Ending my life

[Planterraria]

I wonder if using a sharp object to end it all would be worth it, I have nothing and no one to live for, I do currently have a really stressful job which doesn't let me express my freedom I can't go home because my place doesn't have a lot of good jobs i don't earn enough to get a decent rent.
My love life is stupid, never ever did i ever have a good relationship.
The girls I like don't like me back because I am just not attractive enough or I am too different for them and those who DO like me are either too young or too different and we can't match.
I feel hopeless the void is eating me from inside I don't know what to do.
My life is certainly better from what it was in highschool(few years ago) but it's still not pleasing me.
Everywhere I see are bad relationships stupid people or just things which make me depressed.
Maybe I'm overthinking but I am a sensitive person which is highly influenced by feelings.
I have to mention that I am a Male with Autism.
Why being different means you have to get bullied?
Why am I scared to die if I don't like living?
I like to see the better side of things usually but it so happens that I have bad moods..
Maybe I need professional help maybe I need to die I dont know anymore..

 

[Fwompje]

If you can get access to help it's definitely worth a shot.

Being bullied also really did me in. It's so unfair that people can change you so much.

 

[Planterraria]

If you can get access to help it's definitely worth a shot.

Being bullied also really did me in. It's so unfair that people can change you so much.

I'm sorry to hear that.. Are you feeling any better now? hope it doesnt make you feel bad, people who bully others are the worst!!

 

[Fwompje]

I'm sorry to hear that.. Are you feeling any better now? hope it doesnt make you feel bad, people who bully others are the worst!!

It ruined my life, was a factor for many issues I have and to some extent maybe trauma. I hate the world because of how I grew up. People are hell.

I sincerely hope it didn't affect you as much.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that if someone tries to use some kind of sharp object to end their existence, it will very likely just fail and lead to more suffering. But anyway, the reality is that this world is such an undeniably cruel place and there could never be anything fair about existing here. It's awful how other people just create more torment and treat people so badly.