Venting Having noxacusis

[Ichigo]

Day 4 of having noxacusis, I had good sleep woke up at 7:21 but my left ear is aching trying to have hope but I still contemplating whether it is worth or not to just ctb

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be so awful and tiring what you have to go through, I find it so horrible how there is unlimited potential to suffer in this world, existing really is so dreadful and torturous. But anyway I wish you the best in whatever happens going forward.

 

[Letgo]

How are you feeling? Does it hurt a lot?

 

[Ichigo]

How are you feeling? Does it hurt a lot?

No not today. yesterday my ear was burning really bad. Today it wasn't hurting much but I don't care I still want to die, some people with nox say the pain gets so bad it's unbearable I don't want that to happen to me. I rather die before going through that. And it just sucks... cause I don't want to die... Im going to miss everything.... But i might have to...

No not today. yesterday my ear was burning really bad. Today it wasn't hurting much but I don't care I still want to die, some people with nox say the pain gets so bad it's unbearable I don't want that to happen to me. I rather die before going through that. And it just sucks... cause I don't want to die... Im going to miss everything.... But i might have to...

And my mom just keeps saying that im going to be okay, and she keeps coming upstairs to tell me not to cry so i wont get sick. She tells me to stop reading up about noxacusis because it's making me feel worse.

 

[Crono]

I don't have noxacusis but somehow I understand you, I have autism and sensory sensitivity and for me all noises are extremely loud, I am also sensitive even to light. This world is extremely noisy, humans make a lot of noise.

 

[Ichigo]

No not today. yesterday my ear was burning really bad. Today it wasn't hurting much but I don't care I still want to die, some people with nox say the pain gets so bad it's unbearable I don't want that to happen to me. I rather die before going through that. And it just sucks... cause I don't want to die... Im going to miss everything.... But i might have to...

And my mom just keeps saying that im going to be okay, and she keeps coming upstairs to tell me not to cry so i wont get sick. She tells me to stop reading up about noxacusis because it's making me feel worse.

I know that shes is just trying to comfort me, but I just....dont know

 

[Readytogo246]

Blessings for taking stock and really getting clear about the whole picture so it isn't a reaction......but a thought out decision you feel entirely good about.

 

[JordanF]

Day 4 of having noxacusis, I had good sleep woke up at 7:21 but my left ear is aching trying to have hope but I still contemplating whether it is worth or not to just ctb

I have noxacusis as well. It's a hard condition to live with and it's been pushing me to consider suicide as well. I actually found this forum from this post when I was browsing google for more information.

I was wondering, how is your condition now? Have you seen any improvements? I hope the pain in your ears has lessened now. I have found that CBD cream on the side helps a lot, but it can be rather expensive.

 

[ShadowDancer]

I had this. Thank god it went away but I still have constant ear pain due to contracted tensor tympani muscles. And other issues....

 

[JordanF]

I had this. Thank god it went away but I still have constant ear pain due to contracted tensor tympani muscles. And other issues....

I'm glad you've recovered! I think most cases of noxacusis do get better with time as long as setbacks are avoided. However, it does remain important to avoid any major sounds or setback as they can bring noxacusis back, and I've known some people who had this happen to them.

I have heard of some people with TTTS who cut their tensor tympani muscle, but it might be a bit risky as it lowers the protection that your ear has for itself.

I am curious, do you have loudness hyperacusis as well?

 

[Meditation guide]

None of you know suffering unless you've had a kidney stone that was stuck in your ureter. Suffering is
really unlimited and you learn that if you have a stuck kidney stone. It did a number on my mind, permanently.

 

[ShadowDancer]

None of you know suffering unless you've had a kidney stone that was stuck in your ureter. Suffering is
really unlimited and you learn that if you have a stuck kidney stone. It did a number on my mind, permanently.

Let's not turn it into a pissing contest. I suffered way more than you due to incompetent doctors. I had surgeries once on and once inside my penis had s catheter inserted twice, blood all over, and still didn't get better they gave me poison pills in the form of antibiotics which gave me tinnitus and mine was particularly bad, they gave me mirtazapine and messed it up even more, you don't know pain unless you felt electricity move inside your head all night and physically burn your brain. I can't sleep either btw. I'm brain damaged.

I'm glad you've recovered! I think most cases of noxacusis do get better with time as long as setbacks are avoided. However, it does remain important to avoid any major sounds or setback as they can bring noxacusis back, and I've known some people who had this happen to them.

I have heard of some people with TTTS who cut their tensor tympani muscle, but it might be a bit risky as it lowers the protection that your ear has for itself.

I am curious, do you have loudness hyperacusis as well?

I have loudness hyperacusis now. Over 97dbs and tensor tympani vibrates and I can't stand it. It used to be so that I couldn't even talk on the phone it got better but stuck there. Still, some car horns and stuff startle me. So I still have it.
Don't have the ttts cut it gives hyperacusis to you if u do it. There should be other solutions.

 

[Meditation guide]

I don't want to have a contest but let me tell you that I would have cut open my entire body stabbed my eyes out cut my arms off jumped off a skyscraper anything to get away from the screaming pain night and day you don't know torture. The nurses kept telling me to stop screaming but I couldn't help it. On day four my voice finally gave out. I have CPTSD now permanently and have a fear of pizza and soda since that was what I was eating when it started.
I came home from the hospital and wrapped an electric cord around my neck and tried to hang myself just so it would never happen again.

 

[whywhywhy]

I don't want to have a contest but let me tell you that I would have cut open my entire body stabbed my eyes out cut my arms off jumped off a skyscraper anything to get away from the screaming pain night and day you don't know torture. The nurses kept telling me to stop screaming but I couldn't help it. On day four my voice finally gave out. I have CPTSD now permanently and have a fear of pizza and soda since that was what I was eating when it started.
I came home from the hospital and wrapped an electric cord around my neck and tried to hang myself just so it would never happen again.

Holy shit. Couldnt they just give you sedatives or anesthesia?

 

[Meditation guide]

Holy shit. Couldnt they just give you sedatives or anesthesia?

they kept injecting me with morphine but they should have had me on fentynil. My fucked up doctor wouldn't prescribe it and never even came in the room to see me! Finally on day four they put me to sleep and removed the kidney stone. By that time my mind was gone.

 

[ShadowDancer]

Fuck life.