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scp4514

scp4514

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Jun 8, 2026
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I put the noose around my neck and I lean into it, immediately feeling the pressure build in my head, and it's scary. I back out within seconds before even getting lightheaded, because I don't need to test it. I already know it'll work.

I've made a death machine in my home with just a rope, and it scares me. I don't know if I can commit to this.
 
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interna

Gone Tomorrow, Here Today
Dec 1, 2025
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don't do anything you're not ready for, you can't come back from death. hugs
 
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Jun 18, 2026
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I put the noose around my neck and I lean into it, immediately feeling the pressure build in my head, and it's scary. I back out within seconds before even getting lightheaded, because I don't need to test it. I already know it'll work.

I've made a death machine in my home with just a rope, and it scares me. I don't know if I can commit to this.
If hanging is that scary to you, give yourself more time to think this through, maybe find some other method.
 
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I'm pretty set on the method. I can't think of a better one. It's the reluctance I feel to die, even though I have nothing to live for.
 
Bishop

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People die the way they lived
Mar 24, 2024
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Welcome to survival instinct.
 
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Thank you all for being here for me during this dark time in my life. I'm grateful to have met this community.
 
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Sammystink

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Mar 30, 2026
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I tried hanging several times now, and the fear was intense, had a panic attack for like 30 minutes after my first attempt with it..
If it's scaring you, you should really reconsider it.. Maybe just spend awhile thinking it over..
 
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dirkw83

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Mar 4, 2026
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Yes it's very scary, when I tried full suspension hanging and I was putting the noose around my neck. I just knew that I couldn't do it. I don't understand that other people can do it, it's the scariest thing in the world to me. When I had that noose around my neck, I took it off quickly because I was even scared that I'd accidentally kick the chair. I tried also partial hanging, it's much less scary but I don't know how to kill myself with it.
 
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