Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering in this futile existence.
I truly am just always so tired of suffering in this futile existence and I'd just never wish to suffer in this futile existence rather all I want is to be gone, I just hope for peace, I wish for no more suffering.

I'll always see existing as only suffering and I suffer simply from existing, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing this cruel existence as only suffering.
This cruel existence will always just be only suffering and I wish that more than anything I never suffered, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again, I just wish and hope for peace from the abomination of existence.

I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so dreadful and terrible and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is peace and for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief, I just hope to be gone, I just wish for this torturous existence to be all forgotten with no more suffering.

 

[urgent]

4) I wish I had a painless suicide pill
All I wish for is a painless suicide pill that brings peace and freedom from all the endless suffering this existence causes. It'd be such a relief to simply be able to die in peace with this existence finally forgotten about. It'd comfort me knowing I could die with no risks and complications involved and the fact that I'm denied such a release is what I find so extremely and immensely cruel, it's hellish how I cannot have a death just like never waking again, it causes so much pain how suicide isn't straightforward.

To be able to die painlessly would solve everything for me as all I find comfort in is non-existence, I'd always prefer to not exist and I don't believe that I should have to suffer in an existence I wish to be eternally free from.

I agree. I wish we could all have the right to decide when we've suffered enough and could get that medical assistance. Others can. If I can't go to Switzerland or am in to much pain to wait for approval, can't get approval, whatever the case, I should still be able to have a Dr prescribe the meds or give me the iv to go in peace now. Why don't I get the relief others who aren't in such unbearable agony can? Please, there has to be a way to find that person who understands and can give me what I need. I can consent and self administer. Thats all some did.I can't take this brutal torture anymore. There isn't a description for the hell I'm in.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is just always so dreadful to me.
No matter what I really will always find it so dreadful and terrible to suffer in this cruel existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief in this existence I never would had chosen that just caused me to suffer and for me non-existence is just all that's desirable.

I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of being conscious burdened with this dreadful existence that just causes harm and suffering and I suffer so much as a result of existing, it's just all so cruel and I wish I never existed more than anything.