Venting everything is going wrong

[nails]

all my efforts towards getting better go to shit, and now my efforts towards ending my life are going to shit.
i was supposed to have a job by now. everyone made it seem like i would certainly—and quickly—get this job. even my brother is surprised that no one has reached out to me yet. there are a lot of things that i still need to purchase to ctb, and some other things that need to be paid for.

i know this is just a setback, but i'm still pissed. i really need to go, i'm so tired of waiting.

 

[roommate]

Sometimes the things are out of your control.
Hopefully you get a bit more grip in your life soon and find some peace