Venting Have you ever noticed that its all "your" fault?

[demitriusmigsysvotf]

During my life I have been venting to some close people to me, telling my shit and etc. And all the time it all ended up that I`m sort of a fucking psycho that I want to ctb but find a reason to live in ones I loved. It just all ends up that they tell me I`m disgusting, that they just break down on me. Cause its "my" fault, that I deserved all agression they throw on me. It`s like they can say at the random moment that they hate me and that they should`ve found other person. Shit, that hurts a lot, especially the fact that I trusted them and because of that kept repeating all my mistakes and shit. I donno, I just can`t let the past go.

 

[Daryl72]

During my life I have been venting to some close people to me, telling my shit and etc. And all the time it all ended up that I`m sort of a fucking psycho that I want to ctb but find a reason to live in ones I loved. It just all ends up that they tell me I`m disgusting, that they just break down on me. Cause its "my" fault, that I deserved all agression they throw on me. It`s like they can say at the random moment that they hate me and that they should`ve found other person. Shit, that hurts a lot, especially the fact that I trusted them and because of that kept repeating all my mistakes and shit. I donno, I just can`t let the past go.

You are not alone in that way of thinking. It's very hard to let go of the past. Also I feel like everything was mistakes and stupid decisions that led me to searching desperately not a way to end it all

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

I am very aware that it's my fault.