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DoMore

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Hey J1214,

I just wanted to wish you the best, I hope all goes well, or as well as can be hoped for.
 
BARIZON

BARIZON

BARIZON 1st of His Name
Nov 13, 2020
231
I'm from another region, how many hours left until your planned ctb?
 
opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

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Peace to you <3 we are with you, no matter the outcome.
 
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J1214

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Update:

I was going to do it without testing the purity, but the thought of it not being Nitrite has got me worried and that worry keeps growing.

I also have to help my Twin mow our Mother's lawn.

I'll either do it tonight or sometime in the morning on Tuesday.

Sorry to anyone who put in some time and effort to be with me. I appreciate all your support.
 
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BARIZON

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BARIZON 1st of His Name
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Update:

I was going to do it without testing the purity, but the thought of it not being Nitrite has got me worried and that worry keeps growing.

I also have to help my Twin mow our Mother's lawn.

I'll either do it tonight or sometime in the morning on Tuesday.

Sorry to anyone who put in some time and effort to be with me. I appreciate all your support.
Don't worry brother, better safe than sorry, sleep well.
 
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I told my mom I will be dead and I still survived drinking 7g SN and 900mg Propanolol, so yeah, probably shouldnt do that. Maybe just hang out with them for the last time.
If I can ask what happend after you survived like did you get sick or what
 
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If I can ask what happend after you survived like did you get sick or what
 
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J1214

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Jul 10, 2024
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IMG 3158
Update:

I tested the purity of my SN.

Opened it up quickly, used a 1/2 teaspoon spoon to take out some SN, and put it in water fountain water.

Waited a bit then took an aquarium test strip and put it in.

Here is the bottle and the test strip:

IMG 3159
Anyone who's done this before, can you tell me if the purity is high?

Thanks in advance if you can.
 
BARIZON

BARIZON

BARIZON 1st of His Name
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View attachment 145638
Update:

I tested the purity of my SN.

Opened it up quickly, used a 1/2 teaspoon spoon to take out some SN, and put it in water fountain water.

Waited a bit then took an aquarium test strip and put it in.

Here is the bottle and the test strip:

View attachment 145639
Anyone who's done this before, can you tell me if the purity is high?

Thanks in advance if you can.
It's so late at night i cant explain properly, but you will need two separate 500ml of disttilled water. Let's go through with it tomorrow shall we? I'm almost passing out from sleepness.
 
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J1214

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Jul 10, 2024
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Update:

Still here.

Wanting to CTB soon but don't know when. Want to do it today.

How long does it take an opened bag of sodium nitrite to become sodium nitrate?

I opened it and quickly closed it.
 
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BARIZON

BARIZON

BARIZON 1st of His Name
Nov 13, 2020
231
Update:

Still here.

Wanting to CTB soon but don't know when. Want to do it today.

How long does it take an opened bag of sodium nitrite to become sodium nitrate?

I opened it and quickly closed it.
Sodium nitrite is very very stable, no reason to doubt it's purity, it's a very cheap salt to produce.
 
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J1214

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Jul 10, 2024
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IMG 3162

IMG 3164 Update:

Used distilled water this time. Here are the results.

Does anyone know why there is high nitrite and nitrate or am I reading this wrong?
 
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Jan 17, 2023
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I told my mom I will be dead and I still survived drinking 7g SN and 900mg Propanolol, so yeah, probably shouldnt do that. Maybe just hang out with them for the last time.
Why fid you take only 7g if I may ask?
 
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J1214

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Jul 10, 2024
46
Before I leave I want to say thank you, each and every one of you.

This place feels like a second home to me. So much understanding and empathy.

I hope life will get better for those who choose to stay. I hope that whatever lies ahead of this life is everything others who CTB wanted.
 
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J1214

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sre you gonna try today again ?
Either before work or after work.

My Mom and twin know that depending on the workload, the time I have to work is flexed either up or down.

I'm thinking after more than before because it will be nighttime by the time I get off and that will help immensely when I go to the woods close to where I live.
 
BARIZON

BARIZON

BARIZON 1st of His Name
Nov 13, 2020
231
So tomorrow? Don't you consider booking a hotel room and saying youre staying at some girls house? Thats what I plan on doing the weeknd i'm gonna try. O maybe just say you'll travel to some place,
 
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J1214

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Jul 10, 2024
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So tomorrow? Don't you consider booking a hotel room and saying youre staying at some girls house? Thats what I plan on doing the weeknd i'm gonna try. O maybe just say you'll travel to some place,
I'll give that some thought.
 
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J1214

Member
Jul 10, 2024
46
Update:

Going to do it after my family falls asleep.

I appreciate anyone willing to be with me. Sorry I put this off for so long.
 
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noairtobreathe1

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May 6, 2023
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Update:

Going to do it after my family falls asleep.

I appreciate anyone willing to be with me. Sorry I put this off for so long.
Lighting a candle for you, friend. I hope you find peace.
 

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