I'll be getting my first paycheck soon. It will be enough to get sn and a quiet place to end it. Mission accomplished
they say if u do everything right you'll end up happy but even now that im healthier physically, finally employed, dream job with good pay, filling up my time with "fun" leisure shit, kicking my addiction, cut off all toxic ppl, and yet im so fucking unhappy I cant bare it. Its overwhelming i thought I'd be better by this point but its only making me feel worse. I expected that doing everything right will help but now I'm just suicidal while putting in more effort. I had high hopes that if I try one more time and try get my shit together it'll be different but its just miserable and i cant handle it. Ive tried so many different paths and none of them are right for me. Im exhausted
they say if u do everything right you'll end up happy but even now that im healthier physically, finally employed, dream job with good pay, filling up my time with "fun" leisure shit, kicking my addiction, cut off all toxic ppl, and yet im so fucking unhappy I cant bare it. Its overwhelming i thought I'd be better by this point but its only making me feel worse. I expected that doing everything right will help but now I'm just suicidal while putting in more effort. I had high hopes that if I try one more time and try get my shit together it'll be different but its just miserable and i cant handle it. Ive tried so many different paths and none of them are right for me. Im exhausted
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