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noname223
Angelic
- Aug 18, 2020
- 4,995
I am quite obsessed by what other people think of me. I want that people think of me as witty, funny and thoughtful person. I would like to be remembered as intelligent person.
I even care a lot what strangers think of me. I am an hopeless case. Nothing helps in order to be that obsessed about the impression I leave to other people. Sometimes or even often it is more important that my current emotional state. I am so fucking sick.
Not sure whether I want to be remembered after my suicide. Maybe only from my friends. I hope a lot that I won't traumatize them. I feel as such a loser that I prefer that most people hopefully forget me. On the other hand I would find it helpful if my example might be a good story how not to raise your kids. That some parents learn from the failures my parents did. That some kids can be saved due to my story.
Though my sister wants to procreate. I think she will likely repeat the faults of our parents or be even worse. Hopefully I won't experience that anymore.
I even care a lot what strangers think of me. I am an hopeless case. Nothing helps in order to be that obsessed about the impression I leave to other people. Sometimes or even often it is more important that my current emotional state. I am so fucking sick.
Not sure whether I want to be remembered after my suicide. Maybe only from my friends. I hope a lot that I won't traumatize them. I feel as such a loser that I prefer that most people hopefully forget me. On the other hand I would find it helpful if my example might be a good story how not to raise your kids. That some parents learn from the failures my parents did. That some kids can be saved due to my story.
Though my sister wants to procreate. I think she will likely repeat the faults of our parents or be even worse. Hopefully I won't experience that anymore.