Experiment worked, almost died.

[Mistress Death]

Happiness is a temporary feeling. Recovery is no longer possible. My wife is going to divorce me and I'll exit tonight so we don't have to go through a lengthy court hearing. It's for the best. I don't know why I had high expectations of recovering or had ideas to make things better, just so silly of me to do so. No one would take me seriously, definitely not my wife. I still love her, very much. I wish her the best and hope she finds a better man than I was.

To my wife, I loved you so much even though you thought I didn't love you because I lied about playing video games. I still loved you even through our arguments when you told me I was worthless. I still loved you when you called me a cheater when I never cheated in my life. I still loved you always through every criticism you had of me. And I always love you till my death. You are free now and now you can forget me now.

To my short-lived friends on here, thanks for taking the time to converse with me. I hope your methods succeed well and you no longer feel pain. You are my 'friends' even though we don't know each other.

Sincerely,
Lee

I'm sorry to hear about that, truly. I hope you find peace. Before you go, could you help the rest of us with our specific concerns about the sn not dissolving and the possibility of using an enema? Again, I am sorry. I hope you can find it in your heart to help us as well. Thank you for all you have provided thus far. You too are my friend, meeting each other is not necessary for friendship. I wish you the best.

 

[Xerxes]

It helps to dissolve SN and DMSO in a warm environment. If it's cold where you're at, turn the heater up. 78 degrees or higher. You can also try a heated glass cup.

 

[bigj75]

Thanks for all the information you provided Xerxes. I'm very sad to hear about your situation. If you feel like you want to ctb tonight then that's fine but i wish you could stay longer.

 

[Mistress Death]

It helps to dissolve SN and DMSO in a warm environment. If it's cold where you're at, turn the heater up. 78 degrees or higher. You can also try a heated glass cup.

Would an enema work or would it be less effective because that area is less centralized than the stomach?

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

Thank you for this information. I have a little portable heater.

Sorry to hear about what's happening actually in your life. I hope you'll find the peace you wish on the other side.

 

[Made4TV]

Xerxes, I'm so sorry to read this. If you change your mind, we're here. Hugs.

 

[VoloFataliDoce]

Happiness is a temporary feeling. Recovery is no longer possible. My wife is going to divorce me and I'll exit tonight so we don't have to go through a lengthy court hearing. It's for the best. I don't know why I had high expectations of recovering or had ideas to make things better, just so silly of me to do so. No one would take me seriously, definitely not my wife. I still love her, very much. I wish her the best and hope she finds a better man than I was.

To my wife, I loved you so much even though you thought I didn't love you because I lied about playing video games. I still loved you even through our arguments when you told me I was worthless. I still loved you when you called me a cheater when I never cheated in my life. I still loved you always through every criticism you had of me. And I always love you till my death. You are free now and now you can forget me now.

To my short-lived friends on here, thanks for taking the time to converse with me. I hope your methods succeed well and you no longer feel pain. You are my 'friends' even though we don't know each other.

Sincerely,
Lee

I am so sorry you're going through this. I can feel the pain just by reading your post. Best wishes in whatever you choose to do. May you find peace one way or another.

 

[bigj75]

Hopefully Xerxes still recovers but if not i wish him peace.

 

[Latergator]

I'm so sorry to hear that the happiness was short lived xerxes. you've helped many on this site with your research and you'll be in my thoughts until i too ctb.

When do you plan on ctb'ing?

My dmso from amazon says it will arrive on feb 20. I want to ctb before my 29th bday which is in early march.

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

Mine is early April. I wanted to do it on my birthday day..but that's kind of stupid and I'll be found for sure. I might have few days alone before that.

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

@Mistress Death so, from what you tested, do you believe that could be a reliable method? How did it feels like?

 

[bigj75]

I gotta try this.

 

[Mistress Death]

@Mistress Death so, from what you tested, do you believe that could be a reliable method? How did it feels like?

@Xerxes He's the real expert because he's tried it. I've only applied it to my skin, but didn't feel much. He has told his experience in this thread. From his research and experience, he thinks it's a reliable method and I agree.

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

@Xerxes He's the real expert because he's tried it. I've only applied it to my skin, but didn't feel much. He has told his experience in this thread. From his research and experience, he thinks it's a reliable method and I agree.

Yes I agree as well that it's reliable. I was just curious about your experience as well.

 

[Mistress Death]

Yes I agree as well that it's reliable. I was just curious about your experience as well.

I've only done skin applications. I'll be trying either ingestion and/or enema in the next day or so. Possibly tonight.

 

[bigj75]

I've only done skin applications. I'll be trying either ingestion and/or enema in the next day or so. Possibly tonight.

When you use enema what is that?

 

[Mistress Death]

When you use enema what is that?

Google it. It seems easy to use. You can also use similar devices that will do the same thing.

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

When you use enema what is that?

It's up the butt. Usually drugs taken up there has more effects on body and is stronger. I'm pretty sure it's reliable. I would insert it with a syringe without needle. The kind of syringe they use to give syrup to a dog, or kids at clinics.

 

[NorthAmericanQc]

I've only done skin applications. I'll be trying either ingestion and/or enema in the next day or so. Possibly tonight.

Good luck, hopefully it works for you. If you do tonight, I wish you peace.

 

[bigj75]

It's up the butt. Usually drugs taken up there has more effects on body and is stronger. I'm pretty sure it's reliable. I would insert it with a syringe without needle. The kind of syringe they use to give syrup to a dog, or kids at clinics.

 

[Mistress Death]

hahaha. If you use a syringe without the needle, or a plastic one it shouldn't be that bad. Also, lube is a thing. Its better than nausea/vomiting in my opinion. Maybe a little discomfort, but nothing terrible I'm hoping.

 

[bigj75]

hahaha. If you use a syringe without the needle, or a plastic one it shouldn't be that bad. Also, lube is a thing. Its better than nausea/vomiting in my opinion. Maybe a little discomfort, but nothing terrible I'm hoping.

If you go through with it i hope it works. I might consider doing it that way if it helps

 

[AhG]

Happiness is a temporary feeling. Recovery is no longer possible. My wife is going to divorce me and I'll exit tonight so we don't have to go through a lengthy court hearing. It's for the best. I don't know why I had high expectations of recovering or had ideas to make things better, just so silly of me to do so. No one would take me seriously, definitely not my wife. I still love her, very much. I wish her the best and hope she finds a better man than I was.

To my wife, I loved you so much even though you thought I didn't love you because I lied about playing video games. I still loved you even through our arguments when you told me I was worthless. I still loved you when you called me a cheater when I never cheated in my life. I still loved you always through every criticism you had of me. And I always love you till my death. You are free now and now you can forget me now.

To my short-lived friends on here, thanks for taking the time to converse with me. I hope your methods succeed well and you no longer feel pain. You are my 'friends' even though we don't know each other.

Sincerely,
Lee

I'm sorry about that mate. I know the feeling, and I don't want be a simple person, but maybe it'll be better. I'm not sure, but I wish the best for you.

 

[Scottishchef]

Sorry to hear whats happening @Xerxes hope u have happy travels

 

[VoloFataliDoce]

I used 20g of sn with 100ml of dmso. I shook the bottle a few times and waited 5-ish minutes. I tasted a little garlic, but maybe that was just from what I was smelling or both. Other than that, nothing. I don't know why it didn't dissolve. What I'm going to try next is using 10g of sn with 100ml (or 75ml) of dmso and make 2 batches. If that doesn't work, I'll lesson the amount of sn, but keep the amount of dmso the same. I applied to various areas on my body and the back of my knees felt like pin pricks, slightly painful. I would say moderate pain, it wasn't unbearable. But that was it. I may have not had it on my body for enough time. I'm going to ingest it or use an enema (still waiting on if Xerxes will think that will work)

I remember reading that 70%-90% DSMO works better for topical applications than anything stronger, so check your bottle. It if is 99% strength maybe the reason it didn't work that well is because it was too strong. It's worth a try for anyone thinking about this method.

 

[DoneBlonde]

Lights out total darkness no NDE you say?

I had the same thing when I went into respiratory depression. I felt warmth and there was complete darkness , I can't explain the darkness it's nothing I have either felt or seen before or since. I was at peace.

 

[Mistress Death]

I had the same thing when I went into respiratory depression. I felt warmth and there was complete darkness , I can't explain the darkness it's nothing I have either felt or seen before or since. I was at peace.

What was your method in specifics?

 

[DoneBlonde]

That time wasn't a chemical method well I guess it was , I jumped off a motorway. But what caused the respiratory depression was an OD of opiates when I was in hospital administered by drs in hospital, it was a mistake on their part. If I remember correctly I was given dihydrocodeine, oral morphine , tramadol .

 

[DoneBlonde]

What was your method in specifics?

Sorry I wish I had specifics but I don't on that.

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

Ladies and gentlemen, we are in the presence of a GODDAMN SCIENTIST!
Tried to prove his hypothesis ON HIMSELF!
I want to share a manly handshake and invite you for a few drinks.