Feeling a tad euphoric since I know I’m close to the end, still very scared though

[Siamese Believe]

I know I'm not gonna survive my chosen method, it's mathematically impossible. I'm gonna shave, cut my nails, and just try to enjoy my last days, enjoy some new content that's coming out soon. I'm ugly but I don't mind going out in style. I know it's gonna hurt but this will be a guaranteed death. I don't have a planned date, that would only add unnecessary stress. And you always have to leave room for if you back out. It's gonna be more so when the time is right. I've purposefully been stalling because there's still some more content that's been coming out that I wanted to enjoy. But the end is coming.

 

[INYGTRMTFMO]

I know I'm not gonna survive my chosen method, it's mathematically impossible. I'm gonna shave, cut my nails, and just try to enjoy my last days, enjoy some new content that's coming out soon. I'm ugly but I don't mind going out in style. I know it's gonna hurt but this will be a guaranteed death. I don't have a planned date, that would only add unnecessary stress. And you always have to leave room for if you back out. It's gonna be more so when the time is right. I've purposefully been stalling because there's still some more content that's been coming out that I wanted to enjoy. But the end is coming.

Both relief and fear are valid in this situation.

I hope the coming days and anticipated content are amazing and you have a blast!

 

[fadedghost]

I know I'm not gonna survive my chosen method, it's mathematically impossible. I'm gonna shave, cut my nails, and just try to enjoy my last days, enjoy some new content that's coming out soon. I'm ugly but I don't mind going out in style. I know it's gonna hurt but this will be a guaranteed death. I don't have a planned date, that would only add unnecessary stress. And you always have to leave room for if you back out. It's gonna be more so when the time is right. I've purposefully been stalling because there's still some more content that's been coming out that I wanted to enjoy. But the end is coming.

you're avatar is so adorable and cute that i hope you end up not doing it and some adorable ending that doesn't end in death happens. i mean that sincerely, i hope somehow there's something better or happy that happens and sorry you have been through so much pain as to be here

 

[Sr Red]

Which method have you chosen?

 

[Jello Biafra]

I know I'm not gonna survive my chosen method, it's mathematically impossible. I'm gonna shave, cut my nails, and just try to enjoy my last days, enjoy some new content that's coming out soon. I'm ugly but I don't mind going out in style. I know it's gonna hurt but this will be a guaranteed death. I don't have a planned date, that would only add unnecessary stress. And you always have to leave room for if you back out. It's gonna be more so when the time is right. I've purposefully been stalling because there's still some more content that's been coming out that I wanted to enjoy. But the end is coming.

I'm kind of in the same boat.

It's this weird juxtaposition where I'm elated, almost euphoric that I will be leaving soon, and as you mentioned, I've made certain that there is no possibility for failure. This is a one and done for me (never attempted before), as survival is not an option so I have insurance plans on top of insurance plans that my bus ride is a one way ticket.

I'm not afraid to die, per se, as I don't believe death is the end, however I do have periodic moments where I'm still a little anxious about the unknown. Because I am an overthinker, my mind often wanders to things like "one second I will be alive and here, and then what next? What will it feel like to be in this new environment?".

Just my belief, but I do think we've died many, many times before. I also believe that birth is much more of a traumatic experience than death and I know there is nothing to be scared of, but alas, I am anxious when I get to thinking about the actual act of dying.

 

[Morris1211]

I know I'm not gonna survive my chosen method, it's mathematically impossible. I'm gonna shave, cut my nails, and just try to enjoy my last days, enjoy some new content that's coming out soon. I'm ugly but I don't mind going out in style. I know it's gonna hurt but this will be a guaranteed death. I don't have a planned date, that would only add unnecessary stress. And you always have to leave room for if you back out. It's gonna be more so when the time is right. I've purposefully been stalling because there's still some more content that's been coming out that I wanted to enjoy. But the end is coming.

What method have you chosen?