Drowning in my fears

[Ashe]

I drown in my own fears
Suffocating till I want to let go...
But I won't say a single thing
My life just a big let down
I feel so burned out
Why do I bother trying
Life goes by so fast
But I'm stuck going so slow
I could run away
No one would miss me
In the long run
I'm the one to blame
So why don't I let go
I only drag others down
The words get stuck till I suffocate
Pushed away
Shut myself in
Drowning in these thoughts
I want to let go
I was the one to blame anyways
My time is just about done
Let the nothing consume
My sickness gone
My sadness washed away
My heart doesn't have to cry
Standing on this rooftop
I can only scream my heart out
Vulnerable to all that can see
The tears streaming down my face
I wish I could be gone
No one would miss me anyways

 

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I drown in my own fears
Suffocating till I want to let go...
But I won't say a single thing
My life just a big let down
I feel so burned out
Why do I bother trying
Life goes by so fast
But I'm stuck going so slow
I could run away
No one would miss me
In the long run
I'm the one to blame
So why don't I let go
I only drag others down
The words get stuck till I suffocate
Pushed away
Shut myself in
Drowning in these thoughts
I want to let go
I was the one to blame anyways
My time is just about done
Let the nothing consume
My sickness gone
My sadness washed away
My heart doesn't have to cry
Standing on this rooftop
I can only scream my heart out
Vulnerable to all that can see
The tears streaming down my face
I wish I could be gone
No one would miss me anyways

you don't love yourself enough. How can you expect anybody to miss or want having a suicidal person around ?

 

[stillmirenai]

you don't love yourself enough. How can you expect anybody to miss or want having a suicidal person around ?

And can you blame them? When you're drowned in these awful thoughts, it's very hard to love yourself. However, it's also really odd, because people tend to insist it's easy to love yourself... and they also insist you'd be missed if you were to kill yourself... humans can be such hypocrites, sometimes.