Am I overreacting?

[Elleny]

I feel like I should end my life. I have very few friends, never had a boyfriend (I'm 32), I am asexual (and not interested in sex). I feel very lonely even if I still live with my family. Other people my age are working, getting married and having kids. I am not doing any of these things. I just hate my life. I am an art minor and when people find out they tell me that unemployment it's all my fault. I would like to study something else but my family is not supporting me anymore. I would love to take art and illustration courses but I am very short of money. I am currently given a disability allowance by my country (Italy) which is just 350€, if I need more money I need to ask my parents. I feel like a child. I am already seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist but things don't change. I feel like I should throw myself out of the window and end my life. The invalidity pension is not forever, doctors will decide if I still am allowed to get it next october, so I may loose it. I feel like there's no point in living like this.

 

[sdco23]

I'm sure the pressure to have children in a country like Italy is very high. One of the most wonderful people I've ever met was an asexual woman who was a librarian at my job. I admire her a lot because she just was good at all of her hobbies and always seemed to give the best recommendations for books and games.