Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me will always just be waiting to die.
It truly is just waiting to die to me, it's just suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll just always find it so torturous to suffer in this terrible, cruel existence.

To to never suffer ever again truly is just all I could see as desirable, I just want to be free from this existence of torturous suffering that is just waiting to die, existing is just always so futile to me, it's just pain and suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence truly does just only ever cause harm.
It truly does only ever cause harm with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just suffer so much as a result of this terrible, cruel and torturous existence I just always saw as the most cruel mistake and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer.

All I want is peace from the pain and suffering of this torturous, cruel existence, existence truly does just cause harm and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence I just always saw as the most terrible, harmful abomination, all this existence does is just torture existing beings all for the sake of it and it's all so unnecessary.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence will just always be the problem to me.
It truly is the problem to me and it's one only non-existence can solve for me and bring me peace from, to be at peace from all pain and suffering is just all I hope for, I'll always see existence as the problem and simply just existing is enough to make me want to never suffer again.

I just hope for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result as a result of this terrible, cruel existence, for me non-existence is just all that's positive and desirable, non-existence solves everything for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to not exist than suffer.
I truly will always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this torturous, painful existence, non-existence is just all that's positive for me and only in non-existence will I be at peace from all suffering.

I just want peace from this terrible, torturous existence that never should had been imposed that only ever causes all this cruelty, harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, to suffer in this existence will just always be the most terrible, torturous burden to me, I just hope to be gone, I just want to never suffer in this existence so cruel ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering in this torturous existence.
I truly am just always so tired of suffering in this torturous existence and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is some peace, I just hope for the peace of non-existence.

I just want to never wake ever again, existence to me will just always be a mistake and it's one I only want to be permanently unconscious of, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this cruel, torturous and terrible existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is so harmful.
It truly is so harmful, all that existence ever does is just cause all this pain and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just suffer so much as a result of this terrible, torturous existence.

All that existence ever does is just harm and torture existing beings all for the sake of it, it's just all so cruel and dreadful and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer, I just want to be free from this existence of torturous suffering that I just always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from being burdened with this harmful existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist saves me from suffering.
It truly does and it solves everything for me which is all I hope for, all I want is peace from the torture and suffering of this painful deeply undesirable existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake, ceasing to exist saves me from all suffering as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer.

I just want non-existence to bring me the relief I search for from this terrible, cruel existence of torturous suffering that I just never would had chosen that just brings all this pain and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much dreadful suffering in existing.
There truly is just so much dreadful suffering in existing and the suffering and torture of existing is endless, it's just all so terrible and cruel and I'd just never wish for this existence so torturous that just causes all this harm and suffering.

For me non-existence is just all that's positive and desirable, for me the only relief and peace could only lie in no longer being burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it, I'll just always see it as a terrible mistake to suffer in this existence, I'll just always see existence as an abomination that just causes all this dreadful suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how I cannot just choose to never wake again.
I truly do always suffer from how I cannot just choose to never wake again so finally I can be at peace from this torturous, cruel existence that just causes all this dreadful, futile suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

All I want is to be gone, in this existence so terrible and dreadful only the peace of non-existence can solve everything for me and I'll just always prefer the peace of non-existence no matter what, I see so much terrible cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently.

 

[FuneralCry]

The peace of non-existence is just all I could see as desirable.
It truly is all I could see as desirable and as long as I exist I really will just hope for peace from this existence of torturous suffering that I just always saw as a mistake, for me existing will just always be so deeply undesirable.

I just wish I never suffered more than anything, to suffer in this dreadful, cruel existence is just always an abomination to me, all I hope for is to be gone, no matter what only non-existence can solve everything for me, I just hope for no more suffering.

 

[urgent]

The peace of non-existence is just all I could see as desirable.
It truly is all I could see as desirable and as long as I exist I really will just hope for peace from this existence of torturous suffering that I just always saw as a mistake, for me existing will just always be so deeply undesirable.

I just wish I never suffered more than anything, to suffer in this dreadful, cruel existence is just always an abomination to me, all I hope for is to be gone, no matter what only non-existence can solve everything for me, I just hope for no more suffering.

I agree I'm suffering so much unbearable pain non-stop everyday it gets worse. I'm very ill. I'm suffering physically, mentally and emotionally. There's no cure, my diseases are degenerative and extremely painful. No medication helps the pain. I have no quality of life. I just exist and suffer dreadfully everyday because I am denied the right to MAiD. I'm denied the right to end this torture. I am denied access to a painless way out and assistance. It should be illegal for me to suffer this much pain and deterioration everyday. All I do is suffer in agony hoping it will end. It's terrifying for your body to be in this extreme distress without a second of relief. I worry more each day what will happen when I can't communicate or fight for my wishes and end up broke and homeless from medical debt in a state facility alone and abused. I'm becoming more vulnerable and deserve the right to autonomy. It is a terrifying state to live in brutal pain and extreme fear of being able to control your own life when you get older with such bad health. So many people can't afford to live especially when you get older. I don't have a pension. Social security is constantly threatened. The world seems more dangerous everyday for many reasons. Funeral Cry would you please message me. I understand what you are saying very well. I hope to find an end to my agony but sources just keep being taken away and I just become more terrified of how long I have to suffer and how much worse pain actually gets. I wish the best for everyone. I know some of you are also in physical and emotional pain as well as mental. It's such an unbearable journey. I don't understand why I am forced to continue to exist in unimaginable agony. No one deserves this. I wish I could take away the pain and help everyone here. I'm sorry your suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that could ever be positive for me.
It truly is all that could ever be positive for me in this existence of dreadful, torturous suffering, I just want to peacefully cease existing and finally be free from the terrible suffering of this cruel, painful existence and for me ceasing to exist will just always be the positive solution to find peace from this existence so torturous.

I just want to be unconscious with no more pain and no more suffering which is why I always suffer so much from being so cruelly denied a death like falling asleep permanently, all I see as positive is finally being at peace from this existence that never should had been imposed at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in this cruel existence.
There truly is so much suffering in this cruel, terrible existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, all I want is to be free from this existence so torturous and all that existence ever does is just cause all this endless cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured. All that existence ever does is just torture existing beings, it's just all so cruel and dreadful, I'd just never wish for the torture of existing, this existence should never be imposed.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist means to suffer.
It truly does mean to suffer and I wish that more than anything I never suffered in this terrible, cruel existence, all I want is to be gone, I just want to be free from this existence of torturous dreadful suffering and to exist will always mean to suffer.

All I want is to be permanently unconscious and at peace from this existence so cruel and suffering, no matter what this existence should never be imposed, to suffer in this existence truly is the most terrible, torturous burden that just causes all this cruelty, harm and pain.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wanting to erase this existence.
For this existence to be all forgotten and erased for me is just all I hope for, I just want peace from this existence of torturous suffering that I just always saw as a mistake, I just want to be free from this existence so cruel and harmful that just causes all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer no matter what and I'll just always see this existence as only suffering, I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence, all I just hope for is to be gone, I just want this existence to be erased.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for this torturous existence.
I truly would just never wish for this torturous existence and as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer again, to be at peace from this existence so cruel and painful is just all I see as desirable.

I'll just always find it the most torturous burden to suffer in this existence, for me non-existence is just the only relief from this existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing, I just want to be gone, I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just dreadful suffering.
It truly is just dreadful suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'd just never wish for this existence I just always saw as the most terrible, cruel mistake, all I want is peace.

I'd just never wish for this existence so dreadful that just tortures existing beings and causes all this pain, cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and there's just so much suffering in existing, I suffer simply from being conscious burdened with this existence of dreadful suffering that I just never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me could never be worth it.
It truly could never be worth it to me rather I see existence as the most terrible mistake and it's just so cruel and dreadful how this existence was imposed at all causing all this torture and suffering as a result.

To suffer in this existence is just the most torturous, dreadful burden that just causes all this cruelty and suffering, for me only non-existence is desirable, non-existence is just all I see as positive, I'd never wish for this existence so torturous and cruel, I just want to erase this terrible, cruel existence so it's like I never suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

So terrible and cruel how the suffering is seen as to force and prolong.
It truly is so terrible and cruel how we exist in this horrific dreadful world where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong, there's just so much terrible extreme cruelty in anti-suicide. All that anti-suicide does is just cause way more torture in this cruel, deeply undesirable existence that is just waiting to die anyway, existence to me really is an abomination and I always suffer so unbearably from how I cannot just have the option to never suffer again so finally I can be at peace from the terrible torture of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence will always be so deeply undesirable to me.
It truly is always so deeply undesirable to me and no matter what I could only ever see non-existence where all is gone and forgotten as being desirable, to suffer in this existence is the most terrible, torturous and futile burden to me.

All I want is to be unconscious of it, I just want to be free from all future pain and suffering in this existence I just always saw as a mistake, this existence should never had been imposed and all I want is to erase this painful, cruel and deeply undesirable existence so it's like I never suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish I never suffered.
More than anything I truly wish I never suffered in this terrible, dreadful existence and I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist, in this existence so torturous and dreadful non-existence is just the only peace for me and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for true permanent peace from the terrible mistake of existence.

I just hope for peace from all pain and suffering, I just want this existence to be all forgotten and erased for me, I'll only be glad to never suffer ever again but of course existence should never be imposed no matter what.