Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

I find existence itself to be the ultimate problem.
It truly will always be the ultimate problem to me as after all it's the cause and ultimate source of all suffering, if I never existed at all I wouldn't be able to suffer in any way with nothing able to harm and concern me but of course I was forced into this existence of pointless suffering and it's something I never would have wished for and never would have chosen. For me simply just being conscious in this existence is an undesirable burden, personally I see no benefit to being enslaved in this reality just hoping and waiting to die anyway rather I just want non-existence instead, simply being aware of existence is enough to make me wish for death and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again.

I see nothing desirable about existing at all rather I see existence itself as a problem and it's one that only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, as long as I exist I truly will only hope for death, I just wish for no more pain, no more suffering and I suffer from being conscious and enslaved in this existence. Simply just existing is tiring to me personally and I just find it dreadful how this existence had to be imposed even know there was never a need for it at all and there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all, to suffer in this existence will always be a cruel, unnecessary burden to me that just causes so much suffering. I'd always prefer to die and forget about it all, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for the peace of never suffering ever again, I wish for non-existence to solve everything for me, only ceasing to exist can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death is the only peace for me.
For me personally death truly is the only peace, I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this cruel, undesirable existence that just brings so much pain, all I wish and hope for is to never exist again, I wish for true permanent peace where I'm unconscious, all is gone for me and this existence is no longer my concern. The true permanent peace of non-existence really has been all I've ever hoped for, I've never wished to exist and I never should have suffered in this existence at all, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep, death solves everything for me as it removes the ultimate cause of all pain and problems in an existence where there is all this endless terrible suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

All I hope for is the permanency of non-existence where all is finally forgotten about, I just wish for peace from the torturous unnecessary burden of human existence where one is just waiting to die anyway, existence truly does feel like a mistake to me and always will do no matter what. I'd always prefer to painlessly die than suffer in this existence there was never a need for at all and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to simply die in peace, I wish and hope for a death like never waking again, only when I'm unable to suffer, free from the imposition of existence will I be at peace, in an existence that I see as just being suffering for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway non-existence truly is all I see as desirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing for death.
No matter what I personally truly will always and only wish for death, I wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where all the suffering is gone for me and this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragedy is finally no longer my concern. I truly would prefer to die than suffer in this existence, I've always wished for non-existence, in fact it's all I've ever wished for as I find existing to be completely undesirable in every way possible. I was never meant to exist and never should have suffered in this existence at all, I just don't have any interest in existing and I find it such a dreadful, futile burden to have to exist in general.

I suffer so much from being enslaved in this existence I never would have chosen without the option to just painlessly cease existing in peace, there's just so much suffering in existing with no limit as to how unbearable it can all get which is truly why I only hope and wish for death as after all only in non-existence will I be safe from all suffering. There are no disadvantages to not existing for all eternity, I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence no matter what and never will do which is why non-existence truly is all that's ideal to me, I only see it as ideal to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering and incapable of feeling any kind of pain. Existence truly does just feel like a mistake to me and wanting to die truly is all I know, in fact for me wanting death is a response to existence itself, my wish to die is a result of being conscious and having to wake again, as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer again.

 

[FuneralCry]

So tired of suffering.
Personally I'll always be so tired of suffering and it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can take away for me, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence and I find it such a terrible, torturous burden to exist at all. The way I see it existence truly does cause nothing but harm until death takes away all anyway, I'd always prefer to die than suffer in this horrific world where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel. Peace from this existence has been all I've ever wished for as I'm just so tired of suffering, existence itself will always be the problem to me and simply being conscious truly is enough on it's own to make me wish for death.

I just see existence as the most cruel, terrible tragedy and I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence, I was never meant for something as dreadful as existence and I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead, existing can easily get way more unbearable and torturous at any moment as well just for one to die in agony from old age, personally I see no benefit to existing, I see existing as completely undesirable. It's just pointless, unnecessary suffering to me and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for death, simply just existing makes me feel tired and I'll always feel so tired of it all, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for but I really never should have suffered at all. I suffer because of the imposition of existence and it brings me so much pain how I cannot just cease existing in peace to finally escape from it all, the relief of death is all I wish for and hope for, I only wish to never suffer in this existence ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never should have been forced into this existence.
I truly never should have been forced into this existence of pointless, unnecessary suffering and I find it the most terrible tragedy how I had to suffer in this existence at all, to me existence is the most cruel, harmful imposition, under no circumstances would I wish to be conscious burdened with this existence rather I wish I never suffered more than anything, I wish I never became aware. I'd always prefer to permanently cease existing, I wish to never exist again where all is gone and forgotten for me, but never suffering at all is what I see as truly ideal.

I'd never wish for the torturous, unnecessary burden of suffering in this existence all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all but only I hope and wish for non-existence, it's all I can wish for as long as I suffer in this existence. I just find it so dreadful how I was forced to suffer in this existence and had to suffer so unnecessarily all for the sake of it, the way I see it existence truly does cause nothing but harm, existence to me is an abomination that causes endless amounts of suffering until death takes away all anyway and what is so cruel to me is how there is no painless, guaranteed way for me to permanently escape from all this even know I never should have suffered at all, I never should have been forced into this existence, I should have the option to just die painlessly as all this was forced in the first place and I see it as deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence but of course all the suffering just continues instead and I'll suffer until all is finally forgotten about for me in death.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting to disappear from this existence.
All I've personally ever wished and hoped for is to disappear from this existence, I wish to never suffer ever again, I'll always see it as such a terrible, dreadful tragedy to suffer in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to be gone. I'll only hope for the peace of never existing again, to me existing truly is just cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and I just want to disappear from it all, I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist where nothing can concern me and this existence is no longer my problem.

I really wish to just erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I wish for all to be gone and forgotten for me with their being no more pain, no more suffering, I'll always find it so terrible and torturous to be burdened with this existence in fact existence feels like a mistake to me and it's one I only hope and wish to disappear from. I was never meant to suffer in this existence and never should have suffered at all, existence itself will always feel like the true problem to me, it's something that just brings and causes so much pain until death takes away all anyway, I just want to disappear and be free from it all, I just want peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering ever again where all is finally be gone, permanently ceasing to exist truly is all that's desirable for me personally, I'd always prefer to not exist but really I wish I could just erase it all for me and never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only ever hoped for nothingness.
I personally truly have only ever hoped for nothingness, I just want to never suffer in this cruel, torturous existence ever again, to me existence will always feel like an abomination, it's something that just causes harm until death takes away all anyway and there's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing, it's all so terrible and dreadful to me.

Personally I'd always prefer to die than be enslaved in this existence I never would have chose and never wished for, non-existence is preferable to me than prolonging suffering just to end up tortured and tormented by old age. To simply exist will always be something so dreadful to me and I find it dreadful to simply exist, non-existence is all that's desirable for me as after all only when I cease existing will I be safe from all cruelty, suffering and harm. There's no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake yet no disadvantages to never suffering ever again, for me personally death truly is the only peace. I only wish for permanent nothingness and it's all I hope for no matter what, what appeals to me about ceasing to exist is that it's permanent and if I'm gone then I cannot suffer in any way and this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen is finally no longer my problem. Existence to me truly does just feel like an an abomination and I find it so terrible to suffer in this existence at all, I wish I was never forced into this existence of pointless suffering and it brings me so much pain how I cannot just have the option to simply die in peace and never exist again as I truly do just wish for nothingness.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is just pointless suffering.
No matter what existence truly will always just be pointless, unnecessary suffering to me, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake rather I just wish for some peace instead. I only wish for the peace of never suffering ever again where nothing can concern me and all is finally gone, to suffer in this existence at all will always be so incredibly undesirable to me.

I wish this existence that only ever brought me pain and caused me to suffer was never imposed and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for death, I find it such a cruel, torturous burden to be enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts without the option to just painlessly die in peace and never exist ever again. I suffer so much from being trapped in this existence of pointless suffering, to me existence just feels like a terrible tragic mistake that just causes harm and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for permanent relief from it. I wish for death to take away all my suffering and solve everything for me, in fact I suffer simply from existing, I'd never wish to suffer in this horrific, cruel world no matter what and I just have no interest in the pointless suffering of human existence anyway. It's all just so terrible and dreadful to me and as long as I exist I truly will only ever hope to permanently cease existing, only in non-existence will the suffering go away for me, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer which is why it's all I could ever wish for, I was never meant to be enslaved in this existence of pointless suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me will always feel like the most terrible tragedy.
It truly will always do, I see existence itself as the most terrible tragedy that just causes endless amounts of suffering until death takes away all anyway and it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me, under no circumstances would I wish to be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily all for the sake of it rather I wish I never existed more than anything.

Personally I just don't wish to suffer in any way and existence to me feels like nothing but suffering, I just find it tragic to be forced into existence even know there was never even a need to exist at all with their being no disadvantages to never suffering at all yet there is no limit as to how unbearable the torture of existing can get and I see it as all so futile and meaningless anyway, existence is such a terrible horrific tragedy to me ultimately responsible for causing so much torture and agony, the horrors of existence are endless and they just continue.

I could just never see value in suffering in this existence rather to exist will always be a burden to me and I suffer so much from being burdened with this existence. The thought of being enslaved in this existence I always saw as a terrible tragic mistake in the first place just to die in agony from old age really terrifies me, I'd always prefer to die but really I never should have existed at all, existing will always be deeply undesirable to me no matter what and I wish I never became conscious of this existence more than anything, nothing would make me wish for any of this, existence to me is an abomination and terrible tragedy that only death can bring me peace from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Cruelty of being denied painless ways to die.
I'll always see so much cruelty in how painless ways to cease existing are denied as I'd always prefer to cease existing than prolong all the futile, unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have wished for that only ever caused me to suffer. It's just so terrible to me how humans cannot just choose to be euthanised even know this existence was forced in the first place with no limit as to how much agony one can feel as long as they exist yet there is no suffering in non-existence and to never suffer ever again is all I personally wish for but of course more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed at all.

I wish I never became conscious in this meaningless, torturous existence I always saw as a terrible mistake, I personally suffer so much from how I simply cannot just have the option to die in peace to finally escape from the cruel, undesirable burden of existing as a human where there is so much suffering and terrible cruelty all for the sake of it. I find it painful to be enslaved in this existence I was never meant for and what terrifies me is how trying to die can go wrong and lead to way worse immense agony as a result, in fact existing can easily get way more torturous at any moment just for one to die tortured by old age and I see it as all so futile anyway, as long as I exist I'll only be hoping for a painless death so I can finally find peace from the imposition of existence, I see existence itself as the ultimate problem and I'd never wish for any of this, the only relief for me truly could lie in never suffering ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me existing means suffering.
I'll always see existing as only being suffering no matter what and I suffer simply from existing, I suffer just from being conscious enslaved in this meaningless, torturous existence without the option to painlessly die in peace, there's so much cruelty in existing and it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me. I only hope and wish to never suffer ever again, personally I just don't see any value to any kind of suffering or struggle rather I see it as all pointless, unnecessary there was never a need for any of this at all and if I die then none of it can concern me which is why I only hope and wish for death, only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering I search for and as long as I exist it's all I ever hope for.

I just don't see any benefit to being enslaved in this existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway destined for nothing but even more suffering, I find it so terrifying how a human can suffer for so long in this reality where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, the way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing way worse suffering at any moment just to be tortured by old age and die anyway. Personally I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing to escape from and prevent unnecessary suffering, I'll suffer as long as I exist, I'd never wish for something as futile, harmful and torturous as existence rather I just wish for permanent peace, I wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, existence itself will always feel like the ultimate problem for me, it's something that just brings and causes suffering until death takes away all anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just waiting to die anyway.
I'll always see existing as nothing more than just waiting to die where one suffers all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, personally I just find it so terrible and dreadful how this existence was forced in the first place even know it was completely unnecessary and only ever brought suffering all for the sake of it. I just don't see purpose or benefit to existing rather I see it as all so futile, it's just pain and suffering there was never a need for at all with death taking all away anyway no matter what, death is all that's inevitable and there's no escaping that reality which is why I see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied.

I wish for the option to choose when to cease existing and never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues, I'd personally always prefer to prevent suffering through ceasing to exist than prolong it just to be tortured by old age and die anyway. I just see nothing desirable about suffering in this existence I never have done and never could do no matter what, I see existing as nothing more than just waiting for death and I suffer so much in this waiting process, I wish I never existed, I wish I never became conscious of this existence. To me personally existence will always feel like the most cruel, dreadful mistake no matter what, non-existence is all I personally hope for and wish for, I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I never would have chose that I never should have been forced into, I'm always wishing to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only seeing eternal sleep as desirable.
For me only eternal sleep could ever be desirable, I just wish to sleep permanently and never suffer in this existence ever again with all finally gone and forgotten about. To me it just sounds so peaceful to be permanently unaware with this existence finally no longer my problem, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering and I've suffered for so long in this existence I never would have wished for and was never meant for, I personally see existence as deeply undesirable in every way, I see it as a burden to suffer in this existence at all.

I only hope for dreamless, eternal sleep where nothing can concern me, it's all I've wished for and all I could ever do no matter what, I'd always prefer to sleep permanently but really I never should have been forced into this existence, I wish I never became conscious of this futile, unnecessary existence that just causes endless amounts of suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. For me peace truly could only lie in eternal sleep, I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence, I could personally never see any peace in this horrific world, I see no peace in being conscious in this existence destined to decay and be tortured by old age. Personally I just hope for eternal sleep, I've only ever wished for true eternal peace as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing, permanently ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me as it removes the source of all suffering in the first place, I wish I could just have a painless death like never waking again and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have that option, it'd bring me so much relief to finally be able to sleep for all eternity.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist would save me from so much suffering.
It truly would save me from so much suffering, all I personally hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again, I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence I never would have chosen that I always saw as so undesirable. I'd always prefer to cease existing no matter what than suffer in this dreadful, unnecessary existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, if I don't exist then all is gone for me and nothing can concern me, there are no disadvantages to being permanently unable to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake.

Ceasing to exist truly would save me from so much suffering in this existence I never would have wished for, personally I'd always prefer to die than suffer in this existence. If I had the option to die painlessly it'd save me from so much suffering in an existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, voluntary death for me would be unnecessary suffering prevention, it'd be the way for me to find safety from suffering in this reality where there is all this endless cruelty. To me human existence truly did always feel like the most terrible tragic mistake, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence but rather I just wish for nothingness, I only hope for the peace of never suffering ever again where all is finally gone for me, I'll always see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied, I wish for a painless death like never waking again to save me from all suffering in an existence I never would wish for, existence itself will always feel like the ultimate problem for me and it terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence.
It truly does feel like I have suffered for such a long time and more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I never should have been forced into this existence I always saw as such a cruel mistake, I wish I never became conscious, I wish I was never burdened with something as dreadful as human existence. To be conscious and aware is such a torturous, futile burden to me and it's something I never would have wished for, it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, and it's suffering that was all so unnecessary in the first place that there was never a need for at all, I wish I never suffered, never existing would have saved me from all this suffering but of course the suffering of existing continues instead.

What I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings and as well as that I just don't see value to being conscious in this existence rather I see it as a burden that just brings me so much pain and will do until death takes away all anyway. Simply just existing is enough on it's own to make me wish for death and I suffer just from being conscious, as long as I exist I'll only be hoping to never exist ever again, I only hope for peace from all the cruelty and suffering in existing, I wish for the option to just simply die in peace and never exist again but of course I'm trapped in this existence I never would have chose and it terrifies me how it can continue for much longer, existing truly is only suffering to me, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is the only relief for me.
No matter what for me the only relief truly could ever lie in non-existence where all is gone and forgotten, non-existence is all I wish for, I just wish for the peace of an dreamless, eternal sleep where I finally cannot suffer in any way and this existence I never would have chose is finally no longer my problem, to me human existence will always be the most futile, undesirable burden that just causes so much suffering and it's something I'd never wish for no matter what.

Personally I see no value to suffering in this reality where there is all this endless cruelty, non-existence is all that can bring me any relief as after all, all suffering is ultimately as a result of existence and without existence there cannot be any suffering and to never exist ever again is all I hope and wish for, it's all I've wished for. I just don't see anything desirable about existing in general rather existence always feels like a mistake to me and it's something I never would have chosen, for me the only relief truly could only lie in being permanently unconscious. I've only wished for eternal sleep, it's all that's ever appealed to me and I personally see no value to suffering in this existence, I just want nothingness instead as after all there are no disadvantages to being permanently unable to suffer in this existence, in fact permanently ceasing to exist would solve everything for me as it removes what I see as the ultimate problem which is existence itself. Personally I truly have only ever hoped for death, it's all I've wished for, non-existence is all that can bring me relief from an existence that only caused me to suffer that I never would have wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is something so terrible.
It truly is and always will be to me no matter what, I see it as something so terrible to suffer in this cruel, pointless existence that always felt like a mistake to me. For me personally existence itself really is the ultimate problem as it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of that torments existing beings, I'd never wish to exist but rather I only hope and wish for nothingness where all is finally gone for me.

I personally could never see any value in being burdened with this existence rather such is something so terrible to me that just brings so much suffering until death takes away anyway, I find it dreadful to simply exist and just existing on it's own is enough to make me wish to permanently cease existing, existence feels like a terrible tragedy to me and something that just brings and causes so much pain. And what is so terrible is how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can all get, existing can easily get way more torturous at any moment and I see it as all so futile and meaningless anyway with their being no disadvantages to never existing ever again yet I see existing as just being terrible cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it. There's just so much cruelty in this terrible, torturous existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, as long as I exist I'll suffer, non-existence is all I've hoped for and could ever do no matter what, I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing, for me non-existence is peace, it's all that could bring me any relief, death is all I wish for but really this existence never should have been imposed, I never should have suffered in this existence at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death is freedom for me
For me death means freedom, it means being free from the futile and torturous burden of existing as a human, to me existing means suffering and to die means to never suffer ever again. What appeals to me about ceasing to exist is that if I'm gone then nothing can concern me and this existence is finally no longer my problem, I find it a burden to be conscious in this existence and have to experience anything at all and it's a burden I see as completely unnecessary, undesirable and just caused me to suffer all for the sake of it.

I never would have wished for any of this and I find it so dreadful to be conscious enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents in this existence that can continue for so long. The thought of suffering until old age is horrific to me, I'd never wish for that under any circumstances, to me human existence just feels like a terrible mistake, it's something I see no benefit, point and value to and what I find so cruel is how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace even know all of this was forced in the first place. For me non-existence is all that could ever be desirable, I just don't wish to be conscious in this existence at all rather I just wish to be non-existent, I wish to be unaware and permanently unable to suffer free from the unnecessary burden of existence there was never a need for at all, all I've ever hoped for is the peace of an dreamless, eternal sleep where all is finally gone for me, I just wish for freedom from this existence and I'd always prefer to not exist than prolong the suffering of existing just to end up in a situation of way worse torture and die anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always having so much dread for what lies ahead.
I personally always have so much dread for what lies ahead in this futile, torturous existence that I never would have chosen and never would have wished for. I'll always find it so dreadful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and what terrifies me is how a human can exist for so long in this cruel world with no limit as to how much agony they can feel, in fact existing can very easily get way more unbearable and torturous at any moment.

It's all just so terrible to me, I'll personally always see existence as an abomination and a horrific tragedy that just causes endless amounts of suffering and cruelty, personally I'd always prefer to die than suffer in this existence at all, I wish for this dreadful existence to be gone and no longer my problem. I just don't see value to suffering in this existence and never would do rather I see it as a burden to have to exist, it's a burden to suffer in this existence that was completely unnecessary and I'll aways have so much dread for what lies ahead. As after all this world truly is the most horrifying place with all this endless cruelty and torture and as well as that I suffer simply from existing, there's so much suffering in existing which is why I only hope and wish for death, I'll always find it dreadful to suffer in this existence. The way I see it existence truly does cause nothing but harm until death takes away all anyway, human existence truly is just pointless, terrible suffering to me, it's something I'd never wish for rather it's something dreadful I'd always prefer to avoid, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for.

 

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Always preferring to cease existing than suffer in this pointless existence.
No matter what I'd always prefer to cease existing than suffer in this pointless existence that I always saw as so cruel and torturous and I find it painful how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing in peace to prevent and save myself from all unnecessary suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway. Non-existence is always preferable for me as after all if I'm dead I cannot suffer, there are no disadvantages to being permanently unconscious, there cannot be any suffering in the absence of existence as after all, all suffering is ultimately as a result of existence itself, to me existing is a pointless burden where I'm just waiting to die anyway.

I'd always prefer to die than suffer until old age in this horrific world where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, existence just feels like a mistake to me personally and in general I'd just prefer to be unaware of it, I'd prefer to permanently cease existing no matter what where nothing can concern me and this existence is no longer my problem. Personally I just don't see any benefit to suffering for the sake of it in this existence I always saw as so undesirable I never would have wished for just to be tortured by old age and die anyway, instead I'd rather just cease existing and forget about it all, I wish to never think or feel anything ever again, I wish for the option to simply die in peace as I'd always prefer to cease existing and I only wish for relief from the burden of human existence, non-existence will always be preferable for me no matter what and it's all I hope for as long as I suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer simply from existing.
I personally do suffer simply from existing, I suffer just from being conscious in this terrible, torturous existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for and I'll suffer until death takes all away for me anyway. I truly was never meant for any of this and I never should have been forced into this existence at all, existence to me truly does feel like nothing but suffering, I find human existence to be such a terrible, tragic mistake that just causes endless amounts of cruelty, it's all just so dreadful to me, non-existence truly is all I personally hope for and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence.

I'm always so tired of being trapped in this existence of pointless suffering and I'll always be so tired until I finally cease existing, permanent non-existence truly is all I personally hope for, it's all that could bring me any relief from this existence where there is all this suffering but of course all the suffering continues with me just hoping and wishing to be gone. I'll always find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence no matter what and it's suffering that only non-existence can bring me relief from, as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist again, I never should have been forced into this existence that only ever brought me pain and was completely unnecessary in the first place. There's just so much suffering in this existence and it can easily get way more unbearable at any moment yet if I cease existing then none of it can concern me which is why to never exist ever again is all I hope for, personally I'll always find it so painful to exist, simply just being conscious and having to wake again truly is enough to make me wish for death.

 

[FuneralCry]

Not seeing benefit to existence.
I truly don't see any benefit to existence rather I just see it as something that brings and causes so much suffering until death takes away all anyway and I'd never wish to suffer in this existence no matter what. To me existence truly did just feel like a mistake in the first place and it was one so cruel and dreadful that there was never a need for at all, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this pointless, unnecessary existence, I wish I never became conscious at all, to suffer in this existence will always feel like an abomination to me personally.

I find it deeply undesirable to exist at all, I see nothing desirable about being forced into this reality burdened with this existence of meaningless suffering and I'll always find it a burden to exist no matter what, I'll always see existence as the opposite of beneficial rather it's just something that causes so much harm until death takes away all anyway and I'd always prefer to die than suffer in this existence, ceasing to exist truly is all that can personally bring me peace from this existence. The way I see it existence just creates suffering, pain and problems all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway, I'd prefer to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering in any way no matter what. I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily but of course I never should have suffered at all, I find it so dreadful how I was forced to suffer in this existence even know there were never any disadvantages to not existing at all, never existing would have saved me from all this suffering but of course the suffering just continues instead, I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to painlessly free myself from this existence I never saw a benefit to.

 

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Existence was completely unnecessary
That is the way I see existence, I see it as something completely unnecessary that just caused suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for in the first place, more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence. I wish I was never forced into this reality where there is all this cruelty and suffering that I see as so pointless and futile in the first place, if I never existed it would have prevented so much suffering, personally I don't see value to being conscious in this existence in the first place rather such to me is always an unnecessary burden.

I wish I just stayed unaware instead, I'd always prefer to not exist as existence just feels like a mistake to me and I see it as completely undesirable to exist, existence is something I never would have chosen and never would have wished for but really all that's truly ideal to me is never suffering at all. I wish I never suffered in this existence more than anything, I see it as such a terrible tragedy to exist at all, non-existence truly will always be preferable to me than prolonging the suffering in this unnecessary existence where I'm just waiting to die and hoping to die anyway. Existence to me just feels like an unnecessary harm ultimately responsible for causing endless amounts of suffering and cruelty, I wish this existence was never imposed more than anything, I'll always find existence as something so dreadful and terrible no matter what, it's just suffering all for no purpose with their being no disadvantages to not existing yet no limit as to how unbearable the torture of existing can get, I'll only be at peace once I'm permanently free from this unnecessary existence.

 

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Never being meant to suffer in this existence.
I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence and I really never should have suffered at all, I'll always see it as the most terrible, cruel tragedy to have to suffer in this existence. To me existence truly did always feel like a mistake, I was just never meant for something as harmful and futile as existence and I never should have been forced into existence, this existence that only ever brought me pain never should have been imposed at all.

I personally suffer simply from existing and just existing is enough to make me wish for death, my wish to die is a result of simply existing and having to wake again, wanting to die is all I know and it's all I'll wish for no matter what, I've never wished for existence, I never would have chose to exist and I was just never meant for it, under no circumstances would I wish to prolong being conscious in this existence just to end up in a situation of way worse cruelty and torture, there's just so much suffering in existing and I see it as all so futile and unnecessary. I just don't wish for the pointless, unnecessary suffering of human existence and it's something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what that I only wish for true permanent peace from, personally I don't see value in suffering at all and I'm just not meant to suffer either, I just wish for nothingness instead and as long as I exist I'll only wish for the peace that only never suffering ever again can bring me, I just want all to be finally gone and forgotten about for me, eternal sleep is the only relief for me, all I hope for is to finally sleep, I've suffered for so long.

 

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I see it as so dreadful to exist in the first place.
What I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that tortures existing beings, I see existence as something that just causes harm which is why I'll always see it as something so dreadful and terrible to be forced into this existence in the first place. Under no circumstances would I wish to suffer in this existence rather I wish I never existed more than anything as after all once one exists in this horrific world they are capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, existence just gives one the ability to suffer and feel pain and I see it as all so futile anyway.

Existence to me truly is meaningless, unnecessary suffering that there was never a need for all for no purpose, personally I wish I just stayed unaware of this existence, existence itself will always feel like a mistake to me no matter what, it's such a terrible tragedy to me that causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering and I'd never wish for any of this. Existence to me will always be the most harmful, cruel imposition and what I find so terrible is how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing in peace even know all of this was forced in the first place, I'll always find it so dreadful to be conscious in this reality and I have so much dread for what lies ahead, the thought of being burdened with this existence for much longer just to face the torture of old age is terrifying to me, I'd always prefer to die but really I wish I never suffered at all, only never becoming aware of this dreadful existence is truly ideal for me.

 

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Eternal sleep is peace for me.
All I wish and hope for is to sleep permanently, I wish for the peace that only dreamless, eternal sleep can bring me and it's all I'll hope for as long as I suffer in this existence. I just wish for all to be gone for me, I wish to never suffer in this terrible, horrific world ever again, there's just so much suffering in existing and it's suffering that can get way more unbearable and torturous at any moment. All I personally hope for is the peace of never suffering ever again, I wish to sleep for all eternity where finally this existence is no longer my problem and finally I can be at peace.

For me peace could only lie in never existing ever again, I could never see it existing in this reality where there is all this endless suffering and cruelty, I'll only be at peace once I'm permanently free from the cruel, futile burden of existing as a human which is of course something I never would have wished for and never would have chose. Dreamless eternal sleep truly is all that's desirable for me and ever could be, I never wished for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for some peace, I wish for all to be forgotten about for me, the only relief for me could lie in being asleep for all eternity where I'm finally unable to suffer. It brings me so much pain how I cannot just have a death like never waking again so I can finally escape from and prevent unnecessary suffering in this torturous, pointless existence I never would have chose, I'd always prefer to sleep permanently than prolong all the suffering in this existence no matter what.

 

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Existing is just suffering and cruelty.
It truly is which is why I only hope for non-existence, only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from this cruel, torturous existence where there is all this endless suffering all for the sake of it, to me human existence truly just is pointless suffering and I'll suffer as long as I exist, I suffer just from being conscious. To me existence itself will always be the ultimate problem, I see existence as an abomination that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for, the way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing way worse suffering at any moment with no limit as to how much one can be tormented.

I'd always prefer to die as after all if I no longer exist then nothing can matter to me and this existence is finally no longer my concern, there's no suffering and cruelty in what I see as the ideal state for me which is non-existence as after all without existence one cannot suffer in any way, there cannot be any suffering in the absence of existence. Personally I just don't see value to being burdened with this existence that just causes suffering and cruelty until death takes away all anyway, I'd always wish to permanently cease existing no matter what, I have no interest in suffering in this existence and I see existence as something that just causes harm, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence and only death can take away my suffering, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for permanent peace from the cruelty of existing, I only hope to never suffer ever again, existence just feels like a terrible mistake to me and always will do no matter what.

 

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I see existence as something that just causes harm.
I truly do see it this way, I see existence as something that just causes harm until death takes away all anyway and to be permanently free of this harmful existence is all I ever personally hope for, to me existence is just pointless, unnecessary suffering, death truly would be the relief for me as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way. To me existence will always be the most horrific tragedy, I see it as something that serves no function but to cause unnecessary suffering and torture all for no reason and no purpose and once one exists they are capable of feeling pain and suffering to unlimited extents which is all so cruel to me and what is so terrible is how existing can easily get way more torturous which just shows how harmful existence truly is.

I see existence as an abomination that just causes endless suffering, there's just so much suffering in this reality in fact to me existing feels like nothing but suffering and I see it as all so futile and unnecessary anyway, I find it such a terrible tragedy how I was forced to suffer in this pointless, harmful existence. I'd never wish for the torturous burden of existing where one is enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts rather I just want peace instead, eternal non-existence is all that's desirable to me personally and if I'm dead I cannot be harmed in any way and nothing can concern me. Existence itself will always be the ultimate problem for me no matter what, I see existence as nothing more than an unnecessary harm which is why it feels so cruel and horrible to me how there isn't the option for me to simply die in a painless way, I only hope for non-existence to bring me peace from this unnecessary harmful existence.

 

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Never wishing to suffer in this existence.
Personally I'd never wish to suffer in this existence, I'd never wish to be burdened with this cruel, torturous existence and I suffer so much from the fact that I am. Human existence just feels like a terrible, tragic mistake to me and I'm always so tired of all this pointless, unnecessary suffering, no matter what I'd prefer to cease existing, only ceasing to exist can bring me the peace I search for. I never should have existed, I never would have chosen to exist and never would do no matter what, I'd always prefer to cease existing as after all if I'm gone then I cannot suffer in any way and nothing can concern me and to be non-existent and unable to suffer at all is what I see as ideal.

I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence brings and in general I'd never see value to the futile burden of human existence rather it's something I only wish for permanent relief from, for me peace truly could only lie in death, I only hope to never suffer ever again, I just find existing to be completely undesirable in general and see it as just creating pain and problems there was never a need for. To me it's just pointless suffering all for the sake of it that can easily get way more unbearable and torturous, I've never wished for any of this and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace to finally escape from this existence I never would have chose, I'm just not meant for this existence of futile, pointless suffering, I'd never wish for something as dreadful and harmful as existence that to me has only caused endless amounts of suffering, permanently ceasing to exist truly is all that could bring me any relief.

 

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The cruelty of denying euthanasia.
I'll personally always see so much cruelty in how the option of euthanasia is denied for humans as no matter what I'd never wish to suffer in this terrible, torturous existence rather instead I just want non-existence where there is no more pain, no more suffering, existence will always feel like the most cruel mistake to me and it's something I only wish for true permanent peace from. I'd never wish for the burden of existence no matter what and I just see so much cruelty in how there's no acceptance towards wishing to not exist with options of painless, guaranteed ways to die so cruelly denied, I wish to just die in peace and never suffer ever again but of course that is not the reality as human existence for me is enslavement instead with suffering seen as to force and prolong regardless of the circumstances.

I'd never wish to prolong all this terrible, unnecessary suffering just to die in agony from old age but rather I just wish to painlessly cease existing and never suffer again instead, I wish for this existence to no longer be my problem, I wish I could choose when to cease existing to save myself from all future dreadful suffering and dread for what lies ahead truly is all I feel and always will do as long as I suffer in this existence and to me existence feels like nothing but suffering. There's so much cruelty and suffering in this terrible torturous existence, I see it as so horrific how painless death isn't accepted even know all this was forced in the first place, I'd never wish for the suffering of human existence no matter what and what is so terrible is how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can get and that is why I need the option to die painlessly I need for death to save me from this harmful, cruel existence.