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[Thereisnothing]

Biggest fear ryt now at peace with it that's biggest fear being a veg and burden to family, if I was a wimp I'd be in loft now, have partial suspension set up now. No matter what or how want you all to have your peace, it's crazy a suicide forum and some of the most caring and understanding people iv know are here, you all deserve great lives, if you decide on ctb then you all deserve that beautiful peace perfect peace

Ah fuck I'm in total tears reading this some of you with all your own issues, still reaching others, unreal the health professionals could learn a thing or two instead of the crap they talk, I'm sorry if added to anyone's personal pain, I simply want a quick exit feel so tired upstairs :-( meds' are useless docs are same this way and knowing it's a door I'm able to open has been the one thing that's stopped the pain the reality that I can go on my terms, I wish I could thank or help you all

You are thanking and helping us, you are still here talking to us. Doctors and life can be a real let down, I know that from years of physical health which is almost unbearable to get through each day. Add mental anguish on top and geez you really have a cocktail going on. I am alone in this life now as lost both my parents who were only people who loved and cared about me, I dont wish to stay here, yet same time I dont wish to go...........silly maybe I either want one or the other, but no somehow I keep trying to find the next tiny glimmer of hope, however tiny or distant, its so hard to find. My beloved mother always said to me' where there is life there is hope, however small'...........its so hard to see, but i believe its true.
Had I ended my life by now, I'd not be able to be here to talk to you and for me, that is one big blessing to have kept going for.

 

[Watcher]

Goo

I was asked to post a goodbye to the group, when ready, I'm ready, life just became to cruel & repetition of the same pain, massive family losses in 3 years ptsd from i was 17 I could go on but basically it's just time to go, get peace, this sites been very helpful for a group of people in pain there are so many Angels on here, I hope I find my peace, wanted to honour a promise and say goodbye, I hope you all find your peace either in life or ctb. Listeng to my playlist for later tonight and although scared of fucking up im excited to end the pain...don't want to drone on...this is keeping a promise...Goodbye peace & wishes to you all beautiful people who deserve to be free from pain. Take care.

Good bye, wish u the best bro.

 

[Readytogo#Broken]

You are thanking and helping us, you are still here talking to us. Doctors and life can be a real let down, I know that from years of physical health which is almost unbearable to get through each day. Add mental anguish on top and geez you really have a cocktail going on. I am alone in this life now as lost both my parents who were only people who loved and cared about me, I dont wish to stay here, yet same time I dont wish to go...........silly maybe I either want one or the other, but no somehow I keep trying to find the next tiny glimmer of hope, however tiny or distant, its so hard to find. My beloved mother always said to me' where there is life there is hope, however small'...........its so hard to see, but i believe its true.
Had I ended my life by now, I'd not be able to be here to talk to you and for me, that is one big blessing to have kept going for.

My god I'm banging on about myself and you've been through all that too, everyone here battling are all warriors in their own ryt, I meant to write if "I wasn't such a wimp about the roof space loft" I'm at peace with going just terrified getting it wrong, the over the door partial suspension seems to be best option for me, I'm so so sorry if anyone's been stressed or iv added to anyone's problems I want to end this pain see no other way now, this is my choice and just scared getting it wrong, if reply's stop pls know each and everyone of you helped stop tears pity self doubt if I go through with it today, I felt a duty to reply to caring souls, I know prob thinking just do it, it's the si fear ect gets hard,but either way the day pans out know you've all been amazing souls with beautiful hearts. You all deserve the best & peace

 

[Verklempt]

i wish u the best. safe travels -hugs-

 

[Thereisnothing]

My god I'm banging on about myself and you've been through all that too, everyone here battling are all warriors in their own ryt, I meant to write if "I wasn't such a wimp about the roof space loft" I'm at peace with going just terrified getting it wrong, the over the door partial suspension seems to be best option for me, I'm so so sorry if anyone's been stressed or iv added to anyone's problems I want to end this pain see no other way now, this is my choice and just scared getting it wrong, if reply's stop pls know each and everyone of you helped stop tears pity self doubt if I go through with it today, I felt a duty to reply to caring souls, I know prob thinking just do it, it's the si fear ect gets hard,but either way the day pans out know you've all been amazing souls with beautiful hearts. You all deserve the best & peace

If you are scared of getting it wrong, then please, please try and take a step back and have a think about this. You see no other way now to end your pain, I know for sure how horrible that feels its relentless. I am still here as I am not confident enough in any method at the moment and would hate to be in an even worse situation than I am in at present. The fear of the unknown can be a worse fear indeed than that of our current fears.
I will be staying on here for you, as long as you need me . xx

 

[Readytogo#Broken]

If you are scared of getting it wrong, then please, please try and take a step back and have a think about this. You see no other way now to end your pain, I know for sure how horrible that feels its relentless. I am still here as I am not confident enough in any method at the moment and would hate to be in an even worse situation than I am in at present. The fear of the unknown can be a worse fear indeed than that of our current fears.
I will be staying on here for you, as long as you need me . xx

Please no one worry or stay on here because of me, the replying to people iv felt a duty I won't do anything untill I feel confident in my method over door suspension isn't making me feel confident in success, I don't want anyone worrying or on here because of me, I want my exit to be as planned quick peaceful and with no thoughts of it going wrong, no one should spend their final moments like that

 

[Thereisnothing]

Please no one worry or stay on here because of me, the replying to people iv felt a duty I won't do anything untill I feel confident in my method over door suspension isn't making me feel confident in success, I don't want anyone worrying or on here because of me, I want my exit to be as planned quick peaceful and with no thoughts of it going wrong, no one should spend their final moments like that

It is my choice to stay here for you, as it is your choice to make your own decision. Of course you wish it to be quick and peaceful that is understood. Sweetheart know you are cared about, but dont feel any pressure to reply to anything, you have alot going on right now, that is priority to work out what is best for you.

 

[MsMaudlin]

We are here for you, whichever path you decide to ultimately take <3
I'm in Staffordshire, people say we sound like scousers <3
My inbox is always open xxx

 

[EmptyArms]

Yorkshire lass here, so it's all funny accents this morning. The great thing about this place is how people close round with genuine care and support when it's most needed. It really does restore your faith in mankind. There is good in the world. We are here for you.

 

[MsMaudlin]

Yorkshire lass here, so it's all funny accents this morning. The great thing about this place is how people close round with genuine care and support when it's most needed. It really does restore your faith in mankind. There is good in the world. We are here for you.

I'm half Yorkshire! Accents are funny things x I hope your day goes well xx

 

[Soul]

@Readytogo#Broken, I wish you peace and light. Journey well

 

[passenger27]

Good luck in whatever direction you decide to go. We all feel your pain in some way or the other, your not alone.

 

[jgm63]

Wishing you a safe onward journey

 

[Supersadmommy90]

Like another member said, we're still here for you 100% if for whatever reason it doesn't/didn't work out or you've changed your mind.

 

[Moonicide]

Hey, love. That's really sweet of you to say about our community. I hope we were able to provide you with warmth and comfort until the very end. We will be here during your final days, it's okay if you're not ready right now. Just know you can talk to us about whatever and we'll be here to listen... When your time finally comes, may you find the peace you seek.

 

[mediocre]

sad to see you go so quickly after joining but I hope you find peace

 

[Readytogo#Broken]

Won't be doing anything untill confi

sad to see you go so quickly after joining but I hope you find peace

its all good, came here not s.media for that reason, I'm at peace with going just clearly not strong enough to overcome si with hanging brain jst let me dwn, it's perfect & quick for others, I'm in process of acquiring SN so can be peaceful as poss, not pressuring myself anymore, fuck that, enough going on in head, this option will be perfect for my situation....hope you also find peace hopefully in life, the empathy here is unreal, so many caring souls..have a lovely day

Good luck in whatever direction you decide to go. We all feel your pain in some way or the other, your not alone.

I know m8 everyone pretty much in same boat, it's good to have this site, wish everyone peace however achieved

Like another member said, we're still here for you 100% if for whatever reason it doesn't/didn't work out or you've changed your mind.

Thank you means a lot truely, shit few nights, but waiting for sn excited tbh, but thank you

Yorkshire lass here, so it's all funny accents this morning. The great thing about this place is how people close round with genuine care and support when it's most needed. It really does restore your faith in mankind. There is good in the world. We are here for you.

Thank you