tvoisluga
trapped in a body
- Dec 22, 2023
- 96
I dont wanna spam so im sorry if its not good to double post in 24 h.
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Today my narcissistic father once again tried to sweep everything under the rug. I feel icky and disgusting. I wanna die because he reminded me that the dad i needed, i never had. In our country we celebrate most christmas traditions on 24th and it wasnt completely horrible, because we opted put of meeting the extended family which are beyond fucked up. Still was shitty but had its good moments(mom's gingerbread cookies are killer). But i remembered im ctb in august and as inadequate as these people are at being parents i sorta feel bad for what im about to do. Like id feel bad for John Doe. Finding a corpse isn't cool. But fuck, this man makes me feel so insignificant. Today with the whole "yall dont respect me". Yes if allowing myself to be controlled and used as a doormat i really dont respect you. Just a clueless(?) man hurting his family with his very existence.
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Today my narcissistic father once again tried to sweep everything under the rug. I feel icky and disgusting. I wanna die because he reminded me that the dad i needed, i never had. In our country we celebrate most christmas traditions on 24th and it wasnt completely horrible, because we opted put of meeting the extended family which are beyond fucked up. Still was shitty but had its good moments(mom's gingerbread cookies are killer). But i remembered im ctb in august and as inadequate as these people are at being parents i sorta feel bad for what im about to do. Like id feel bad for John Doe. Finding a corpse isn't cool. But fuck, this man makes me feel so insignificant. Today with the whole "yall dont respect me". Yes if allowing myself to be controlled and used as a doormat i really dont respect you. Just a clueless(?) man hurting his family with his very existence.
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