fucking useless

[leeloosnow]

every single time there's a breath of hope that i'm able to alleviate the suffering of another, to soothe my own heart, i get bitch smacked and punished for it. sadly there is no hope, not for these wounded hearts that's shouldn't be treated that way, and not for me either. pretty sure i had a better chance than most of making the best outta bad situations, but i'm not willing to fuck ppl over that there's my flaw. well, obvs a lot of other ones too, but that one's a biggie. keep trying when i prolly should cut ties, charge less money when i should charge more, forgive when i shouldn't. it's a cycle of misery i'm fucking sick of. do people not know words anymore"? why do all of my efforts, conversations, ad cries result in blank faces, i'm actually really god at biting my tongue to a degree. just, fuck people, there's some good in most of us, but there's a lot of butt nuggets in there too, and ultimately humans suffer a miserable painful slow death. fuck that i'm taking my power back. (not tonight, but hopefully soon) i am like sisyphus, this is useless and painful. i love these people dearly, i'd do anything for them, the smiles and the light on their faces, gratitude for a good dinner- its fuckin fantastic! but can i balance everything, and fix every broken person i come across, or stop caring to do so? no, i can't. so, fuck this world. please don't have kids.

 

[jodes2]

You should worry about yourself more

 

[U. A.]

I received one of the greatest pieces of wisdom I have ever encountered from a man on the streets who was about my age, during a conversation while sharing some food I'd gotten for the both of us. After saying how he would be equally grateful to someone whether they gave him either one or one hundred dollars, he said (more or less; wish I could recall verbatim):

"Giving and receiving are like breathing in and out. You need to do both to live."​

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Blew my fucking mind. Continues to do so. Unfortunately, so many people don't seem to be equally skilled in each.

 

[Hystearical]

I received one of the greatest pieces of wisdom I have ever encountered from a man on the streets who was about my age, during a conversation while sharing some food I'd gotten for the both of us. After saying how he would be equally grateful to someone whether they gave him either one or one hundred dollars, he said (more or less; wish I could recall verbatim):

"Giving and receiving are like breathing in and out. You need to do both to live."​

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Blew my fucking mind. Continues to do so. Unfortunately, so many people don't seem to be equally skilled in each.

That is true. There is a time and place for both self-service and self-sacrifice. No good life could only consist of one or the other.

 

[leeloosnow]

I received one of the greatest pieces of wisdom I have ever encountered from a man on the streets who was about my age, during a conversation while sharing some food I'd gotten for the both of us. After saying how he would be equally grateful to someone whether they gave him either one or one hundred dollars, he said (more or less; wish I could recall verbatim):

"Giving and receiving are like breathing in and out. You need to do both to live."​

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Blew my fucking mind. Continues to do so. Unfortunately, so many people don't seem to be equally skilled in each.

Wouldn't disagree, just unfortunately not an option. I'll be a better statement blue.

 

[U. A.]

Wouldn't disagree, just unfortunately not an option. I'll be a better statement blue.

Shoot, I hope that didn't read as "you need to ignore other people and tend to yourself!" - I meant it more as in "I wish you had more people in your life who did for you what you seem so keen on doing for others". It can definitely take effort to hit the brakes and turn around. Having another hand on the wheel is a big help.