Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

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Never meant to suffer in this existence.
I truly was never meant to suffer in this cruel, meaningless existence and never should have been forced here in the first place, personally I just don't see value in existing rather I see such as a burden that just causes suffering. What I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and under no circumstances would I wish to prolong this existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for just to die in agony tortured by old age, the thought of reaching an old age is terrifying to me.

I just don't see anything desirable about it, personally I just find existing to be so undesirable in general, human existence always feels like a mistake to me, it's something so dreadful to me being conscious burdened with this unnecessary existence there was never a need for at all. I was never meant to suffer in this existence and more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed, it always feels so cruel and terrible to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace to finally escape from this existence I always saw as something so dreadful. I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead as long as I exist, I wish to just simply die a painless way and never exist ever again, I suffer so much from being trapped in this existence I was never meant for and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to be gone, non-existence is all that could ever be desirable for me no matter what, I just want all to finally be forgotten about for me, I just want some peace from this existence I was never meant for that only ever caused me to suffer all for the sake of it, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence.

 

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The wish to never exist ever again.
All I personally hope for and wish for is to never exist again, to me existence is just terrible cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, I just find it a burden to exist in general and it's a burden I've always felt so tired of. Non-existence truly is all that can solve everything for me and is all that can personally bring me peace, I'd never wish for the pain of suffering in this meaningless, torturous existence rather I only hope to never exist again, never existing again truly would solve everything for me personally and would bring me relief from what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself, I was never meant to exist.

I really never should have suffered in this existence, to me existence truly is the most terrible tragedy that just causes so much suffering there was never a need for. Human existence just feels like a mistake to me, it's something that I see as just causing so much harm until death takes away all anyway, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for non-existence, to never suffer in this existence ever again is all I personally see as desirable, in fact to cease existing is all I've ever hoped for. The peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep is all that's ever appealed to me, I personally see no value in suffering in this existence rather I see such as so futile and dreadful, no matter what I'd always prefer to cease existing, I just want some peace and it could only lie for me in never suffering ever again, to never exist ever again with all future unnecessary suffering finally prevented is all I see as ideal and could ever do no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always find it so dreadful to exist.
No matter what I'll personally always find it so dreadful to exist, I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, futile existence that I never would have chosen and never would have wished for, I find it dreadful to have to wake again and simply be conscious as to me existence is a deeply undesirable burden and it's something I wish was never imposed more than anything. I wish I was never forced into this dreadful existence that just causes so much harm until death takes away all anyway and I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead which is certainly a reason as to why I'd always prefer to not exist as if I'm gone then this dreadful existence is no longer my concern and all is finally forgotten about instead.

Peace for me could only lie in being unable to suffer in this existence and what is so terrible and dreadful to me is how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this torturous existence I always saw as a terrible tragic mistake, at any moment existing can easily turn to way more unbearable torture and it's all so futile to me anyway. I see existing as pointless suffering just for one to be tortured by old age and the thought of suffering until old age in this existence is so terrifying to me, I'd never wish for any of that rather I just want nothingness, I just want peace and for me peace could only lie in being permanently unconscious, existence is just something so dreadful to me, personally I could never see value to suffering in this existence rather I only hope to die painlessly and forget about it all, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wishing for the permanency of non-existence.
All I personally wish for is the permanency of non-existence where this existence is finally no longer my problem and all is forgotten about instead, what appeals to me about death is that it's permanent, I wish to be permanently unable to suffer and permanently unable to feel any pain. To me human existence truly is the most cruel, futile burden that just causes so much suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer, personally I find existing dreadful, unnecessary and undesirable, I just wish for eternal sleep instead of prolonging the suffering all for the sake of it just to be tortured by old age and it can easily get way more unbearable.

Personally I find it tiring to simply exist, I'm always so tired of the burden of existence and it's something I never would have chose and never would have wished for, I find it tragic how this existence was imposed in the first place even know there were any disadvantages to never suffering at all and I was forced into this existence where there is all this pointless suffering as a result. I'd never wish for any of this and I find it terrifying how a human can exist for so long just to be tortured by old age, I wish I could just fall into a permanent sleep and never exist again, only never existing again is appealing to me, personally I find existence itself to be the true problem which is why I only wish for the permanency of non-existence, I wish to never exist ever again, peace for me could only lie in being permanently unconscious which is why I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace to free myself from this existence I only ever saw as just being suffering for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for painless death.
Personally I truly do only hope for painless death, I wish for non-existence to bring me peace from the terrible cruelty and suffering of existing, I'd always prefer to die painlessly than prolong the suffering this existence causes just to end up suffering way more. To cease existing painlessly has been all I've ever hoped for and will do no matter what, I'm so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence and I find it a burden to simply exist.

Painless death truly would solve everything for me as it removes what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself and without existence I cannot suffer in any way which is why I only hope to be gone, I see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied even know I'd never wish for existence no matter what. I see existence as a dreadful, terrible imposition that just causes endless amounts of suffering, for me personally death really would be the only peace. I only hope to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never exist ever again. I wish I could have the option to just simply die in peace and finally be free from this existence I saw as causing nothing but suffering all for the sake of it, I'd never wish for this existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish for death, I only wish to never suffer ever again. To me existence truly is the most cruel, terrible mistake, under no circumstances would I wish to be burdened with this existence just waiting to die anyway destined for nothing but to be tortured by old age rather I just hope for nothingness instead, I suffer so much from being trapped in this existence I was never meant for and never would have wished for.

 

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Never had any interest in suffering in this existence.
I really never had, to me existence could never be a desirable state no matter what but it's something I see as just causing so much harm and suffering until death takes away all anyway, I find it such a cruel, futile burden to have to exist at all and I wish I was never burdened with this existence more than anything. I really never have had any interest in suffering in this existence rather I'd prefer to avoid existence no matter what, personally I've never seen any value in being conscious in this existence rather existence just feels like a mistake to me and it's one so unnecessary and dreadful that just causes endless amounts of cruelty all for the sake of it and I just don't have any interest in existing anyway.

I've never wished to exist and never would do, I was not meant to suffer in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for death, only eternal sleep can solve everything for me as it removes what the source of all suffering is which is existence itself. I only hope for peace from the suffering of existing, I only hope to never suffer ever again, no matter what I'll always be so tired of suffering in this existence and it's suffering that only death can take away for me. To me existing truly is just nothing more than pointless, meaningless suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, death truly would be the relief for me, it'd bring me peace from this existence I never would have chosen that was unfortunately imposed, I'll always see existence as an imposition no matter what, I'd always prefer to cease existing but really I never should have been forced into existence at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

So tired of being trapped in this existence.
I truly have always been so tired of being trapped in this existence and it feels like I've suffered in this existence for so long, it's suffering that only non-existence can bring me peace from. To me human existence just feels like enslavement as it's something I was forced into, it's something I never would have chosen and because this existence was imposed I have to suffer so much in an existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, existence just creates needs and problems that were completely unnecessary, I just see it as all so burdensome.

I find it so painful and dreadful to be enslaved in this existence without the option to just painlessly free myself from it in peace with no risk of ending up trapped in a situation of way worse torment from trying to die going wrong. It's just horrific to me how painless death is denied even know there is literally no limit as to how unbearable being enslaved in this existence can get, personally I only hope for non-existence, it's all I see as desirable, I'd always prefer to cease existing as after all there are no disadvantages to never suffering ever again. If I'm permanently unconscious then this existence is no longer my problem and nothing can concern me, I'd always prefer to die as ceasing to exist solves everything for me, it removes the source of all suffering in the first place, I wish to cease existing in peace to save myself from unnecessary suffering in this existence that just leads to decay and death anyway, personally I see nothing desirable about reaching an much older age rather the thought of such terrifies me, I'm always so tired of being trapped in this existence and I'll suffer until I'm no longer enslaved in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

My existence will always be just waiting to die no matter what.
It truly will always be, I'm just waiting for death, to me existing truly is just a futile and pointless burden where death is all that's inevitable with their being so much suffering for the sake of it in the process. All I personally hope for is to never suffer ever again, human existence just feels like a mistake to me and it's something I only wish to painlessly escape from and forget about, as long as I exist I truly will only ever hope for death, only death can bring me relief from an existence I saw as causing so much cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it.

I suffer because I exist and I'll suffer until death takes away all anyway, it just feels so cruel and dreadful to me how painless death is denied for me even know I was forced into this existence in the first place and it all just leads to death anyway with their being no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep yet no limit as to how unbearable the torture of existing can get just for death to take away all anyway. I'd always prefer to die than prolong all the suffering all for the sake of it, I personally see no value to being conscious in this existence at all rather existence is something I only want peace from. I only hope for death where nothing can matter to me and I cannot be harmed in any way with this torturous meaningless existence no longer my concern, existence truly is just terrible cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, I'd always prefer to die than prolong all this suffering just to be tortured by old age, I'll only be at peace once I'm free from this existence that only ever caused me to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me just feels like the most terrible tragedy.
It truly does, to me existence truly does feel like the most terrible tragedy that just torments existing beings until death takes away all anyway, there's just so much cruelty, suffering and pain in existing, it really is endless, I'll always see existence as an abomination and it's one I wish I was never forced into more than anything. I'd never wish to suffer in this horrific world where there's no limit as to how much agony one can feel, to me existence itself will always feel like the ultimate problem no matter what, it's just something so cruel and torturous, I'll always see it as a burden to be conscious and have to experience anything at all while capable of feeling pain and suffering to unlimited extents. To me existence truly does just cause nothing but harm, in fact I see existence as an unnecessary harm that can easily get way more torturous at any moment.

Personally I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist, to me existence just feels like a mistake and it's one I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, I'll always see existence itself as the true problem as it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings and as long as I exist I'll suffer, it's suffering that only death can take away for me and bring me peace from. The pain of existing really is so real and personally I just find it terrible to have to suffer at all so unnecessarily all for the sake of it, existence will always be the most terrible tragedy to me no matter what which is why I just want all to be gone for me, I wish to be permanently unconscious incapable of being harmed and unable to feel any pain, the thought of being conscious in this meaningless existence just to be tortured by old age and die anyway is personally so horrific to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never should have existed.
I truly was never meant to exist and I never should have suffered in this existence at all, to suffer in this existence will always be a terrible tragedy to me and more than anything I wish I was never forced into it, I wish I was never forced into this reality where there is all this endless suffering and cruelty. Personally I'll always see it as something so terrible and dreadful to be forced into this existence so unnecessarily all for the sake of it, I find it a burden to exist at all and it's a burden so deeply undesirable that has only ever caused me to suffer.

I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence that I never should have been forced into and I'll always be so tired no matter what, to me human existence truly will always be such a cruel, futile mistake that just causes pain and brings suffering and I truly was never meant for any of this, as long as I exist I'll only ever be hoping and wishing to be gone. Now that I exist for so long and suffer so much as a result all I can wish for is the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is gone for me and there is no more pain, no more suffering, existence itself will always be the ultimate problem to me and I wish this existence was never imposed. For me existence will always be an imposition that only death can bring me relief from and the relief of never existing again has been all I've ever hoped for, I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts no matter what, to me existing truly does just feel like suffering for the sake of it and I'll always find it so dreadful how I had to suffer at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to erase my existence.
No matter what I'll always be hoping and wishing to erase my existence as I just want to never exist ever again, to me existing is nothing but suffering and I find it deeply undesirable to suffer at all, all I personally want is for all to be gone and forgotten about for me. I just want to painlessly disappear and never suffer ever again, to be conscious in this existence is something so painful and torturous to me, I was never meant to suffer in this existence and never should have suffered at all, I just find it so terrible and dreadful how there's all this pain and cruelty all for the sake of it.

I really never would have wished for this which is why I just hope to erase my existence, I find it deeply undesirable to have to exist at all, for me existence is a torturous, unnecessary burden that only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from. All I hope for and wish for is the peace of non-existence where is all is finally gone for me, I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this cruel, futile existence, I'd always prefer to die but really wish I could just erase my existence as it would solve everything for me and finally bring me relief from all the suffering this existence causes but of course the suffering just continues with me just hoping and wishing to be gone. As long as I exist I'll only be wishing for the relief of never existing again, I'll always find it dreadful to exist and have so much dread for what lies ahead, I wish I was never forced into this existence I always saw as the most terrible, cruel mistake, existence itself will always feel like the ultimate problem to me which is why I only hope to never exist again, I'd never wish for existence rather I just want all to be gone and erased for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

The peace of eternal sleep solves everything for me.
It truly does which is why I just hope and wish for it, eternal sleep would solve everything for me in an existence that just causes suffering and so many problems there was never a need for at all. Never existing again solves everything for me as after all if I'm gone nothing can concern me, I cannot suffer in any way and this cruel, futile existence is finally no longer my problem, to me existing truly is just nothing more than unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it that serves no benefit and no purpose, all I wish is for eternal sleep to solve everything for me and take away all my suffering, to me personally non-existence is all that's desirable.

I just hope and wish to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering in any way and incapable of feeling any pain, what I find so terrible is how this existence was imposed with no limit as to how much one can suffer yet I cannot just have the option to finally die in peace to permanently escape from this existence that can continue for so much longer. Eternal sleep would solve everything for me as it removes the source of all suffering in the first place, I only hope and wish for the absence of existence where all is finally forgotten about, personally I just don't wish to be conscious at all and I see no value in such, being conscious in this existence is such a terrible, torturous burden to me and I'm so tired of being enslaved in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, only eternal sleep can solve what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
No matter what I'll always be so tired of suffering in this cruel, meaningless existence and it's tiredness that only death can take away for me, personally I never wished to be burdened with this existence and it's a burden that only non-existence can bring me peace from, under no circumstances would I wish for the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence rather I just want nothingness. All I wish and hope for is the peace of never suffering again where nothing can concern me and all is finally gone, existence itself will always be the ultimate problem for me no matter what, it's something so torturous and terrible that just causes endless amounts of suffering and I'll always be so tired of it all.

As long as I exist I'll always feel so tired, for me non-existence is all that could ever be desirable, it's all I wish and hope for, I just have no interest in suffering in this existence as well and never could do, personally I don't see any value in this cruel, futile existence that just torments existing beings until death takes away all any way. There's just so much suffering in existing with no limit as to how unbearable it can get and I see it as all so futile anyway, I just find it so dreadful to exist and always will do regardless of the circumstances, it always feels so cruel how I cannot just have the option to just painlessly die in peace even know I always feel so tired of suffering. I never wished to exist and never would do, all I hope is to fall into an eternal sleep and forget about it all, in an existence so cruel where there's all this terrible suffering eternal sleep truly is all that can personally bring me any peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me will always be a cruel, torturous imposistion.
Personally I find existence to be the most cruel, futile imposition that just causes endless amounts of suffering, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence no matter what rather all I wish for is to simply painlessly die and forget about it all. To me existence truly is the most terrible mistake and I'd never wish to be conscious of any of this, I find it a burden to be awake and have to experience any of this at all.

I find it tragic how this existence was imposed even know there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all yet there is no limit as to how unbearable the torture of existing can get and I see it as so futile anyway, I see it as so dreadful how I had to suffer at all even know there was never any need for existence. The way I see it existence just causes pain, suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, as long as I exist I truly will only ever hope for death. I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, it'll always feel so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly free myself from this existence in peace even know it was imposed in the first place. More than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence at all and as long as I exist I'll only hope for permanent nothingness, I only wish to never suffer again, the way I see it existence truly does cause nothing but harm until all is forgotten about in death anyway, no matter what I'll always find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this cruel, harmful existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death.
For me simply just existing truly is enough to make me wish for death and it has always been, I personally don't see existence as a desirable state, I see no value in being conscious in this existence rather I just see existence as a burden there was never a need for at all. More than anything I wish this unnecessary existence was never imposed, I wish I was never burdened with this existence that just caused suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for at all.

Personally I'd always prefer to not exist, I'd always prefer to be permanently unconscious as after all if I'm gone then nothing can concern me and this existence is no longer my problem, non-existence solves everything for me as all suffering is ultimately as a result of existence itself and if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way. What I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself it's never something I would have wished for or chosen rather I see existence as such a cruel, futile imposition that has only ever caused me to suffer, to me human existence just feels like a terrible mistake and it's one that just brings suffering. I suffer simply from being conscious and I'd never wish for any of this at all under any circumstances rather I just wish for non-existence, only never existing ever again can solve everything for me, I'd always prefer to die as after all there are no disadvantages to permanently ceasing to exist yet in comparison no limit as to how unbearable this existence can get that can continue for so long just for one to be tortured by old age but only never existing is truly ideal to me, this existence truly never should have been imposed at all and more than anything I wish it never was.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is just pointless suffering.
I truly do just see existing as being pointless, unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all just so terrible and dreadful to me. Only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer which is why it's all I hope for, ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me and bring me peace from the futile, torturous burden of human existence that there was never a need for, I'll always find it so painful to have to be burdened with this existence, existing will always be deeply undesirable to me and it's something I never would have chosen.

To me existing means suffering and to die means to never suffer ever again which is why it's all I hope for, non-existence is all that appeals to me as well, as I have no interest in suffering in this existence as well. No matter what I'll always see existence as a burden that was unfortunately imposed and it's a burden that just causes suffering and I see it as all so pointless anyway with their being no disadvantages to never existing again yet this existence can easily get way more torturous at any moment. To be conscious capable of suffering and feeling pain to unlimited extents is just something so terrible to me, I wish I was never forced to suffer all for the sake of it more than anything and what brings me so much pain is how I cannot just have the option to simply die in peace to finally escape from all pointless suffering in this existence I never would have chose and never would have wished for, I wish for death to save me from all future suffering but of course the suffering just continues instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence.
I truly will only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence and to never suffer ever again truly is all I could personally hope for. Non-existence is all that has ever appealed to me, the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep is all I've ever personally seen as desirable, to me existence is just cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and I'd always prefer to be unaware of it all no matter what, peace for me could ever lie in being permanently unconscious unable to be harmed and unable to suffer in any way.


I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence and it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can take away for me and personally bring me peace from, I'd always prefer to die anyway as I just see existence as so undesirable, unnecessary, it just causes suffering there is never a need for at all and if I'm gone this undesirable existence will no longer be my problem and all will be forgotten about. All I hope for and wish is for death to take away all my suffering and finally bring me peace and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for the peace of never existing again, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering, I find it such a terrible tragedy to be forced into this existence at all capable of suffering to unlimited amounts just to be tortured by old age and die anyway, I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence and never should have suffered at all, existence really is just pointless suffering to me and I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake no matter what and I'll suffer until I finally cease existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of being enslaved in this existence.
I truly am always so tired of being enslaved and trapped in this existence and I will always be no matter what, to me existing truly is just pointless, meaningless suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer, all I personally hope for is to never exist again. For me existence is something I never would have wished for, never would have chosen, I see it as something that just causes so much unnecessary suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it, I find it a burden to be conscious and have to experience anything at all and it's a burden so dreadful and unnecessary to me, I'll always see existence as an imposition no matter what and it's one that I wish I was never forced, to be conscious in this existence will always feel like a mistake to me.

I just want to die in peace and never think or feel anything at all, I never saw existence as a desirable state and never saw any value to suffering in this existence, what terrifies me is how a human can exist for so long, I'd always prefer to not exist than prolong all this unnecessary suffering just to be tortured by old age, to me existence feels like enslavement as after all existing was forced in the first place. I was burdened with this existence even know there was never a need for it at all with the absence of the option to just painlessly free myself from it in peace, it just feels so cruel and horrible how I cannot just access painless death even know I have no interest in existing and view existence as something so dreadful and futile that just brings so much harm, I just don't wish to be conscious at all and never would do, all I personally wish for is to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer again.

 

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Wish for the option to just painlessly cease existing in peace.
All I've ever hoped for is the option to just painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again, I wish I could just simply choose to die painlessly where this cruel, torturous existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake is finally all erased and forgotten about. Death really is always preferable for me than pointless, meaningless suffering, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence that I never would have chose and it just feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to just cease existing even know this existence was imposed and I never would have wished for any of this, human existence truly does feel like enslavement to me with how there's no acceptance towards not wishing to suffer with the focus being on forcing suffering instead.

I find it painful to be trapped in this existence, there's so much cruelty to me in how painless death is denied as I'd always prefer to cease existing than prolong the suffering of existing, I find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and always will do no matter what. Personally I just see no value in suffering in this existence rather I just want peace instead, I wish for peace from the futile yet so harmful burden of existence where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer, there's just so much suffering in this terrible, torturous existence and it can easily get way more unbearable, all I personally hope for is to never exist again which is why it causes me so much pain how painless death isn't accepted, I'll only be at peace when this existence that only ever caused me to suffer is finally no longer my problem, for me peace could only ever lie in never suffering again.

 

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Only hoping to sleep eternally.
The peace of eternal, dreamless sleep truly is all I wish and hope for and is all I could ever wish for no matter what, personally I only see non-existence as desirable where all is finally gone for me, I just wish to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering and incapable of feeling any pain. I'm always so tired of suffering in this terrible, torturous existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake, death would be the relief for me as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer and this existence is no longer my problem.

I'll personally always see it as so dreadful to be burdened with this existence there was never a need for that just brought so much unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it, I just wish to fall asleep permanently and forget about it all. Eternal sleep truly sounds so peaceful to me and painless death would solve everything for me as it removes what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself, non-existence really is the only comfort for me. To me existence will always feel like the most cruel mistake and I could personally never see value to suffering in this futile existence that I just saw as causing nothing but harm, all I hope and wish for is an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering, I truly will only be at peace once I'm finally asleep for all eternity, to sleep really is all I've ever wished for but of course I wish I never became conscious in this existence more than anything, I'd always prefer to cease existing but only never existing at all is real perfection for me.

 

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Seeing no value in being burdened with this existence.
Personally I see no value to being burdened with this existence at all rather I just see existence as so unnecessary, it's just cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, I'll always find it a burden to be conscious in this existence there was never a need for at all and it's a burden that only death can bring me peace and relief from. Non-existence where all is gone for me and this existence is finally no longer my problem is all I could ever see as desirable, under no circumstances would I wish to be burdened with this existence and I could personally never see value in having to exist rather existence just feels like a terrible mistake to me and it's one that just causes pain and I'd never wish for and never would have chosen any of this, I wish this existence was never imposed more than anything.

I'll always see existence as the most torturous, pointless imposition that just brings suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope for death, in fact ceasing to exist has been all I've ever hoped for, simply just existing is enough to personally make me wish for death and I'm always so tired of being burdened with existence. I only hope for nothingness, I find it deeply undesirable to exist and always have done, I just find it so dreadful how I was burdened with this existence and forced to suffer as a result, I'd never wish for an existence of pointless suffering rather I wish I never suffered at all and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace and never suffer again, I only hope for relief and freedom from this existence.

 

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Non-existence is all I personally see as desirable.
It truly is all I see as desirable and could ever be for me no matter what, I wish for non-existence where all is gone and forgotten about and there is no more suffering, no more cruelty, existence truly will always be a terrible, torturous abomination to me no matter what that just causes endless amounts of suffering. I'll always see it as such a dreadful burden to suffer in this existence which is why I only hope to never exist ever again, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake.

I only hope for non-existence as after all only then will I be unable to suffer, only then will all the cruelty and suffering of existing be no longer my problem, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to sleep eternally where all is finally forgotten. I'd never wish to exist and I never should have suffered in this existence at all, to suffer in this existence will always be the most terrible torturous burden to me that just brings so much suffering all for the sake of it, I'm always just hoping and wishing to be gone where finally nothing can concern me at all. I'd always prefer to painlessly not exist than prolonging the suffering in this torturous existence just to end up in way worse agony and die anyway, to me existing truly just is pointless, meaningless suffering all for the sake of it, I wish for nothingness as I just find it deeply undesirable to exist at all but really I never should have suffered in the first place, I never should have been forced into this existence, to me existence itself will always feel like the true problem and I'd never wish for the burden of human existence rather such feels like a mistake to me, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so horrific how trying to die can go wrong.
I personally find it so horrific how trying to die can go wrong and just lead to way worse suffering as a result, I wish I could just have the option to simply die in peace and never suffer ever again but of course that is not the reality in this torturous existence where there is all this terrible, endless cruelty. I'll always see existence as a terrible abomination no matter what, I'd never wish to exist but rather I just wish to never exist again and it's such a horrific world whete I cannot just have the option to in peace as all I wish for is permanent relief from the terrible burden of human existence.

It's so painful how I simply cannot just choose to cease existing with no fears of ending up in a situation of way worse torture from trying to die going wrong, I find it so horrifying how there is no limit as to how much a human can suffer just for then to be tortured by old age and die anyway and I fear what lies ahead so much. I fear ending up in a situation of way worse torture in this existence I never would have chosen that I just saw as a cruel, pointless abomination in the first place, I just see so much cruelty in how there's no acceptance towards not wishing to exist and I'd never wish to suffer in this existence. I'm always wishing for the option to just simply fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep, I wish to be permanently unconscious incapable of feeling any pain and incapable of being harmed in any way and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have that, I'm always so tired of being enslaved in this existence, human existence where I cannot just painlessly die in peace will always feel like enslavement to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty and suffering in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty and suffering in existing, in fact it's endless which is just so terrible to me, I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer all for the sake of it in this reality no matter what in fact I see existence as being nothing but suffering, I find existence to be an abomination that just causes pain and endless amounts of cruelty. It all just feels like a terrible, torturous mistake to me and I'd never wish for any of this, existence itself will always feel like the ultimate problem for me as after all it's the source of all suffering and without existence one cannot suffer in any way, all pain and problems are ultimately as a result of existence itself.

The way I see it existence just creates suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for, I personally see it as something so terrible and dreadful to be forced into this existence and burdened with all this unnecessary suffering as a result and what is so horrific is how there is no limit as to how unbearable the suffering can get just for one to die in agony from old age. It terrifies me how a human can exist for so long in this reality where there is all this cruelty and suffering and the suffering just continues, it will do until death takes away all anyway and to permanently cease existing is all I wish for, I wish for this existence to finally no longer be my concern with all finally forgotten about instead, non-existence is all I personally see as desirable, for me non-existence is the only peace, I only wish for permanent relief from all the suffering this existence causes, I only wish to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I've ever hoped for.
It truly is all I've ever hoped for and as long as I exist I'll only ever wish for non-existence, I just wish for permanent peace and relief from this torturous futile existence where there is all this endless suffering. Non-existence is all I see as desirable as after all if I'm dead then nothing can concern me, nothing can matter to me and all is finally gone for me, ceasing to exist would personally solve everything for me as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer.

All I wish and hope is for death to bring me permanent relief from all the cruelty and suffering in existing, I just find it a burden to be conscious and have to experience anything at all in this existence I always saw as the most terrible, harmful mistake, the way I see it existence truly does cause nothing but harm until death takes away all anyway and there's so much suffering in existing in general I just find it so terrible and dreadful to exist as a human. I find it a burden to be conscious and have to suffer for the sake of it in this existence that was imposed, to me existing truly is just terrible suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. No matter what I truly would prefer to cease existing, non-existence is all I've ever hoped for, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for, only non-existence can bring me peace from this existence I was never meant for, as long as I exist I truly will only wish for the absence of existence, I wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where finally I cannot experience anything at all and this existence is no longer my problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death is all that's inevitable anyway.
Death truly is all that's inevitable and I see existing as being nothing more than just waiting to die anyway because after all every second is one closer to permanently losing consciousness where if one's gone then nothing can matter for them and all is finally forgotten for them. I personally only see ceasing to exist as really desirable because I just have no interest in existing and never have done, I see it as a burden to exist and I see human existence as just pointless, meaningless suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, all will be gone in death anyway so personally I'd prefer to die sooner to escape from unnecessary suffering in this existence that I just saw as a terrible mistake in the first place, the thought of suffering until old age is so horrific to me.

I'd just never wish for it but rather I just want all to be finally gone instead with no more pain, no more suffering and this cruel, torturous existence no longer my concern, death is all that's inevitable so it just feels so horrible to me how I cannot just have the option to choose when to die in peace and never exist ever again. I personally see no value in being conscious at all just decaying and deteriorating, to me existence truly is just suffering all for the sake of it and I could never see any of this as worth it, rather I just want it all to be gone for me, I wish to cease existing to save myself from suffering in this existence I never would have been chose but really I wish I was never forced to suffer so unnecessarily in the first place in this existence there was never even a need for at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Eternal sleep is all that can bring me peace.
Eternal, dreamless sleep truly is all that can bring me peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally asleep for all eternity unable to suffer and unable to be harmed in any way. Falling asleep forever where I'm no longer burdened with this existence truly is all I see as desirable as after all if I'm gone then nothing can concern me, this existence is finally all forgotten about and I'm saved from all future suffering in this existence I never would have chose, for me peace truly could only ever lie in never suffering ever again.

I just hope and wish for permanent relief from all suffering, I wish for this existence to finally no longer be my problem, eternal sleep just sounds so peaceful and I'd always prefer to sleep eternally than to be enslaved in this existence suffering so unnecessarily, to me existing truly is just suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. If I don't exist then I won't be aware of any of this which is why to permanently cease existing is all I hope for, I just wish for peace from all suffering and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for some peace, no matter what I'd always prefer to permanently cease existing than suffer in this cruel, meaningless existence just to be tortured by old age and die anyway. I'd rather just fall asleep and never suffer ever again but of course the suffering just continues, it brings me so much pain how I cannot just have a death like never waking again to save myself from all future suffering, I only hope to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and no matter what it's all I could ever wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always find it so terrible to suffer in this existence.
I truly will always find it so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence, to me existence itself will always be the ultimate problem as it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings, without existence one cannot suffer in any way yet there is no limit as to how much one can be tormented in this existence. More than anything I wish this existence was never imposed, I see existence as the most cruel, harmful imposition that just brings so much pain until death takes away all anyway, to me human existence will always feel like a mistake.

I see it as an abomination to be conscious burdened with this existence and what I find so horrible is how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace even know this existence was forced in the first place and I never would have chosen and never would have wished for any of this. I suffer so much from the imposition of existence and what is so terrible to me is how this existence can continue for so much longer just for one to suffer way more, be tortured by old age and die anyway, personally I just want to cease existing in peace and find safety from all cruelty and suffering. I only hope to never suffer ever again with this torturous, unnecessary existence finally no longer my problem, I personally could never see value in being conscious in this existence, I see existence as deeply undesirable in every way and I'll always find it so dreadful how this existence was imposed even know it just caused suffering all for the sake of it and there was never a need for it at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally see no benefit to existence.
I truly don't rather I just see existence as something that just causes harm and so much suffering until death takes away all anyway, personally I'd never wish to suffer in this harmful, terrible existence where there is all this cruelty all for the sake of it but rather I just want some peace. I only hope for eternal non-existence where all this is forgotten about, I personally just don't see value in being conscious in this existence rather existence is such a terrible, torturous mistake to me ultimately responsible for causing all this suffering.

I could never see any benefit to any of this rather I see existence as an abomination that just creates problems there was never a need for and so much pain as a result, no matter what I'd always prefer to die, I'd always prefer to cease existing where all is gone for me and nothing can matter to me than be burdened with this existence. I'd always choose non-existence over suffering so unnecessarily with no limit as to how much agony I can feel just to die tortured by old age in this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake, personally I just wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered, I just want all to be gone for me, I see no benefit to any of this and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for eternal sleep.
As long as I exist I truly will only hope for eternal sleep, I just want the peace of never existing ever again, existence is just something so cruel and torturous to me, it's something I never would have chosen and never would have wished for. Only once I'm sleeping permanently will I be unable to suffer which is why it's all I hope for, I just wish for the absence of all cruelty, pain and suffering in this existence I just saw as a terrible tragic mistake, there's just so much suffering in existing which is so cruel to me.

Personally I just want peace from it all, I only wish for the peace of eternal, dreamless sleep, personally I could never see value in suffering in this existence rather I just wish to permanently cease existing and forget about it all. I just wish to never suffer ever again, personally I see no value to existence rather I see it as something so dreadful which just causes and brings pain until death takes away all anyway, I'd always prefer to sleep permanently than suffer in this existence no matter what, in fact it's all I've ever wished for and will do no matter what, as long as I exist I'll only ever wish to cease existing. But of course the suffering just continues with me just wishing to be gone, I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just choose to fall into an permanent sleep and never suffer ever again with this existence finally no longer my problem, non-existence truly is the only peace for me personally, I'll only be at peace once this existence is finally no longer my problem.