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hurb

hurb

I care too much to give a f*ck
Jan 22, 2026
301
Idk if its just me. But going outside makes me more depressed than when im inside. Going out and seeing everyone struggle to come by , see all the trash on the ground , kids crying, women yelling, men praying.
It all feels so miserable.
By the time i go back into my room I have the urge to remove my own skin. Im so different from them.
there was never any hope was there.
Also cars , god i hate cars. These machines are horrors beyond human comprehension.
 
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GodzillasBiggestFan

Godzilla's Lonely Bestie
Jan 12, 2026
250
cars are awful and i hate them. if something is within walking distance i would rather take 20-30 minutes to walk then 5-10 minutes to drive because i hate driving especially. if someone else drives me it's okay. but i really dislike driving

sometimes going out is okay or makes me feel good but even then i mostly just feel nothing from going outside or still sadness.
 
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Misanthrope0000

Misanthrope
Sep 8, 2024
105
Idk if its just me. But going outside makes me more depressed than when im inside. Going out and seeing everyone struggle to come by , see all the trash on the ground , kids crying, women yelling, men praying.
It all feels so miserable.
By the time i go back into my room I have the urge to remove my own skin. Im so different from them.
there was never any hope was there.
Also cars , god i hate cars. These machines are horrors beyond human comprehension.
Going outside just reminds me that this shithole is the reason why I'm suicidal in the first place lol, relateable
 
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Uncounted1846

Student
Jan 17, 2026
101
I walk my dog everyday when the weather is 32 degrees or above. The entire time I'm outside I just keep thinking about suicide, how awful people in this town are, and why can't I grow a pair and buy the gun already?

But hey, at least I got some vitamin D. Big help. 🙄
 
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Mirrors

Mirrors

Member
Mar 14, 2026
5
I am laughing because I am also regularly told this as if it was a magic bullet solution. If only I was a plant instead of a person, then maybe more sun really would heal me.
 
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truehappiness

truehappiness

Bliss and Happiness to all <3
Mar 3, 2026
120
Idk if its just me. But going outside makes me more depressed than when im inside. Going out and seeing everyone struggle to come by , see all the trash on the ground , kids crying, women yelling, men praying.
It all feels so miserable.
By the time i go back into my room I have the urge to remove my own skin. Im so different from them.
there was never any hope was there.
Also cars , god i hate cars. These machines are horrors beyond human comprehension.
I have to admit
walking somehow eases that constricting feeling I sometimes get when I am too deep into my constant sadness.
It feels like someone is tying my lungs together

Walking helps a bit clearing my head

But yup! It does not make "the sad" go away at all.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,573
I feel intense anxiety when I leave the house now. I'm so horrified by my life and behavior that I need to distract with internet constantly. My life is the direct opposite of a meditation retreat where you get used to low stimulation. I want chatter, chatter, chatter. No presence, no focusing on a task at hand. I have a maximally weak mind.
 
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NotSoEnchanted

NotSoEnchanted

Member
Dec 26, 2025
86
I agree when it comes to the city and developed places, but personally being alone in nature is one of my last few joys in life. I wish I could stay in the woods forever, it's one of the few places I feel safe and content nowadays
 
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Lostandlooking

In limbo
Jul 23, 2020
486
I dislike going outside as well. To do anything really. I'm painfully aware of how things can go wrong. I'm hypervigilant to the max when I'm outside. Often something seems to happen. Even just small conversations have me ruminating for days. Small interactions also make me aware of how different my life is to the norm. I used to love nature, but where I live it's impossible to find a quiet spot. People are everywhere. Sometimes things go wrong in a bigger way. I can make (still relatively minor) mistakes in traffic. I've had people in the streets yell at me for random reasons. These things stays with me forever and it keeps hurting. There could be a conflict just around every corner. I don't like it.

Edit: added some clarification.
 
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The Disqualified

The Disqualified

Disqualified as a Human Being
Feb 4, 2023
123
Idk if its just me. But going outside makes me more depressed than when im inside. Going out and seeing everyone struggle to come by , see all the trash on the ground , kids crying, women yelling, men praying.
It all feels so miserable.
By the time i go back into my room I have the urge to remove my own skin. Im so different from them.
there was never any hope was there.
Also cars , god i hate cars. These machines are horrors beyond human comprehension.
I like going outside to see nature and daydream. I love seeing the animals. They are so beautiful.
I hate cars, and streets, and trash, and noise, and chaos. I hate that. I like peace, solitude, quiet, stillness, tranquillity.
All I want is peace. I love seeing nature and the animals. That is all I love about going outside.
 
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hurb

hurb

I care too much to give a f*ck
Jan 22, 2026
301
I like going outside to see nature and daydream. I love seeing the animals. They are so beautiful.
I hate cars, and streets, and trash, and noise, and chaos. I hate that. I like peace, solitude, quiet, stillness, tranquillity.
All I want is peace. I love seeing nature and the animals. That is all I love about going outside.
God i wish where i live wasnt qo fucking ugly. Because i would agree with u if it was.
Nature is so beautiful and soothing
 
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effemel

effemel

Member
Feb 18, 2026
31
it's so cold and grey outside and I can't not think about throwing myself onto oncoming traffic or hanging myself on every tree I see, like every where I go strengthens my need to die dude
 
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hurb

I care too much to give a f*ck
Jan 22, 2026
301
it's so cold and grey outside and I can't not think about throwing myself onto oncoming traffic or hanging myself on every tree I see, like every where I go strengthens my need to die dude
Or smash my head on concrete floor
 
mya_

mya_

Not in this lifetime
Jun 13, 2024
57
Every time I go outside all I can see is other people enjoying their friends/family company and doing things together. It makes sad bc I have no one, so yeah
 
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hurb

I care too much to give a f*ck
Jan 22, 2026
301
Every time I go outside all I can see is other people enjoying their friends/family company and doing things together. It makes sad bc I have no one, so yeah
Yeah there are these videos of people filming their partner/friend in public. And the moment , the person getting filmed sees their loved one . They change from a gloomy face to a happy excited face.
And i find it very depressing that i dont have that. Its cruel to not have people u vibe with irl.
 
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Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
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