Feeling like crap

[LadyAlastor]

Feeling like crap because of my suvivors Instinct,I've seen so many names crossed of people I cared about on here, yeah I've got the love of my life back plus a bf, but for some reason the void continues to come back pushing me to end all of it.

Even though my partners have promised a suicide pact 8 years from now, still I want to end myself and now bf alone has been just...well he's been doing his best to keep me going, they both make me happy so I know it's not them.

I do know and understand I've had this constant want to end my self since i was a teenager and it never stopped.

Any advice?
Because I know its gonna end 8 years from now so I don't understand why it's still affecting me like this. 3 years ago was the closest I got, regret it failing.

 

[FuneralCry]

After all, only you know when it's the right time to leave this world, it's completely a personal decision. But I do understand that it really can be so tiring having to endure this existence when you wish to be gone.

 

[jodes2]

Have you tried medication? It could really help

 

[LadyAlastor]

Have you tried medication? It could really help

I have abd therapy

After all, only you know when it's the right time to leave this world, it's completely a personal decision. But I do understand that it really can be so tiring having to endure this existence when you wish to be gone.

I agree with all of this. Thanks for keeping an eye out, it's been a while since we have talked, it terrible to be honest I saw my only brony pals name crossed out here and I kinda lost it a bit, it's funny how we want our friends to live but we want to fade from existence.