Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Humans suffer endlessly
Human existence truly is filled with suffering with literally no limit as to how much one can suffer, in fact I see human existence as being nothing but suffering, it's a temporary, ultimately futile process of waiting around to die. Every second there are humans suffering in horrific ways destined for nothing but for even more loss, agony and torment in a cruel, hopeless existence, I know that I'd never wish to exist under any circumstances and find it so incredibly dreadful to simply exist.

I only wish for non-existence as after all nobody can be harmed by the absence of everything with those who no longer exist unable to mourn for how they lack the ability to suffer with them having no need for anything, only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from the terrible tragedy of human existence. It sounds so ideal to me to simply be unaware for all eternity with everything forgotten about, to just not exist is all I've ever wished for, I've only ever found comfort in death especially as there truly is endless amounts of suffering in existing, it's so terrifying, I certainly fear existence and really wish I could erase mine like I never existed in the first place.

 

[FuneralCry]

No acceptance towards not wanting to exist.
It's truly so immensely cruel and terrible how there's no acceptance towards people preffering the peace of eternal non-existence over suffering in an existence filled with endless cruelty. It's just devastating how many wish to make existence into a prison where one cannot painlessly escape, denying options of peaceful methods and instead trapping people in their endless torment until they die anyway.

Whether one wishes to continue the futile yet so painful burden of human existence should be a personal choice, and it's one I never would have chose no matter what, I wish I never suffered in this existence more than anything yet many act like suicide should never be an option for anyone but how could they say that when they cannot experience existence in the same way as others and cannot feel their pain and cannot understand how they suffer and find it dreadful to simply exist.

I'd never want something so immensely cruel and harmful as existence, no for me existence is what is so terrible rather than suicide, for me suicide is the way to find safety from suffering, a painless death would save me from the pain and torment of existing, it'd save me from being trapped in an existence that was always so meaningless and hopeless in the first place leading to nothing and nowhere.

It's horrific to me to think about how a human can exist for so long and suffer so unbearably just to be tortured by extreme old age and die anyway, why cannot there be acceptance towards people preferring to be unconscious and unaware of all this, it'll always be so immensley tragic how pointless suffering and unnecessary torment is seen as something to so cruelly prolong no matter what.

 

[Hotsackage]

Hello world, there's a human suffering here, what you gonna do

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope I fall asleep.
I do hope that some kind of sleep comes soon as I'm tired of suffering, I'm tired of being awake, I hope that eternal sleep brings me peace as to me there could certainly never be any peace in this cruel, torturous existence. There truly is no point to existing, it's just a terrible tragic mistake to exist and I only wish for the eternal absence of it, it's painful to be burdened with the ability to exist which is why I hope for sleep, I wish for peaceful, dreamless eternal sleep where all is forgotten about.

Simply just being unaware for all eternity sounds so ideal, it'll always be tragic to me how I have to suffer so unnecessarily when eternal nothingness would bring me so much peace, I hope and wish for sleep, I've suffered for too long in an existence I never would have chosen that I was never meant for, it'll always be sad to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always wish to not exist no matter what.
I know that I've only ever wished to not exist, only death has ever comforted me, to me all that sounds appealing is simply being able to not exist for all eternity where there is no pain, no suffering, no risk of suffering way more with there being no memories of this painful and cruel existence. What I have a problem is existence itself, I see existing as being completely undesirable, I just see it as burdensome to have to exist, existing truly is so futile, tiring, hopeless and just causes nothing but meaningless suffering. It sounds so peaceful to me to be eternally free from all this with all finally forgotten about, I'd always wish to not exist, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence that was just a terrible, tragic mistake to me in the first place.

Only death can bring me peace but more than anything I really wish I never existed at all, I'm so tired of suffering, it's so sad how one cannot just choose to simply cease existing when they wish to. I find it such a devastating tragedy how suicide isn't as straightforward as just choosing to never wake again as I'd always prefer eternal nothingness to having the ability to exist in this reality where there is endless potential for pain and suffering, to never wake again truly would be such a relief.

 

[davidtorez]

Fighting old age and entropy whilst being the hamster on the hamster wheel day in day out. I don't even know why I even bother getting out of bed .

 

[FuneralCry]

I just wish suicide is accepted.
I really just wish that suicide is accepted so that people don't have to struggle and suffer so much to be free from this terrible, torturous existence. There truly is no compassion towards the suffering humans go through with how they are denied the option to die painlessly, I wish for a painless death to free myself from the futile and cruel burden of existence, I wish to peacefully die so I can finally find peace from all pointless torment in this existence so undesirable.

I find it terrifying how humans can suffer so much for so long just to be tortured by old age, I really wish that Nembutal and euthanasia were options, I simply wish for the option of a painless death with no risks involved, it's truly horrific to me how many humans have suffered way more from trying to die going wrong and such is exactly what I fear.

I fear endless and unbearable suffering, it's terrifies me how there is no limit as to how unbearable this existence can get. Having the option to just painlessly die would prevent so much suffering and torture in an existence filled with endless pain, death is all that's inevitable anyway with existing being completely futile and unnecessary in the first place which to me makes it even more cruel how suicide isn't accepted with many humans wishing to prolong the meaningless torment of others no matter what. It's fine if they want to live but the same shouldn't be forced on others who just wish to be eternally relieved from this existence, the true peace of eternal nothingness is truly all I've ever wished for, I only find comfort in death.

 

[derpyderpins]

I just wish suicide is accepted.
I really just wish that suicide is accepted so that people don't have to struggle and suffer so much to be free from this terrible, torturous existence. There truly is no compassion towards the suffering humans go through with how they are denied the option to die painlessly, I wish for a painless death to free myself from the futile and cruel burden of existence, I wish to peacefully die so I can finally find peace from all pointless torment in this existence so undesirable.

I find it terrifying how humans can suffer so much for so long just to be tortured by old age, I really wish that Nembutal and euthanasia were options, I simply wish for the option of a painless death with no risks involved, it's truly horrific to me how many humans have suffered way more from trying to die going wrong and such is exactly what I fear.

I fear endless and unbearable suffering, it's terrifies me how there is no limit as to how unbearable this existence can get. Having the option to just painlessly die would prevent so much suffering and torture in an existence filled with endless pain, death is all that's inevitable anyway with existing being completely futile and unnecessary in the first place which to me makes it even more cruel how suicide isn't accepted with many humans wishing to prolong the meaningless torment of others no matter what. It's fine if they want to live but the same shouldn't be forced on others who just wish to be eternally relieved from this existence, the true peace of eternal nothingness is truly all I've ever wished for, I only find comfort in death.

The option should be on the table. That alone could help many ease their anxiety. But we take away the escape route, making people feel more trapped.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist would be positive for me.
No matter what ceasing to exist would be positive for me as I personally only see eternal non-existence as being ideal, I'd never see a point or value to suffering in this existence that was completely unnecessary and caused nothing but meaningless pain in the first place.

What I find tragic is how I cannot just have the option to just fall asleep eternally, it's painful, cruel and torturous how I cannot easily free myself from the burden of existence in peace, I've only ever found comfort in death, only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from the pain and torment existing causes.

For me ceasing to exist is something positive because after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way, if I'm dead then all will be forgotten about and for this existence to be erased is all I want, many act like death is always the most terrible tragedy but for me it lies in all the endless suffering existing causes.

I'd never wish to exist no matter what and I find it so dreadful and terrifying to exist as a conscious being in this reality filled with so much senseless cruelty, it's horrific the amount of harm existence causes with humans suffering unbearably just to pointlessly deteriorate and decay even further as time goes on, for me personally the only relief lies in being eternally relieved from this futile process of just slowly dying where there is unlimited potential to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Tired of being trapped in this existence.
I'll always be tired of being trapped in this existence no matter what, I'm tired of being trapped with my thoughts, I'm tired of the futile and torturous burden of existence, it'll always be dreadful and painful to exist with the problem lying in existence itself. I see it as a problem how I'm conscious and aware, I find it tiring to simply exist, I'd never wish for existence under any circumstances rather I wish I never existed at all more than anything.

Existing truly is just pointless pain and suffering all for no reason and no purpose until one dies anyway and for them it'll be like they never existed as after all everything will be forgotten about, they won't be able to experience anything at all and the absence of everything is all that's ideal to me. It's tiring to be trapped in this existence I was never meant for and I know that no matter what I could only be meant for the peace of eternal nothingness, to be able to sleep painlessly for all eternity is all I've ever wished for. It's truly so terrible and immensely cruel how humans cannot just have a death like never waking again when they wish to, only eternal sleep can bring me peace from this existence I'm always tired of that has caused nothing but pointless pain, it'll always be sad to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

The risk of existing getting much more unbearable.
This is what terrifies me about existence, that if one is suffering so unbearably and immensley now it can very easily get way more torturous with no limit as to how much one can suffer which is so horrific and terrifying, to exist really means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing way worse torment at any moment, it truly is so harmful to exist and existence really does cause nothing but harm.

I fear what lies ahead and it's so terrifying how even know a human can suffer to unlimited amounts there still isn't the option of a straightforward way to just painlessly die with suicide so harmfully made inaccessible instead, honestly it's all just so terrible and cruel how many wish to trap others in their senseless suffering and torment until they die anyway with no painless way out.

I wish suicide is accepted as the pain of existing is so real and it's just too painful to exist, to exist as a conscious being capable of feeling all this agony is something so hopeless to me, I see existence as a tragic mistake and I wish that more than anything I never suffered in this existence, wanting to die is certainly all that makes sense for me personally as I fear existence, it's truly something terrifying, I just want nothingness.

 

[FuneralCry]

The pain of existing continues.
It's so terrible and tragic how the pain of existing continues day after day just tormenting existing beings until they die anyway. I'm tired of suffering in this existence trapped with painful memories and dread for what lies ahead, there truly is no peace as long as I'm conscious and aware and I know that no matter what I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist.

It just comforts me to think of being unable to experience anything with this cruel, painful existence finally all forgotten about, I don't want to remember anything, I just want to forget about it all and just the fact that I had to exist in the first place is so incredibly tragic, I wish I never suffered in this existence, I wish I stayed eternally unaware of the endless cruelty existence causes.

Having the ability to exist as a human is something I'm not meant for and never would have chose any circumstance, I just wish I could erase this like I never existed at all but of course that is not possible so instead I continue to suffer and no matter what it'll always be sad to exist, the sadness and pain of existing will only end the day in which I'm finally free.

 

[FuneralCry]

Not meant for existing in every way possible.
I truly am not meant for existing and everything is a reminder of this, I should have died a long time ago but in reality I never should have suffered in this existence at all, I truly don't belong in this horrific, cruel world but rather I only belong in death, I'm only meant to be eternally unaware. Existing in general just feels so wrong and terrible to me, I wish this would all disappear into nothingness, in fact ever since I was aware of what death was it comforted me as it means I'll finally be at rest.

Human existence is just a terrible mistake to me, it just feels dreadful and hopeless to exist and for me the problem lies in existence, it's not wanting to die that is the problem, in fact wishing for death is all I know and all that feels right to me, I don't wish to experience anything at all, instead all I wish for is to simply cease existing. It's just so cruel how there's no acceptance towards the fact that not everyone is meant for existing, like I've already written about many times before I really wish ceasing to exist is as straightforward as just choosing to never waking again, the peace of eternal, dreamless sleep would solve everything for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Still tired of suffering.
No matter what I'll always be so tired of suffering in this existence, I wish all this would just disappear into nothingness, to sleep eternally truly would be all that's ideal for me. What I find dreadful and terrifying is how there is no straightforward way to be permanently free from it all yet there is no limit as to how torturous this existence can get which can potentially continue for decades longer.

I really just wish that painless suicide is accessible to free myself from the terrible burden of existence, having the option to just peacefully die truly would be such a comfort, would stop people feeling trapped and mean they can free themselves from all pointless torment when they wish to.

Simply just existing will always be so incredibly tiring to me, it's tragic how I have to suffer so pointlessly in this undesirable existence when there were never any disadvantages to never existing at all, I wish I never suffered in the first place more than anything, I wish I stayed eternally unaware of the endless cruelty existing causes.

 

[FuneralCry]

The amount of suffering existing causes truly is beyond comprehension.
It really is and I find it horrific how we exist in this reality filled with endless suffering with so many existing beings tormented every second in existences so futile just to die anyway, the agony existence causes is very real and it's so terrifying how there is no limit as to how unbearable the pain of existing can get.

I know that no matter what I'd never want to exist, existing only causes me to suffer, non-existence is always preferable to me than suffering in this reality, to be conscious and aware of this existence is a tragedy to me, I wish I just stayed eternally unconscious, more than anything I wish I never existed at all as existence truly does cause nothing but suffering.

I'll always see it as so devastating and terrible to exist, in existence there is literally no safety from suffering and harm and I'd never want to suffer in anyway, it'll always be tragic how existing beings experience this meaningless pain all for no reason and no purpose all because they were unfortunate enough to be forced into this existence that is so immensely cruel.

I really wish that painless suicide methods are accessible more than anything, it just creates way more harm how suicide isn't accepted as a valid option even know there is literally endless unlimited potential to suffer in existence, I wish it's accepted to not want to suffer in this reality, I know that no matter what I'd never wish to exist, for me the problem lies in existence itself as it's the source of all suffering and true cause of all that torments existing beings.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me personally the less time spent suffering the better.
In my case I'd rather cease existing sooner but of course the only true perfection for me lies in never existing in the first place, I just find existence too cruel, it's just so undesirable and burdensome to exist and that's why I'd prefer to not exist sooner as after all I wouldn't be able to suffer from not existing.

For me suicide would be suffering prevention and the way to find safety from all pointless, meaningless suffering, I just see existing as a futile struggle that just leads to nothing and nowhere, it's just a futile process of waiting around to die where one is just slowly dying with no limit as to how unbearable existing can get. I find it terrible and sad to exist and I don't see any value in prolonging this existence for as long as possible, the more time spent here just means more opportunities to suffer and I simply don't wish to suffer in any way.

Non-existence will always be preferable to any kind of existence to me especially as there are no disadvantages to being permanently unconscious, I'd always choose the absence of everything over the cruelty, futility and harmful nature of existence where there is no peace where I'm trapped with my own thoughts in this reality where chance so senselessly determines everything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Each day is another closer to death.
No matter what each day will always be another closer to death, it's one closer to this existence permanently disappearing into nothingness no matter what and by that point I'll be unable to suffer for all eternity. Existing truly is just a pointless, meaningless process of just waiting to die, humans are really just slowly dying decaying and deteriorating and eventually for them it'll be like they never existed at all as they'll be permanently unconscious.

I just wish the option is there to never wake again to escape from this senseless, futile existence on my own terms, we are all just going to die anyway so it's so sad and terrible how they wish to deny painless ways to escape from all the pain and hurt existence causes, they want to trap us in existences filled with suffering until we die anyway, I wish suicide is accepted as not everyone wishes to prolong this existence. For me suicide would be the way to prevent unnecessary suffering in an existence I never would have chose that just caused nothing but pain, death is all that's inevitable yet the thought of waiting for it for so long is terrifying and fills me with dread, it's truly tragic how existing beings suffer so pointlessly in this existence with no limit as to how unbearable it can all get for them just waiting to die anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Still sadly suffering in cruel existence.
No matter what I'll always see it as sad to exist, it's sad how I suffer instead of their being nothingness for all eternity. Existence truly is just pointless pain and what is so terrible is how it can get so torturous way beyond how anyone could imagine it to, the pain of existing is very real and endless which is why I only find comfort in death, only death can bring me peace from this hopeless, torturous burden and to suffer in this existence will always be so burdensome to me.

To not exist for all eternity is all I wish for and all I see as desirable, the suffering will only end once death finally comes for me, I personally only envy those who no longer exist as they cannot be harmed by existence anymore and existence truly does cause nothing but harm, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence that is so endlessly, immensely cruel.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I hope you find peace soon FC. This existence truly is cruel and hellish

 

[FuneralCry]

Finding comfort in death.
Ever since I was aware of what death was it comforted me, in fact I've only ever found comfort in death, it's so incredibly comforting to think of simply not existing for all eternity with all finally forgotten about, I've only ever wished for nothingness, only the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep has appealed to me. What appeals to me about death is that it's permanent and there won't be any memories of this cruel and painful existence, instead there will simply be nothingness and nothing is all I wish for.

Having the ability to exist as a conscious being is a futile and torturous burden to me that causes nothing but suffering which is why of course I find so much comfort in death, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what especially as nobody can be harmed by non-existence, it comforts me to think of being permanently safe from all suffering and harm, the eternity of never suffering in this existence again is always preferable to me than the endless cruelty that existence causes.

To me it truly would be such an overwhelming relief to have the option of a death just like never waking again, it really would comfort me so much to know that I can just fall asleep eternally and never suffer ever again. I've never feared death and don't see it as something to fear, how could it be when all pain and torment is a result of existence, I find so much comfort in being eternally free from the source of all suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always see it as tragic to exist.
I'll certainly always see it as so tragic to suffer in this existence, the existence of life truly is the most terrible tragedy to me and more than anything I wish I never existed at all. To me it's just so tragic to have the ability to exist as a human destined to a futile, hopeless existence filled with pointless suffering just to decay and deteriorate even further, such will always be completely undesirable to me in every way.

Existence is just something that causes harm and causes existing beings to suffer until they die anyway, it's so tragic how existence causes all this endless suffering and torment. I find it both sad and terrifying to exist in this reality and the thought of being trapped here for much longer fills me with dread especially as existing really can get so torturous way beyond how anyone can imagine it to, existence really is the problem, it truly is something so immensely cruel. I wish I stayed permanently unaware of the immense, endless cruelty that existence causes, only death can bring me true peace from this tragedy but of course only never existing is perfection to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope I fall asleep soon.
Hopefully soon I'll fall asleep as I'm so tired of suffering in this existence, to exist truly is so painful, I'm not meant for something so cruel as existence. I really wish suicide is as straightforward as never waking again, it'd be such a relief to simply be able to die in peace, the only relief for me would lie in being unconscious for all eternity, it's so terrible to suffer in this existence and all I feel is dread for what lies ahead, I never want to suffer again, I wish for no memories of the endless cruelty of existence, instead I wish for the peace of sleep, only nothingness can bring me peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Still suffering in this immensely cruel existence.
Sadly I'm still suffering here, I only wish to sleep for all eternity but unfortunately the futile and torturous burden that is human existence continues just leading to more meaningless torment.
It'll always be painful and hopeless to suffer in this existence I never would have chosen, I wish I could erase it all so it's like I never existed at all, only death can bring me peace from the endless pain this existence causes.
What is so terrible and sad about existence is how there is literally no limit as to how unbearable the suffering can get as well, the tragedy for me lies in how existing beings suffer so senselessly in existences that are so futile, no matter what the pain of existing will always be so incredibly real and that is why I only find comfort in death.

I personally envy those who die as they lack the ability to suffer and are no longer tormented in their meaningless existences, I'd always prefer to not exist but of course only never existing is ideal, I wish I stayed permanently unaware more than anything, it's sad how I still suffer and it's a devastating tragedy how I cannot access a painless death just like never waking again.

It just shows there really is no compassion towards all the pointless suffering humans experience with unlimited potential to be tormented, the thought of being trapped in this existence for potentially decades longer truly is so terrifying and fills me with so much dread, I only dread for what lies ahead, it'll always be dreadful to me to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never being meant for existing.
No matter what I could never be meant for something so terrible and torturous as having the ability to exist, existing is certainly not for me and I know that I'm only suited for the peace that death can bring. I just find existing to be so pointless and undesirable in general but also so immensley cruel, it's so horrific how an existing being can suffer so unbearably with no limit as to how much they can be tormented.

In my case I just don't want to suffer in any way and existing truly is nothing but suffering. I'm not meant to suffer in this existence and I find it so dreadful to simply exist, existence truly does accomplish nothing but causing existing beings to suffer so unnecessarily until they die anyway in this existence so meaningless. I'm only meant for the peace of eternal nothingness and I find it so terribly tragic how one cannot just choose to fall asleep eternally when they wish to, more than anything I wish to painlessly be free from this existence I was never even meant for, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence so it's like I never existed at all, I'd always prefer for all this suffering to be eternally forgotten about.

 

[FuneralCry]

Fear of suffering way more.
That is exactly what I fear, I fear experiencing way worse suffering in this existence that is so endlessly cruel, to exist truly does mean to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing way worse torture at any moment and that's certainly a reason why I find it so terrible and tragic to exist as a human in this reality.

To be conscious and aware with the ability to feel endless pain really is something terrifying to me and it's all meaningless and pointless anyway, existence truly is the most futile process of just waiting around to die, it's just a process of slowly dying and all I feel is so much fear and dread for what lies ahead. All I wish for is a permanent release from this existence that causes nothing but suffering, I only see the peace of death as desirable as after all it isn't like I could ever be harmed by the absence of everything, I only find comfort in the thought of never existing again as after all existence truly is the problem. I see it as so horrific how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this reality where chance so sensessly determines everything, I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just pointless suffering that leads nowhere.
Having the ability to exist truly is just pointless suffering all for no reason and no purpose, to me it'll always be so terrible to exist, it's tragic to me how humans suffer so unbearably all for the sake of it just to be faced with the immense torture of extreme old age if they end up suffering for that long.

I find it horrific to think of being trapped here for so long just to die slowly and painfully deteriorating and tortured by old age. For me wanting death is all that feels right as it's the one escape from this cruel, harmful existence that caused nothing but pain, it's just so painful how there isn't the option to be painlessly euthanised to prevent all this meaningless torment, why cannot it be accepted if one prefers to not exist over to suffer so pointlessly.

It's so terrible how humans are expected to suffer no matter what until they are extremely old and tortured in agony, honestly no matter what ill always see human existence as an abomination. I don't see any value in the immense cruelty and endless anguish existence causes, in my case I'd never want to reach an old age, instead all I want is for this to be forgotten about, existence truly is the problem and is something deeply undesirable that just torments existing beings until they die anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

The suffering will only end once I no longer exist.
No matter what the suffering will only end once I'm finally at peace from this existence, it truly is so terrible the amount of pain and cruelty this existence causes, I'd never wish to exist instead all I wish for is the eternal absence of existence. I only wish for eternal sleep where I cannot experience anything anymore, I find it dreadful to simply exist. Existence truly has caused nothing but harm, tragically tormenting existing beings all while they are just waiting to die anyway, I only hope for nothingness.

I hope that I never suffer in this existence ever again, to painlessly die with all finally forgotten about truly would be such an overwhelming relief for me, it'd be such a relief for existence to no longer be my problem anymore especially as existing truly is nothing but suffering to me. It's such a cruel, painful burden to suffer in this existence and what is so horrible to me is how there is no acceptance towards the wish to be eternally relieved from it, I'd always prefer to not exist than to suffer so pointlessly in this existence where chance so senselessly and cruelly determines everything.

 

[Rational man]

The suffering will only end once I no longer exist.
No matter what the suffering will only end once I'm finally at peace from this existence, it truly is so terrible the amount of pain and cruelty this existence causes, I'd never wish to exist instead all I wish for is the eternal absence of existence. I only wish for eternal sleep where I cannot experience anything anymore, I find it dreadful to simply exist. Existence truly has caused nothing but harm, tragically tormenting existing beings all while they are just waiting to die anyway, I only hope for nothingness.

I hope that I never suffer in this existence ever again, to painlessly die with all finally forgotten about truly would be such an overwhelming relief for me, it'd be such a relief for existence to no longer be my problem anymore especially as existing truly is nothing but suffering to me. It's such a cruel, painful burden to suffer in this existence and what is so horrible to me is how there is no acceptance towards the wish to be eternally relieved from it, I'd always prefer to not exist than to suffer so pointlessly in this existence where chance so senselessly and cruelly determines everything.

I suppose it goes without saying that none of your wishes are guaranteed because life is chaotic, random outcomes and uncertain conclusions. A pitfall we sometimes fall into is to believe that cessation will bring us peace, end of pain, etc. Whilst I agree with the above said painful feelings, it can only be experienced in the living state, Henceforth, when we cease we cannot experience anything because our identity is gone. Just my.thoughts of course and so sorry to hear your pain.

 

[FuneralCry]

Fearing existence.
To me existence is certainly something to fear, I find it terrifying to exist as a human, it terrifies me how there is no limit as to how torturous this existence can get, to exist truly does mean to suffer so senselessly with at all times the risk of suffering way more being there in this reality where chance so cruelly determines everything. To me existence is the problem, it's something so terrible and undesirable as after all it's the source of all suffering.

It terrifies me how a human is capable of feeling endless immense agony, it's terrifying how this existence could potentially continue for decades just for one to be tortured by extreme old age, it terrifies me how there is no guaranteed painless way for me to eternally escape from all pointless torment whenever I wish to, I fear suffering in this existence and I'd fear trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse agony as a result.

No matter what the true problem for me will always lie in existence itself, I could never see any value in being enslaved in this reality filled with endless risks and potential for existing to get unbearable, to exist truly is so immenslely harmful, existence just causes unnecessary pain and problems there was never a need for. I'll always see it as so incredibly harmful to exist which is why of course I wish I never existed more than anything, I really wish I was never burdened with something so tragic and terrible as having the ability to exist, I see existence as an abomination, a cruel, horrific mistake that only eternal nothingness can bring me peace from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Still hoping for eternal sleep.
Every day is just another day of suffering in this existence, each day being one closer to finally being free from the hopeless and cruel burden of existence, I'm always wishing for eternal sleep to save me from this existence where I suffer so unnecessarily just waiting to die anyway.

And eternal sleep is truly all that can bring me peace, what comforts me about death is that it's permanent and I won't be able to experience anything ever again, instead there will simply be nothingness and nothing is all I wish for, I'll always prefer the eternity of non-existence over meaningless, pointless suffering in an existence so undesirable.

I just see existence as a sad, torturous struggle, it just feels so unnecessary and burdensome to exist and I'm tired of suffering, I'm tired of the same thoughts, I'm tired of dreading what lies ahead, I'm tired of being trapped in this existence with no painless way to be at peace. To fall asleep eternally truly would be such an overwhelming relief, I've always and only wished for eternal sleep, ever since I was aware of what death was it comforted me, in fact death is the only comfort for me.