Does anybody else keep holding on in the hope of something changing?

[ayololly]

The problem being it never changes, the thoughts remain and everyday drains the life out of you?
I need an epiphany or a surge of energy that creates some breakthrough in my thinking. But how, when I can't even leave my house?
Honestly wish I had of caught onto the SN train earlier before it became difficult to obtain.
Even if something changes, I don't think my inner world will and that's the issue.
Anyone with sources of SN feel free to reach out (I'm in Aus). Better yet, if anyone knows how to obtain any fatal concoctions feel free to share.

 

[xanonumousjx]

I just made a similar post. Yes, this is my life everyday. I never truly lost hope untill recently, but even now I still have some left.

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

Id say hope is just another survival instinct tool that our brains use to keep us around.

 

[leavingsoon99]

Nope.

 

[TheHuman]

Life is ultimately meaningless, and with that there is no reason to live we will all die. One day you will be forgotten, we all will, and life is also just pain. Its pointless to hold onto "hope" when everything will one day all be gone.

 

[illmissmydogthatsit]

I just made a similar post. Yes, this is my life everyday. I never truly lost hope untill recently, but even now I still have some left.

Same. I am in the exact same place as this. It's hell. That 1% of hope that makes me keep going. I just want things to get better. Part of the issue is time, and how it can take a long time for things to get better, when I need things to get better *now*. I'm sure many can relate.

 

[day]

I've actively been reaching out to all sources that're popular for help however I doubt it'll change my view on life that much. Of course I've tried but before I choose to CTB I'll give myself one more chance.