Pilum Muralis
“We'll never be as young as we are tonight.”
- Jul 2, 2019
- 187
Anyone have these strong desires to do something that you know would hurt you, possibly even kill you, but will most likely never do it? You find these thoughts even pleasurable. I don't mean as a way to CTB. Something unrelated to suicide. You just want to experience the feeling.
Mine is I want to throw myself down a flight of stairs. It's almost like ASMR to me, standing at the top. Sooo tingly! I've stopped myself a couple times while living at our last house. It's almost like that movie Crash (the David Cronenberg one). The feeling is almost sexual to me.
Mine is I want to throw myself down a flight of stairs. It's almost like ASMR to me, standing at the top. Sooo tingly! I've stopped myself a couple times while living at our last house. It's almost like that movie Crash (the David Cronenberg one). The feeling is almost sexual to me.
