 and i just well, i just asked God wisdom and I guess he h=gave it to me, since I believed with all my heart soul and everything and did not doubt for a second, like truly truly believing that 1+1=2, that's why when people marvel at me it's like how can you not believe that. anyway when I thought about this yesterday I got so tired I just passed out because i think i'm using too much of my brain and I thought I was dying I was like thank God lol but no I woke up the next day. and my neighbours made me want to put a bullet through my head or theirs so i thought why am i even prolonging this. i feel like i have a (in relation to others in my world) a good understanding of things and it pains me a lot that no one will see this in like a good few years. i'm sweating a lot, getting agitated, my brain feels like i'm going to pass out... i believe these things and act by them and i see purely and now everyone just like oh my gosh sorry. any goodbye
evil people, i.e. humans who have had good privatised from them, shouldn't rely on someone to understand them. they need to be brave and have compassion on those who they hate and that's how you start the process of the publication of good, making good available to the public- explains how when a stranger does a good deed to you, it's a chain reaction, bc they publicise and are merciful and compassionate and if it keeps going will lead to the kingdom of heaven. Trust me literally, love will conquer the world. Just... I think this is one good thing, for humans, to keep to, 'love the Lord your God' and 'love your neighbor as yourself'. Rid all false values of each other that podiumise one and just be content with everyone equally being truly at the feet of the podium. That means Caesar truly being at the feet of the podium with you, that means Drake truly being at the feet of the podium with you. You're scared for maybe you're like but what will people say or think... oh my gosh brochcocho people think as they breathe, you cannot fear the inevitable, it's like saying to someone 'hey can you please stop breathing, i'm scared that i may affect your breathing if i say something offensive so i will hope that you stop breathing .' it's going to cringe you and you're going to get hurt and you'll want alcohol and that stuff but 'the love of most will grow cold, but the one who perseveres until the end will be saved'. When everyone is at the feet then all will rise and it be good, but everyone just wants to dominate. Hence why Jesus says, the one who is a slave to all will be the greatest among any- THAT IS THE 'TRICK' to LIFE. bro, please i just, I hope someone reads this takes me seriously and hears it. i love you and not for my ego or for someone , because it makes sense and the world is fucked and it disadvantages me and you to even dislike you in the slightest. i don't say these things to be good, it's because they're true. it's like me saying to you '1+1=2' and you reply 'oh my gosh wowwww, you're good for believing that.' like what the fuck? people don't believe me cause they're too scared and it's like yeah i DON'T blame you. some people come to branches of knowledge and get too depressed and think that's all and spread false ideology thinking themselves to be right, but that's why i regurgitate that 'the one who perseveres until the end will be saved', trust trustttttt bro honestly. if you don't trust my words then trust how i understand this and shallowly breathe as i type and want to die because you don't understand it. literally, i have my rope and hanging my set up and i want to die.
throw away everything and deem yourself as unworthy to everyone, that's what i did. that's why people who are wise in the world eyes, i.e. those who credentials and recommendations and influence from their coveted abundances, i.e. uni people, rich people etc. do not see 100% clearly. God hid it all from the wise and learned but when you trust that God is truly above all of that and and seek it like you seek for food, then you will find it, TRUST ME. like in modern terms, Jesus was literally telling you how to conquer the world with good with x234 'trust me bro' and then they killed him, like, you see how it's useless? you see as i speak now i bet you won't even read until here? if you did i won't congratulate you because it's your duty. it's like saying well done for finding water, YOU WERE GOING TO DIE IF YOU DIDN'T FIND IT. i refuse to just regurgitate this for my own ego to pretend to be a good pure selfless person. good pure selfless people are killed half the time, not believed or commit suicide.
i'm tired and i feel myself passing out so i'm going to sign off, if i don't die die today then idk. suicidal thoughts and the accessible means to completing them makes me think clearly so idk, might die today, but i'll be in heaven whatever that looks like, eternal peace and no worry about falsehood. if God is truly like wings and angels then cool i guess. i'm so hungry lol, gonna eat some beans on toast as my last dinner. i didn't really love anyone unconditionally, only God. i love God. thank God. Amen.
it's easy to label anything you find unintelligible as crazy. you can deem me as crazy just as you deemed that guy who left life to live in the woods. as you understood how he got to the decision to leave to go to the woods you start to abandon that deemation of craziness, because you understand therefore it is intelligible. you can deem the girl who became a stripper crazy and slut, did you ever consider that she's like that because she didn't have a family. you can deem that guy who looks autistic when he finds something great in music and you just can't fathom it. you can deem people crazy because you don't understand them, and you can get away with it, because you are sure that you won't be in that position. but what happens when you are? that;s why it's good to believe first and then intelligibility will come to you.
everyone's autistic and you can tap into it. trust. just let go man. bye
i'm literally having a stroke, my speech is slurred and my tongue is like too tired to do anything, and i feel tired. i might die as i type this. I'm very grateful for Jesus and all the people that He influenced. also, don't bother with pleasantries or falsehood or flattery towards God, that's why you don't see him. be humble true and transparent and inferior like a child and then you'll see God.
just believe, i'm not calling myself anything, discern what you think this is. Amen, amen.
I didn't go to uni I just read the Bible and were attracted to those who by their fruits were the message of the Bible in a form and learnt from them too.
i'm black, female, 18, like... everything the world sees as stupid. but this is to reveal God's glory, not mine, and show that he reveals himself to anyone- like maths. maths will go on exactly how it wants without favoritism or prejudice to anyone, it subjects to no one and no matter who wields it it comes with the truth. i abandoned all my privileges and made myself nothing, i abandoned the privileges of my race, age, sex and ethnicity and saw God. I purified myself and saw myself as just God's creation and saw God. it scared me so much I can't live.
i love you. bye.
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