pochii
Member
- May 27, 2023
- 39
I feel like i am no good at anything, i try to be the best i can at things but i just seem to suck at everything i do and i see everyone around me doing do much better. Weather it be a in a game or a real life skill. I just wish i was good at something.
I wanna end things after christmas cause i like chirstmas and wanna stay around but part of me thinks about packing up and just running away. I am 19 so I wouldnt really be running away. I just know that would hurt my mom so much but at least she would know im alive and if i decide to kill myself then she wouldnt know. I just worry about shortening her life with stress. I dont wanna do that to her. I wish suicide was an option people were okay with but ik thats hard to ask of. I just wanna dissapear, i wish i could live in a fantasy world.
I wanna end things after christmas cause i like chirstmas and wanna stay around but part of me thinks about packing up and just running away. I am 19 so I wouldnt really be running away. I just know that would hurt my mom so much but at least she would know im alive and if i decide to kill myself then she wouldnt know. I just worry about shortening her life with stress. I dont wanna do that to her. I wish suicide was an option people were okay with but ik thats hard to ask of. I just wanna dissapear, i wish i could live in a fantasy world.
