lovelulu
with stars in my eyes, crying as I wheel.
- Jan 3, 2026
- 217
I've been trying for a while now and unfortunately im unable to get some SN. I was really hoping I could do it, but unfortunately I just couldn't get any. Im resorting back to hanging now, partial hanging. Im going to take around 420mg of an edible before I do it. The reason for this is so I wont be coherent enough to realize what im truly about to do, so that I wont chicken out because of my family (immense guilt), and so my SI wont be as bad. Though the biggest reason is just so I wont back out because of the guilt I'll feel. Now, I already know the risks for this—I'll be more prone to failing if im not in the right mind. The set up is for partial hanging and the rope is tied from my closet rod, so its not like I'll have to stand up on anything. But still, I know this is a dumb idea. Im doing this because I desperately need to die already, and my guilt of my family is the only thing holding me back. Im probably going to be called dumb for this, but believe me, I already know the risks. Im sorry if this is really stupid..
