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Johnny20
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- May 12, 2026
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Hello everyone, I'm Italian and have been using this site since around 2021, when I first started having suicidal thoughts.
In short, I've been close to death twice: the first time with 3.2 mg of fentanyl and the second time with a large amount of hydroxychloroquine tablets sold here in Italy under the brand name Plaquenil, which I managed to obtain without a prescription. This put me in a third-degree medically induced coma for 10 days.
I've been diagnosed with bipolar II disorder, body dysmorphic disorder, and recently my depression has returned due to an eight-month manic episode.
I feel apathetic and very depressed; during the manic phase, I ruined the few friendships I had.
I feel like an outcast, with very little desire to get my life back on track, which is why I've been having negative thoughts lately, and why I'm coming back here after such a long time.
I was wondering if there was anyone from Northern Italy I could talk to and exchange opinions with... thanks
In short, I've been close to death twice: the first time with 3.2 mg of fentanyl and the second time with a large amount of hydroxychloroquine tablets sold here in Italy under the brand name Plaquenil, which I managed to obtain without a prescription. This put me in a third-degree medically induced coma for 10 days.
I've been diagnosed with bipolar II disorder, body dysmorphic disorder, and recently my depression has returned due to an eight-month manic episode.
I feel apathetic and very depressed; during the manic phase, I ruined the few friendships I had.
I feel like an outcast, with very little desire to get my life back on track, which is why I've been having negative thoughts lately, and why I'm coming back here after such a long time.
I was wondering if there was anyone from Northern Italy I could talk to and exchange opinions with... thanks
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