Does anyone else just not care anymore?

[sserafim]

I honestly don't care about anything. I don't give a fuck. I just feel bored all the time. Life is so boring. I also feel empty, like there's a void inside me. I prefer emptiness to sadness though. I'd rather feel nothing than be depressed again

 

[SilentSadness]

I also feel bored and numb to emotion, it's very tiring to exist against your will for a long time, and there's no sign of anything changing. I am constantly waiting for something to happen. I'm glad you no longer feel depressed, I hope you don't suffer like that in the future.

 

[Hollowman]

I'm incapable of caring about much anymore. I used to care a lot about a lot of things, kind of miss it but I'm at a total loss of what to do about it.

 

[Hotsackage]

As one goes along one simply becomes a void to anything, at least in my case

 

[QueerMelancholy]

I think I'm still trying to figure out what is even worth caring about anymore. A lot of things are out of my control so caring about those things seems like a waste of caring.

I can care about myself the most. I try to do that. To care about me and my environment. That has helped. The world outside these walls, outside my head, doesn't really need me to care about it. It will go on.

But if I stop caring about myself things get worse for me and it all gets a little harder than I think it should be.

I think I'm still trying to figure it out.

 

[tsykoais]

i cared about everyone and everything until i realize no one cared about me

 

[LowLevelChimp]

I can't try anymore, the more I open up to people the more they use it against me. I just can't allow myself to care anymore I'm simply done.

 

[KillingPain267]

I prefer emptiness to sadness though. I'd rather feel nothing than be depressed again

This! I'm glad I'm not alone feeling this. Sadness feels so painful to me, in my whole body that I prefer feeling nothing. When I have periods of apathy, I prefer it, although when the emptiness starts going all the way to anhedonia I am so bored that I can only think of drinking or ctb.

 

[lostintheloop]

Yeah I just feel nothing about life . It just happens to me rather than participating in it and all feels so pointless.

 

[drag201]

Sadly yes and it's a bit debilitating. I can't bring myself to care about my life or what happens with it, if I live or die tomorrow, about my health, about the things around me, about what I do with my day... etc. Nothing excites or interests me at all and because of that every day blends into one boring uneventful and grey feeling life. It's a feeling I think is impossible to let go of unfortunately.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Same here, life is just so boring and uninteresting. I'm bored 24/7... sigh. Life is just so exhausting and boring.

 

[Gangrel]

caring is a huge burden sometimes, it's exhausting doing it, pretty sure depression does that, oh lovely brain why were you born all fucked up...*sigh*

 

[etherealspring]

i stopped caring a long time ago. i mostly feel nothing. sometimes tiredness or boredom. when im sad or angry or crying, im almost relieved that im feeling anything at all. that being said, im mostly apathetic towards life as a whole. it feels meaningless and even small things feel exhausting. i just care about getting from one day to the next, until i no longer have to anymore. nothing else matters

 

[divinemistress87]

I havent given a damn in years I eat like shit , waste my money on stupid shit , and just lay around on the couch all day and dont care about the future

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I wish I could care less about certain things. It would make anxiety much less of an issue. I do often get bored from time to time but the benefit of being stupid and ignorant is that I'm easily amused even by trivial things.

 

[Hotel]

I don't care about certain things like for instance I often go walks alone hoping I get stabbed or beaten up mugged etc because I just feel like it would make me happy to see myself suffer physically. But at the same time I care so much about things like rejections and people leaving my life, it can make me go from ok to "I need to kms rn".

 

[Morte]

I feel like I'm forced to care, because I can't ctb, so all I have left is to cling to this world.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

I feel like I'm on auto pilot, save for certain moments. I don't care about anything like I used to.

 

[Zen0]

I honestly don't care about anything. I don't give a fuck. I just feel bored all the time. Life is so boring. I also feel empty, like there's a void inside me. I prefer emptiness to sadness though. I'd rather feel nothing than be depressed again

Honestly I feel you, nothing in life feels like it has any meaning or worth to it at all, I've had the luxury of being able to distract myself from that void inside of me that just feels nothing time and time again...but in the end I always end back here.