Red Scare
Wizard
- Mar 1, 2022
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Sounds a bit like dissociation to me... and I don't say that lightly, or to try and invalidate you. I myself have had problems with depersonalization and dissociation. I think I know what you mean, because sometimes I can just sit catatonically and stare at the wall for up to a couple hours. It's like the anxiety and depression are so bad, it paralyzes you. The realization alone has not been enough to curb this behavior though. I think it is a response to trauma.I'm literally losing my life to daydreaming. I know "real" addiction that society would validate. I was an alcoholic, a smoker for over a decade, and a benzo abuser. Daydreaming has been the hardest to break and it's as real as any of the other addictions I've overcome. It's more about how badly your brain melts down when you refrain from it and how much the activity lowers your quality of life instead of enhancing it.
And you're totally right, something like shopping or gambling can be an addiction, whereas other people seem to be able to do these things without being addicted, so I suppose I was being a bit uncharitable in my view, but when I see someone seriously beating themselves and feeling guilt ridden because they masturbate, or smoke a bit of weed, I feel bad. I grew up in a very strict religious household and we were taught to feel bad about everything. It seems like some people never outgrow that.
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