Mx_Pathetic

Mx_Pathetic

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I have quite a few mental illnesses such as CPSTD, depression, anxiety, OCD, borderline personality disorder and bipolar. (Last two I'm still getting diagnosed with per-say) I'm only 21 so I don't think EAS/MAID would be available for me however 21 years is enough for me. I've been struggling ever since I was 8/9. From what I've read EAS/MAID isn't even official in Australia or it is, but it's still being debated? I really wish it was an option for me,but I don't think it will. I've tried a few suicidal attempts and I've been looking at hanging as an option. The only issue is I have nowhere that's stable enough to hold me or the materials I guess, but that's not an issue, I can always get them. I wouldn't say I'm scared of ending my own life I'm more scared of how it'll affect the people I love. I don't think I'll ever live a normal life. I don't think I'll ever be able to be happy. Life is awful and I think it's okay that I don't wanna live it. If only that was okay to society…
 
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I also just wish for the option to painlessly die, it's all that would bring me peace, I'd personally prefer to not exist than suffer in this futile, torturous existence, I only hope to never exist again. It'll always feel so cruel to me how painless, guaranteed death is denied and instead suffering is seen as something that must be prolonged in instead but anyway I wish you the best, I also feel like I've suffered for a long time in this existence.
 
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I also just wish for the option to painlessly die, it's all that would bring me peace, I'd personally prefer to not exist than suffer in this futile, torturous existence, I only hope to never exist again. It'll always feel so cruel to me how painless, guaranteed death is denied and instead suffering is seen as something that must be prolonged in instead but anyway I wish you the best, I also feel like I've suffered for a long time in this existence.
Couldn't agree more. I turn 22 in April next year and all I can think is nothing for me has changed since I was 18…
 
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I have quite a few mental illnesses such as CPSTD, depression, anxiety, OCD, borderline personality disorder and bipolar. (Last two I'm still getting diagnosed with per-say) I'm only 21 so I don't think EAS/MAID would be available for me however 21 years is enough for me. I've been struggling ever since I was 8/9. From what I've read EAS/MAID isn't even official in Australia or it is, but it's still being debated? I really wish it was an option for me,but I don't think it will. I've tried a few suicidal attempts and I've been looking at hanging as an option. The only issue is I have nowhere that's stable enough to hold me or the materials I guess, but that's not an issue, I can always get them. I wouldn't say I'm scared of ending my own life I'm more scared of how it'll affect the people I love. I don't think I'll ever live a normal life. I don't think I'll ever be able to be happy. Life is awful and I think it's okay that I don't wanna live it. If only that was okay to society…
Hi I'm in Australia too, excuse my ignorance but what does EAS/MAID mean?
 
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areyousafe??

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Hi, I'm from Australia as well. I thought this website was banned, how did you manage to join?
 
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Hi, I'm from Australia as well. I thought this website was banned, how did you manage to join?
I haven't had any problem with using this website. However on my old phone I could download the app where with my new phone I can only be on here if I'm on google.
Hi I'm in Australia too, excuse my ignorance but what does EAS/MAID mean?
Euthanasia and Assisted Suicide- EAS
Medical Assistant In Dying- MAID
I'm not to sure what the difference really is between the two hence why I said both. Pretty much allowing you to take your life peacefully and painlessly, but from my knowledge it can take years to accept and totally depends on the mental illness.
 
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areyousafe??

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I haven't had any problem with using this website. However on my old phone I could download the app where with my new phone I can only be on here if I'm on google.

Is there an app? I followed a link via Google, now I just type the link directly into my browser. I hope no one bans or blocks this website.
 
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areyousafe??

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Use duckduckgo or tor. Plus a good vpn
I don't even have a VPN, so I'm not sure how I can access this forum when it's supposed to be banned to Aussies? Good idea, I'm going to download duckduckgo. Do I still need a VPN?
 
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I don't even have a VPN, so I'm not sure how I can access this forum when it's supposed to be banned to Aussies? Good idea, I'm going to download duckduckgo. Do I still need a VPN?
Well it's supposed to to be banned - not by Australia I think because surfing SaSu is considered free speech and i believe they have no jurisdiction to close SaSu because they're keeping the site running from a country which doesn't prohibit the site. (Idk I might be very very wrong).

Also, I've seen people from Australia only use duckduckgo or tor (even incognito on firefox, Chrome etc). I believe that SaSu said "F you" for trying to restrict a forum where suicidal people can talk without being judged. Additionally, Australia is very anti-suivide (regardless how much R U OK days or program that they have, they don't actually care). They don't care about you surfing SaSu, but as soon as someone commits suicide and infomation says they frequent SaSu, that's when ita a tragedy and everyone here is an "incel, murderer, horrible human being, getting off to the fact that people commit suicide, or we are actively encouraging sucide).

I would still recommend a VPN for general privacy.
 
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areyousafe??

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I tried accessing this website about a year or so ago but wasn't able to get in. Also came across this article:


I'm currently using Internet Explorer but plan to download the duckduckgo app. I find R U OK day quite superficial. My workplace supported this but I got fired soon after that day, which impacted me deeply and no one seemed to care once you are no longer an employee.
 
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I tried accessing this website about a year or so ago but wasn't able to get in. Also came across this article:


I'm currently using Internet Explorer but plan to download the duckduckgo app. I find R U OK day quite superficial. My workplace supported this but I got fired soon after that day, which impacted me deeply and no one seemed to care once you are no longer an employee.
That's Australia for you. Like I agree that some resources are helpful, but really ita only superficial. Like suicide it's only talked as a bad thing and it's unnatural (which to a degree I agree with, like in a perfect world it shouldn't exist) but in this world it does, and saying that your suicidal and wanting to end your life is considered deranged. Talking about how depression and suicidal thoughts it making you want to kill yourself is wrong and not normal.

Sorry about your work firing you also it's sad to see companies preach something but dosent actively do anything about it if it's not at the front of a camera
 
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areyousafe??

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That's Australia for you. Like I agree that some resources are helpful, but really ita only superficial. Like suicide it's only talked as a bad thing and it's unnatural (which to a degree I agree with, like in a perfect world it shouldn't exist) but in this world it does, and saying that your suicidal and wanting to end your life is considered deranged. Talking about how depression and suicidal thoughts it making you want to kill yourself is wrong and not normal.
It's not something I talk about with anyone in real life. Once you disclose anything, there is a risk you are heading to the hospital. I can't even discuss it in detail with my psychologist because she will report me. And obviously it's not something I bring up with friends or family.
 
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It's not something I talk about with anyone in real life. Once you disclose anything, there is a risk you are heading to the hospital. I can't even discuss it in detail with my psychologist because she will report me. And obviously it's not something I bring up with friends or family.
I've friended you, you can talk to me about anything and I won't judge. There's other friendly Aussies in chat so you can talk there too.
 

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