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WornOutLife
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- Mar 22, 2020
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These 4 months have been kinda hell for me because I used to live alone in my own apartment until I tried to CTB (obviously failed) and I was forced to move with my parents in order to be monitored 24/7. (the other option was worse, a psych ward so, NO, THANKS.)
The thing is, I can't drink alcohol, meet girls, smoke weed and so on anymore, I mean, I love being a lonely person and I really need to be alone, and not being able to do that, makes me even more depressed everyday but today...
TODAY...FINALLY...
MY PARENTS LEFT ME ALONE AT HOME UNTIL TOMORROW!
So, my plan is to get drunk AF and then I'd love to CTB but I'm too lazy to do it and the only option around seems to be partial hanging or something gore and truth be told, I don't feel like doing so.
I know, I kinda suck because I've gained my parents' trust after so long and now I'm gonna get a bit out of control but what the hell? I need some "happiness" once and for all. (yes, just some alcohol, loud music and cigarretes are more than enough now.)
Is anybody out there also suicidal but lazy to do so? I mean, I managed to at least try it some time ago but now it's just mentally exhausting to think about it.
Note: This is not a goodbye thread. I won't CTB even though I'm really thinking about it so you'll see me around as usual.
Hugs to you all,
Matt
The thing is, I can't drink alcohol, meet girls, smoke weed and so on anymore, I mean, I love being a lonely person and I really need to be alone, and not being able to do that, makes me even more depressed everyday but today...
TODAY...FINALLY...
MY PARENTS LEFT ME ALONE AT HOME UNTIL TOMORROW!
So, my plan is to get drunk AF and then I'd love to CTB but I'm too lazy to do it and the only option around seems to be partial hanging or something gore and truth be told, I don't feel like doing so.
I know, I kinda suck because I've gained my parents' trust after so long and now I'm gonna get a bit out of control but what the hell? I need some "happiness" once and for all. (yes, just some alcohol, loud music and cigarretes are more than enough now.)
Is anybody out there also suicidal but lazy to do so? I mean, I managed to at least try it some time ago but now it's just mentally exhausting to think about it.
Note: This is not a goodbye thread. I won't CTB even though I'm really thinking about it so you'll see me around as usual.
Hugs to you all,
Matt
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