Do you feel like you are experiencing your lasts?

[Ammended]

With the holiday season passing, does it make you feel like you are experiencing your "last" of something? Like this is my last Christmas, or my last birthday, or last beer out with friends, or my last whatever? I find each "last" is pretty jarring. Anyone else?

 

[Freimann]

Not really, mainly because of the lack of methods. I'll hopefully be traveling soon to a friend's house for the new year. I might look for some place tall enough for me to jump out of, but that'd be unfair to him. Still thinking of it though.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Not me. I find every single aspect of life repulsive and knowing that every instance of everything I do could be my last makes me think about nothing besides the last time I will close my eyes.

 

[breezeboy]

Yes. I find myself counting how many more times I'll be able to do something.

 

[rozeske]

Yup, this past few weeks I wake up almost every day thinking this will be my last day and do the same old boring every day task telling my self this is the last time am gonna be doing it only to end up postponing. Either some random shit happens or i chicken out at the last minute.

 

[dinosavr]

I wanted to treat this christmas as my last christmas but honestly I didn't care, I just got through it as if it was completely normal. So I guess my answer would be yes and no

 

[BornByGhosts]

i genuinely do, but the feeling is often just false alarms that helps me appreciate the moment

 

[peppermintflavored]

holidays dont have much significance to me, but knowing its my last time being around loved ones would be very upsetting. thankfully i dont have many of those. but it leads me to wonder if i should make new friends if it would hurt them to see me go

 

[Reuthry]

Yeah I feel that way. But I am glad that I feel so. I just want to leave I am tired.

 

[kane9191kosugi]

Yup. Like some people in this thread section has said, basically a countdown.

I can't freaking imagine myself living another decade plus in this shitty world and the absolute trash situation that I am personally in lol. It's only a matter of "when" at this point.