Going nowhere slow

[DJ2000]

This is a good term to describe my life. I have no future, my life is going nowhere; I'm never going to do anything with my life, I'm not getting my degree (records put on hold because of some BS): there is nothing for me in this world, there's nothing I want to do here and in any case there's nothing I can do here, yet my life keeps going.
There's no reason for it, no goal, nothing worthwhile going to pop it's head out at any moment, there is quite literally no reason for me to be here, yet I am, and I hate it. I'm fed up with life and I just want to be done with it so I don't have to maintain this pathetic farce any longer. It's so pointless, so ridiculous, so frustrating, so boring. I couldn't imagine a worse world if I wanted to. (Seriously this place fucking sucks. I don't even know why aliens would want to invade this planet to begin with, but if they did it would probably be an improvement. )

But to put an end to my life I would have to have the organization and resolve to do it; to put together a plan, write a note, etc. But I'm completely all over the place right now. I'm too confused and exhausted to do something like that. I couldn't organize my thoughts into a note, I can't even think clearly right now.

Maybe for my note I'll just write "fed up with life, too pointless for me, I give up, negative 5 stars, would not try again." Maybe I'll throw some Schopenhauer quotes in there to avoid having to come up with as much material of my own, who knows. But I can't take this much longer.

 

[PrettyMoose]

Here's a couple of his quotes that I was thinking of leaving behind after I'm gone. I have a word document where I collect quotes that really get at the heart of my disgust for this existence.

"Life presents itself first and foremost as a task: the task of maintaining itself, the task of earning one's living. If this task is accomplished, what has been gained is a burden, and there then appears a second task: that of doing something with it so as to ward off boredom, which hovers over every secure life like a bird of prey. Thus the first task is to gain something and the second to become unconscious of what has been gained, which is otherwise a burden." - Arthur Shopenhauer

"You can also look upon our life as an episode unprofitably disturbing the blessed calm of nothingness." Arthur Shopenhauer

 

[a.n.kirillov]

Here's a couple of his quotes that I was thinking of leaving behind after I'm gone. I have a word document where I collect quotes that really get at the heart of my disgust for this existence.

"Life presents itself first and foremost as a task: the task of maintaining itself, the task of earning one's living. If this task is accomplished, what has been gained is a burden, and there then appears a second task: that of doing something with it so as to ward off boredom, which hovers over every secure life like a bird of prey. Thus the first task is to gain something and the second to become unconscious of what has been gained, which is otherwise a burden." - Arthur Shopenhauer

"You can also look upon our life as an episode unprofitably disturbing the blessed calm of nothingness." Arthur Shopenhauer

Hey, I also have such a document.