Entry #4

[restingplace]

This week has been better. I saw my girlfriend again and we had a nice time together, seeing her worried me though because what I'm I going to do. I can't just leave her, she doesn't have anyone at the moment and If I ctb she would never forgive herself.

Im going to Cambridge today. I'm quite excited since I can go see if there's any good secluded areas etc for partial suspension, it would also be good for me to just get familiar with the train ride there.

That's all I have to say, this week has been more tolerable, probably because i got to drink.

 

[Dingusguy]

It's hard to leave when there is someone you care about you leave behind or potentially hurt with your passing, I feel for you and hope you the best. For both of you.

 

[restingplace]

Entry #5


Another Friday, this week has again been worse. I saw my therapist yesterday and seeing him just feels pointless, I've been going to him for the past 4 or 5 years now, not much has really changed.

Things are complicated at the moment. To be honest when are they ever not complicated. I'm not excited for next month, or any of next year, I'm just waiting for it to be over.


One good thing though, I'm losing weight which is great, I can't bare the thought of being fat but I'm back down to 42kgs which I guess is one reason to keep going

 

[restingplace]

Entry #6

Another awful week, had one of the worst therapy sessions ever and I'm just done with everything. There's nothing really to be excited about. I'm meant to be seeing palaye royale and slipknot later this year but I genuinely feel like it just won't be worth it. Its just another thing I have to do.