Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for this torturous, cruel existence.
No matter what I could never wish for this torturous, cruel existence and I wish that more than anything I never existed, to suffer in this existence is just always an abomination to me and I suffer simply from existing, for me every second is so torturous to exist and the suffering, torture and cruelty of existing is endless.

It's just all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this suffering rather all I want is some peace, I just want the peace of non-existence to solve everything for me, I find it so terrible how this existence was so tragically imposed causing all this harm, cruelty and suffering as a result with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again.
I truly do always suffer so much and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like never waking again so finally I can be at peace from the torturous, cruel and dreadful abomination of existence that just tortures existing beings all for the sake of it, all I want is to never wake.

I just want to rest, only in non-existence will I be at peace from this existence that just causes all this dreadful harm and suffering, it's just such extreme horrific cruelty how we exist in this reality where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, all I want is to erase this existence, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me.