Has someone planed to ctb the next month/within this year?

[ghostunderthelight]

the deadline I have set for myself is within the year. I don't want to spend too long pushing the date back, but I'll need time to plan a successful exit.

 

[Zzzzz]

I certainly hope it's this year for me. Every day for me as well is filled with let downs and stupid drama.

 

[lmon]

I am about to buy my SN with 99 % purity from a chemical store and in 5 hours I will ask for propranolol to a private psych. I will be dead in less than 1 week if all goes as intended.

Whydoyouneed propranolol for that?

 

[Ready2GoNow2022]

Once I secure SN, I hope it will be within a month. My days are just wasted now, the only respite I have from my existential angst is sleep, and that is becoming harder and harder to achieve.

 

[puppet_nihilist]

I kept a few deadlines for myself but I keep getting scared and abandon the entire plan. Wish I could ask those who ctb already, see what gave them an edge over SI

 

[Socaku]

Probably..... I am just postponing it for some personal reasons..... SN method without antiemetics though....

 

[goingcrazy123]

Im planning before the end of the year... my family/close friends is the only reason I'm still here. I don't want to put then through that but I can't take this much longer ..

 

[FogFilledLife]

Soon, I hope.

 

[die2live]

Anyone from uk here planning before end of year? Please message me

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Yes, I am.

 

[Deleted member 31858]

Me! I hope in a couple of months. It can't be past this year. I am making annotations of important things for the use of SN. I must get what is necessary and the right place to do ctb.

 

[die2live]

Same, hoping to go before the end of summer

 

[Seeking_Peace]

Yeah once I get my N. Waiting on D. I want to go July the latest.

 

[emptyjokes]

Currently I'm looking at the last weekend of July. I'll be ordering SN and things this month. I still have to get my will sorted, so it depends on how long that takes, but I have a few commitments to stick to for mid July either way. Unless things suddenly get much better much faster, I'll be out of here before the snow falls. (I'm planning to drink my SN in the wilderness. Winters where I live are brutal so I would strongly prefer to leave during the summer.) If I can't make it that weekend, any week between early august to early October is perfectly fine as well.

 

[BlueNikky]

I am too. Midlands area, with very soon planned. Trying not to set a date, but I'm kind of being 'encouraged' to just get it done by a couple of people I once believed were close friends. Was planning exit bag with helium, but 'somehow' the seals got damaged and gas lost. Was then too scared in case not enough gas left. Might buy N soon though, as still think the most peaceful way to cross.
How are you today? x

 

[idonthavetobehere]

I have decided on SN as my preferred method and gonna go for July again. (That month is significant.) I absolutely am certain. I cannot do this anymore.

 

[outrider567]

I am too. Midlands area, with very soon planned. Trying not to set a date, but I'm kind of being 'encouraged' to just get it done by a couple of people I once believed were close friends. Was planning exit bag with helium, but 'somehow' the seals got damaged and gas lost. Was then too scared in case not enough gas left. Might buy N soon though, as still think the most peaceful way to cross.
How are you today? x

Sorry the helium escaped--Checking out with Nitrogen myself, but must wait til my only brother's battle with terminal lung cancer ends, which should be less than six months

 

[thendfornow]

I'll try my best to do it within this year even tho it will prolly be complicated due to my sister being back home ill never be alone. I'll still try reserve an hotel or something.

 

[Sun n showers]

sometime this year has soon has i've saved up 1100usd for N, the only problem is i send at least £400 per month on weed so it's hard for me to save up plus i have to pay bills and buy food as well, don't think i'll do a goodbye thread tho

Nembutal? Doesn't exist anywhere...

 

[nys]

I'm probably not going to ctb within the next month, but I will almost definitely do it sometime in 2022. I've wanted to ctb for years and keep pushing it back and I don't want to anymore

 

[freevoid]

Either october this year or early next year. Need time to get rid of stuff and order additional meds for SN. I don't want to rush myself. If I dont get everything done by october, then its next year. 90% of my immediate and extended family members birthdays are in Nov-Dec (my own included)...I don't want to tarnish the memory of anyone's birthday (or christmas period). Plus, season 2 of this series I like comes out in Nov. Might stick around just to see it lol

 

[bloop714]

I have my sn, maybe just waiting for a little trigger and I am gonna do, triggers are dangerous tbh

 

[CompleteControl]

I plan to before the end of this month, but am making sure all of the circumstances are fitting such as making sure have the ability to so so without being discovered etc so I continue to go about my life acting as if everything is normal and not trying to raise any red flags to the people around me. Wearing that fake smile and enjoying what time I have left Faking it til I make it.

 

[DarknessAndDespair]

Within 3 months before my conditions worsen even more.

 

[szk]

I'm looking forward to it. I think this would be a good decision for me as a new escape.

 

[MyLifeisHell]

Later this month.