Late yesterday I was leaving a store looking at the receipt as I walked out. A man was passing me going inside and said " you better turn that frown upside down! Life's too short to be unhappy!" At first I didn't realize he was talking to me as I was literally just walking to my car looking at the receipt as I said. Evidently I looked as unhappy just walking around in life as I am on the inside and he noticed. I thought about what he said on my drive home and though I know he was trying to be kid/helpful or whatever unsolicited adivce like his or the "don't worry, be happy" mantra or "just think positive" does.not.help. All it does, for me anyway, is highlight the failure in my life of not being happy, positive or being able to just "look on the bright side" no matter what. Counting your blessings is great - but its not a cure all or even close for many of us. Do people who are happy, positive, etc not realize that 99% of us who aren't WOULD chose happiness IF it were possible? Yes, I get mind over matter, etc but I also know there are biological and genetic components at play and for some of us those are much stronger than our ability to think away the blues or negative thoughts.
I'm starting yet another job this morning. I DREAD it. I do.not. want to go. The interaction w/the man yesterday only made me feel worse though I truly don't think that was his intent at all. But I am late on my morgage but 2 months and have $75 in my bank. I can't even afford to ctb now..so it's off to work I go. Miserable and trapped. Another day in Hell.
I'm starting yet another job this morning. I DREAD it. I do.not. want to go. The interaction w/the man yesterday only made me feel worse though I truly don't think that was his intent at all. But I am late on my morgage but 2 months and have $75 in my bank. I can't even afford to ctb now..so it's off to work I go. Miserable and trapped. Another day in Hell.
