I was always taught that suicide is a sin. I was taught a lot of things though that seem contradictory and wrong when it comes to christianity. The odd thing is these things always came from honest good people who truly believed those things. This is the kind of stuff that pushed me away from religion entirely and now I don't believe in anything. Would God forgive suicide? I guess so, because if he doesn't, then he is nothing but a worthless deity who doesn't actually care about us despite people preaching otherwise.
I suppose it seems contradictory, one that God loves everyone equally ("knows every hair on everyone's head). So why is it written that God favored certain people, like King David, who himself was a murderer of the most selfish motives. Then, the question asked and written about so much "why do good people suffer". There seems no distinction between those who follow the basic principles of the Commandments (thou shall not lie, steal, kill, etc, etc), and those who not only don't, but often get away with the most evil deeds without seeming accountable. Are we to think their recompense is hell, when so many believe that life IS hell. I do believe that God would forgive anything and everything; if one seeks forgiveness and redemption at any time
You have nothing to worry about for two reasons.
1. God's will is for everyone to be with him.
2. God's will can't be thwarted.
The early church taught universal salvation and reincarnation. It wasn't until the Catholic church made its doctrine based on eternal hell for sinners that everyone assumed eternal hell was the default destination of every person who didn't adhere to a strict set of rules. Who would you believe? The early church with only the original texts, or a church that cut out what they didn't like and added purgatory, something Jesus never mentioned?
Very true, but Jesus did mention Satan, in his days in the wilderness without food or water where he was tempted by him. Also, we don't need a strict set of rule, there is an original set most simple in the ten commandments. Everything thing else, ritual etc. is just added propaganda and invented.