Discussion Does the idea of dying make you happy?

[Dr Iron Arc]

Yes, very. The idea of me dying should be making everyone else happy as well if they don't support evil.

 

[forgotten15]

Yes, because it assures me this pain won't last forever. Death will set me free.

 

[Ta555]

No, I don't want to die, I just want to rest.
Even though I have the set up for one of the most peaceful methods, exit bag, it doesn't bring me that much comfort because I still worry about things going wrong. At least my family knows my strong aversion to being kept alive if brain damaged so I'm fairly certain even if I fail I won't be kept alive the whole thing does not comfort me. I also doubt the set up, the 15lpm thing, the ability to pass out... I don't think even having N from D would comfort me because there are still to many questions and unknowns like is it really N and not some random paint stripper? What if N hurts and burns your stomach? What if it takes too long to lose consciousness or what if it gives you horrible hallucinations or nightmares as you're falling into unconsciousness?

 

[downndone2]

No, I just dont want to suffer anymore

 

[Nolan96]

I often have mixed feelings when it comes to thinking about death, since, depending on the context, this idea gives me some peace, and even a feeling of indescribable joy, I suppose that very few people feel happy with death. idea of non-existence, the normies prefer to deny death at all costs.

I guess this means I'm making good strides towards making my peace with death, so I'm a bit happy that I'll soon have my method in my hands, but I won't rush either, I'll go easy.

Who else feels like me?

I always think about the people who'd be happy that I'm dead, or a sense of loss over other ways life could have gone differently.

But then I think about how it would give me peace from things just getting even worse.

So it's a mix.

 

[Superdeterminist]

Not really, no. I think of it as an unfortunate cutting of my losses. I would much prefer to live a happy life than to commit suicide.

 

[davidgeorge]

I feel calm too, like other people have mentioned. It's based on knowing my date to ctb and having (most) things in place

 

[Al Cappella]

Not at all. I'm naturally a competitive guy, and the idea that I can't/couldn't manage makes me sick. So I'll probably go out angry, in a way that's painful and miserable, because that's what I deserve…

 

[Pain In The Ass]

I often have mixed feelings when it comes to thinking about death, since, depending on the context, this idea gives me some peace, and even a feeling of indescribable joy, I suppose that very few people feel happy with death. idea of non-existence, the normies prefer to deny death at all costs.

I guess this means I'm making good strides towards making my peace with death, so I'm a bit happy that I'll soon have my method in my hands, but I won't rush either, I'll go easy.

Who else feels like me?

The idea of being relieved of ambitious desire, shutting down that 'will to power', does make me feel happy - but whilst I'm here, that same will to power tortures me and screams, 'NOOOO', when I think about dying, but only because it doesn't understand that the game is over.

 

[Somber]

The idea of being dead doesn't thrill me, but I would like the weight of mere existence to be lifted from my shoulders.
In the end we all die anyway, if there is nothing to look forward to between now and then, why not just skip forward.

 

[Leiden]

Extremely.

 

[ojinzo]

Yes

 

[Ta555]

No, it doesn't. Not because I'm afraid of being dead, but because I'm really attached to things and activities in life and letting go of them really scares me.
I think that's something I really need to work on, to let go of these attachments because CTB or not, I'm going to die one day anyway.

 

[Nequam]

Neither the thought of being dead or dying make me happy. It's a relief to know I won't be a burden or a failure anymore but if I hadn't made the mistake of giving all of myself to someone and fully investing in the relationship then I would be ok with living. Being thrown away again on top of having the dream I spent my whole life trying for come true only to be ripped apart and burned in front of me out of nowhere put me on my knees in the gutter again, only this time I can't find the will, strength or a reason to drag myself out for the millionth time. The 8 year anniversary of the biggest mistake of my life is coming up next week and I have no intention of being around for it. Knowing I will die soon is semi calming because nothing I say or do will matter for long, I won't be remembered by anyone come this time next year unless the posts here remain.

 

[Slimetae]

Yea

 

[WorthlessTrash]

It makes me relieved that the suffering will be over soon. However, the feeling of pain that will go through my family hurts me. I am at a crossroads, but I know I must CTB.

 

[Weebster]

No.

 

[ornitier199]

Yes
No more pain
No more worries
No more sadness
No more nothing

But people out there just don't understand

 

[outrider567]

Happy nope, relief yes

 

[peanuts]

No I'm terrified of it. When thinking about it I realise we just get one chance to live, there is so much to experience. Death is so permanent, and there is no coming back. Like never seeing my family again.. I can't even imagine.

Life actually isn't great and it's all well and good to say I want to die, but the actual thought of it all ending is scary as.

 

[Resinn66]

The problem has always been the Christian religion that has brainwashed people into perceiving death as terrifying and sad. Before Christians, let's say the Romans, with their Pagan religion, had no problem dying in their enemy's Sword or killing themself when losing in battle.

 

[~Q~]

yes

 

[Sun n showers]

Extremely.

Ditto