Has someone planed to ctb the next month/within this year?

[Sea Turtle]

I got my meto today over a teledoc appointment. It was as easy as people said. I told the doctor I wanted meto since it would address both the nausea and migraines. She tried to suggest something else for just the nausea. I reinforced that a friend has the same issues and I would like to try meto first since it would help both problems. So she said we would try it to see if it worked. You can do it.

Unfortunately that isn't an option for me but thank you :)

 

[Buddha.e.c]

Same i wish you the best.

 

[AMorteVivente]

I want to ctb in March but f** stupid amazon SN is taking ages to get here, if it does get here that is, and I don't have more sources besides 2 stores in my country, one refuses to sell it without showing documents and stuff, the other says nothing about SN purity. I am trapped here, ready to ctb with or without pain and without SI, but trapped notheless.

 

[brnggundottxt]

God willing.

 

[ultrafuntimes]

Everyday I wake up and promise myself "this is it, I am going to ctb today, no matter what!" just for me to decide I'll try tomorrow instead.
Yes, I have planned to ctb next month... for almost a year now. I'm just going to keep trying, with hope that the next day will be my last.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

Beginning of April I will meet another guy, we plan to hang together.

 

[die2live]

I will ctb as soon as I get the materials together

 

[𖣴 nadia 𖣴]

I have everything prepared, but I have to wait 5 months until August for the rare chance to be completely alone for a few hours. Recently, it feels like all the clocks have slowed down.

 

[thatday]

At this point its just like wtf, everything goes wrong, everything is extra hard, its just pain and letdowns.
I think its the best for me to let go once and for all.
Has anyone else also planed or is looking forward to ctb within this year?

yep very close to ctb. message me. cant be bothered with this merry go round any more and want to get off. :( cant wait to see some people on the other side

 

[Murasa]

Yup, I'm running out of time but I screwed up something and now I can't turn to SN.

 

[anywherebuthere]

Before august . I refuse to make it to my birthday . I'll be part of the 27 club forever .

 

[tieiwi]

I think within this year I will. Life is too much and I am too weak.

 

[thatday]

I got my meto today over a teledoc appointment. It was as easy as people said. I told the doctor I wanted meto since it would address both the nausea and migraines. She tried to suggest something else for just the nausea. I reinforced that a friend has the same issues and I would like to try meto first since it would help both problems. So she said we would try it to see if it worked. You can do it.

i so want to end it all, be in a bad way since 2019, no help no one cares. fuck life love death. cant be that hard, a rope and some where discreet or a generator in the boot of a and a small car.

please let me go i hate this evil life.

I'm leaving now Friday the 18th

I'm leaving now Friday the 18th

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I plan to CTB this year, somewhere around September/October hopefully. I'm working on three different forms of suicide note and plan to release them before I go.

 

[thatday]

i so want to end it all, be in a bad way since 2019, no help no one cares. fuck life love death. cant be that hard, a rope and some where discreet or a generator in the boot of a and a small car.

please let me go i hate this evil life.

fancy calling me and going together?

I'm leaving now Friday the 18th

fancy calling me and leaving together????

 

[AMorteVivente]

I am about to buy my SN with 99 % purity from a chemical store and in 5 hours I will ask for propranolol to a private psych. I will be dead in less than 1 week if all goes as intended.

 

[Micheal64]

Me, I'll ctb this summer, I'd go with sn, but if i can't, partial or full suspension.
If everything goes according to my plans, I will have died before September.

 

[Shu]

I got my meto today over a teledoc appointment. It was as easy as people said. I told the doctor I wanted meto since it would address both the nausea and migraines. She tried to suggest something else for just the nausea. I reinforced that a friend has the same issues and I would like to try meto first since it would help both problems. So she said we would try it to see if it worked. You can do it.

Was it your primary care? If all goes well and my doctor prescribes me meto I'll be going in the next week or so. If not I will have to wait another month and half

 

[Hans1961]

I don't have an exact date yet, but I could very well imagine going this year. I'm still unsure about the choice of method, but it will probably end in CO or SN. There is some time left to do more research.

 

[ameliacecelia]

Was it your primary care? If all goes well and my doctor prescribes me meto I'll be going in the next week or so. If not I will have to wait another month and half

My primary care prescribed me the propranolol without a new appointment. I've been on it before for anxiety. I told her I wanted to taper off klonipin recently and she gave me hydroxyzine. I sent a message through the client portal about both and she just went ahead and sent in a script for the propranolol. I had to make another telehealth appointment with the soonest available doctor at that office to get the meto and was able to get in that day. I do actually get migraines and nausea but one of my specialist doctors told me it was related to the mitochondrial problems. He told me take CoQ10 and that helped but I've recently been having new instances of it so it wasn't so difficult to talk about how much I needed something to treat both.

My primary care prescribed me the propranolol without a new appointment. I've been on it before for anxiety. I told her I wanted to taper off klonipin recently and she gave me hydroxyzine. I sent a message through the client portal about both and she just went ahead and sent in a script for the propranolol. I had to make another telehealth appointment with the soonest available doctor at that office to get the meto and was able to get in that day. I do actually get migraines and nausea but one of my specialist doctors told me it was related to the mitochondrial problems. He told me take CoQ10 and that helped but I've recently been having new instances of it so it wasn't so difficult to talk about how much I needed something to treat both.

I would have done actual teladoc but I've spent over 5 hours on the phone with them trying to get my medicaid connected and it's just not working

 

[KimKevorkian]

Many things I have a great responsibility to arrange and get in order before I ctb. Plus, much depends on Fate and how much I can turn around the bad fortune that has been thrust upon me over the past number of years. Might end up sticking around if Fortune would kindly remove the cattle prod from my ass (it keeps poking me in the eye).

 

[bad luck]

If I. When N arrives (I'll order at the end of the month) and if it doesn't arrive I'll go with SN.

 

[lmon]

My plan is before my birthday this year.

Same

I am about to buy my SN with 99 % purity from a chemical store and in 5 hours I will ask for propranolol to a private psych. I will be dead in less than 1 week if all goes as intended.

What is the point of the propranolol ?

 

[lili]

End of March -mid April. My SN has taken forever to arrive.

I keep having these thoughts of paranoia that it will never arrive and it be confiscated or something from what I've read other people write. That the police will question me or something But that's my anxiety talking.

I am also really nervous that my ex boyfriend will discover the box before I do and decide to open it. I don't know what I will do with myself if that happens.

So I've just been playing the waiting game since first week of March. The waiting is killing me slowly.

I don't have any of the additional stuff besides the SN because I'm just not good at getting those drugs. I'm not a crafty person and I'm too dumb to understand how to find the PPH despite me being here like three weeks. My ideal option would have been N. Not the sites fault it's all me and my brain.

So I'll have to try SN by itself. I hope it works out and is not painful. Or leave too bad of a corpse.

 

[Life interrupted]

I hope N arrives successfully. Anytime it does I will end it

 

[Cheza_mus]

In easter season hopefully

 

[wCvML2]

I don't know for sure, and I could fail again so I can't predict when exactly I'll do it from start to finish

 

[ineedtoctb]

Once I can get my hands on that N , it's bon voyage for me. The sooner the better

 

[Thequietone]

At this point its just like wtf, everything goes wrong, everything is extra hard, its just pain and letdowns.
I think its the best for me to let go once and for all.
Has anyone else also planed or is looking forward to ctb within this year?

I planned to do it in October when I have a few days off work. Got all my stuff already and know where to go for it. Only thing that still stops me from doing it is my survival instinct.

Hope I can overcome it, so I have a plan but I'm not sure 100% if I do it.

 

[OnlyWinOnce]

I had thought about going sometime last year, and have thought about ending it all this year. I deluded myself into thinking that 2022 would be a chance for new beginnings but that was a lie; there is no escape from the pain and I just want it to end at last.