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J1214
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- Jul 10, 2024
- 46
Hello everyone.
I've decided that today will be the day I carry through on my plan to CTB.
I thought about doing it on my birthday, but I've gotten to a point where I can't compete with life another day.
My chosen Method is death by ingesting a lethal dose of Sodium Nitrite.
I've got two bags, each 8 ounces; more than enough.
I've also got party cups, distilled water, Ibuprofen, an Antacid, and Nauzene.
My plan is to go about my day as if it were any other day. Just to make myself less suspicious.
Here is a timeline of sorts:
12:00 A.M.- 8:00 A.M.: fasting.
8:30 A.M.: wake up.
??:??: hang out with my Mother, tell her and my twin I love them both. Text the same to my older brother and Nieces.
5:00 or 7:00 P.M.: take 3 Ibuprofen.
7:15 P.M.: take 2 Nauzene.
7:30 P.M.: take 2 of the Antacid Calcium Carbonate.
8:00 P.M.: drink 25 or more grams of Sodium Nitrite. Listen to the Touch by Stan Bush and After Dark by Mr. Kitty. Also, put on my favorite cross to wear and make peace with the Universe and by extension existence itself.
??:??: hopefully some time after 8:00 P.M. will have death waiting for me.
In my own opinion, I don't have much of a story to tell.
Just another person struggling on this beautiful part of the Universe.
If you have questions that could provide you with something of value, go ahead and ask.
And, thank you for being with me during my final moments. Like I told the website register screen: I don't want to die alone.
I've decided that today will be the day I carry through on my plan to CTB.
I thought about doing it on my birthday, but I've gotten to a point where I can't compete with life another day.
My chosen Method is death by ingesting a lethal dose of Sodium Nitrite.
I've got two bags, each 8 ounces; more than enough.
I've also got party cups, distilled water, Ibuprofen, an Antacid, and Nauzene.
My plan is to go about my day as if it were any other day. Just to make myself less suspicious.
Here is a timeline of sorts:
12:00 A.M.- 8:00 A.M.: fasting.
8:30 A.M.: wake up.
??:??: hang out with my Mother, tell her and my twin I love them both. Text the same to my older brother and Nieces.
5:00 or 7:00 P.M.: take 3 Ibuprofen.
7:15 P.M.: take 2 Nauzene.
7:30 P.M.: take 2 of the Antacid Calcium Carbonate.
8:00 P.M.: drink 25 or more grams of Sodium Nitrite. Listen to the Touch by Stan Bush and After Dark by Mr. Kitty. Also, put on my favorite cross to wear and make peace with the Universe and by extension existence itself.
??:??: hopefully some time after 8:00 P.M. will have death waiting for me.
In my own opinion, I don't have much of a story to tell.
Just another person struggling on this beautiful part of the Universe.
If you have questions that could provide you with something of value, go ahead and ask.
And, thank you for being with me during my final moments. Like I told the website register screen: I don't want to die alone.
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