Hate being so scared

[shadow_sunset]

I am so jealous of the people that actually have the guts to do it. I've wanted to for as long as I can remember and I still don't know why I am so scared to. I wish there was just a pill I could take and just fade away forever.

 

[Jadeith]

Fear is one of the most natural responses your body can give. Suicide is a decision, a calculation of sorts of pros and cons of staying versus eliminating oneself. If your fear keeps you here, it means that subconsciously you've made a calculation and result is that whatever shit is happening to you is not worse than death. Not yet at least.
It's not a reason to feel ashamed or guilty.

 

[shadow_sunset]

Fear is one of the most natural responses your body can give. Suicide is a decision, a calculation of sorts of pros and cons of staying versus eliminating oneself. If your fear keeps you here, it means that subconsciously you've made a calculation and result is that whatever shit is happening to you is not worse than death. Not yet at least.
It's not a reason to feel ashamed or guilty.

No it's because literally and logically suicide is the best choice for me, it's just this stupid survival instinct I can't get rid of

 

[Jadeith]

And survival instinct tells you that it is not so literally and not so best as you want to believe. Everyone fears death, maybe except selected few who drugged themselves, got heavily drunk or have some specific brain damage. Yet, thousands upon thousands each year off themselves, reaching point where their problems over weigh fear of death.
Look, i know you are in a shitty place rn and you want out, otherwise we wouldn't be talking here. All i'm saying - trust your gut. Your body tells you "not now, not yet". And that's fine.

 

[shadow_sunset]

And survival instinct tells you that it is not so literally and not so best as you want to believe. Everyone fears death, maybe except selected few who drugged themselves, got heavily drunk or have some specific brain damage. Yet, thousands upon thousands each year off themselves, reaching point where their problems over weigh fear of death.
Look, i know you are in a shitty place rn and you want out, otherwise we wouldn't be talking here. All i'm saying - trust your gut. Your body tells you "not now, not yet". And that's fine.

Well I guess if you put it that way, I could see that. I mean I'll trust it. It's just that whole like always in the back of my mind thing all day everyday is taking over a lot more recently. Also if I may be so bold, like you said if I wasn't here I obviously wouldn't be wanting to just be gone, I don't want to sound mean but you honestly sound like you got your shi together so I'm wondering what you're doing here? In the off chance of sounding silly you sound very like idk the word "bougie" it's a compliment honestly but I guess since it's anonymous in here I'm more bold than I'd be otherwise

 

[Terrible_Life]

And survival instinct tells you that it is not so literally and not so best as you want to believe. Everyone fears death, maybe except selected few who drugged themselves, got heavily drunk or have some specific brain damage. Yet, thousands upon thousands each year off themselves, reaching point where their problems over weigh fear of death.
Look, i know you are in a shitty place rn and you want out, otherwise we wouldn't be talking here. All i'm saying - trust your gut. Your body tells you "not now, not yet". And that's fine.

And what if a person did research every alternative to suicide and the person came to the conclusion that he don't want any other option he just wants to end his life? For example a person comes to the point where he just only suffers all the time and he knows if he doesn't ctb he need to seek help he needs therapy etc but the person is against this because he knows it won't help it won't heal him to the point where he can live a life he wished to have. So the person knows its either continue this miserable life or suicide but still he has si. What is that then? I don't think for this person one could say well not now not yet because the more he prolongs the innevatible suicide the more he suffers day after day after day after day…

 

[shadow_sunset]

And what if a person did research every alternative to suicide and the person came to the conclusion that he don't want any other option he just wants to end his life? For example a person comes to the point where he just only suffers all the time and he knows if he doesn't ctb he need to seek help he needs therapy etc but the person is against this because he knows it won't help it won't heal him to the point where he can live a life he wished to have. So the person knows its either continue this miserable life or suicide but still he has si. What is that then? I don't think for this person one could say well not now not yet because the more he prolongs the innevatible suicide the more he suffers day after day after day after day…

Yeah I felt this one a little too close