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Fall_Apart

Fall_Apart

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I remember when I had my surgery because I had cancer. It's amazing how the feeling of peace and well-being comes over you, when you are about to lose consciousness. This is my dream on how to do CTB even if it is almost impossible to replicate. If you have not experienced general anesthesia, you cannot imagine how peaceful it is to leave. The fact that pentobarbital (N) has become so inaccessible, is really an abomination, but I do not lose hope yet. If you have had a general anesthesia, how would you describe your experience?
 
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Michi_Violeta

Michi_Violeta

why couldn't it be me?
Feb 3, 2025
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I had surgery for some respiratory issues a couple years ago and I remember very well that instant you mention. I remember asking the anesthesiologist about how it worked, but I can't even recall their explanation because it all happened so fast. There was already an IV on my left wrist, they just plugged something in it and I started to feel a very slight tingling sensation running up my arm, through my chest, down my right leg, then back up, all in a matter of seconds and then I just blacked out. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Next thing I remember was waking up with my head all numb, my nose full of blood and puss. It was an amazing experience and I can only hope SN with 200mg of zopiclone would feel like that.
 
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KillingPain267

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Apr 15, 2024
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Yes, it's just like you describe it. Those who haven't tried it can replicate the feeling with a z-drug sleeping pill. The feeling is similar. Anesthesia feels like falling asleep with a sleeping pill, times ten. It's very peaceful.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,332
i guess a good dose of Nembutal 12.6 grams would be similar. it's used as an anesthetic in lower doses in other animals.

but they made Nembutal a crime to buy and sell . and have been trying to eliminate it from the world.
 
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Intoxicated

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Nov 16, 2023
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It's amazing how the feeling of peace and well-being comes over you, when you are about to lose consciousness. This is my dream on how to do CTB even if it is almost impossible to replicate. If you have not experienced general anesthesia, you cannot imagine how peaceful it is to leave.
I was put under general anesthesia with a gas when I was a child. After I felt someone touching me and saying something like "he's sleeping", I became very scared of the possibility that they could start the surgery before making me unconscious, so my last seconds before the blackout were not peaceful at all ))
The fact that pentobarbital (N) has become so inaccessible, is really an abomination, but I do not lose hope yet. If you have had a general anesthesia, how would you describe your experience?
As someone who have tried asphyxiation by nitrous oxide at home, I can tell that I have no any regrets about unavailability of pentobarbital. Even if some kind person gave N to me for free, I'd likely still prefer N2O as it seems a superior alternative for me. You lose consciousness in nearly half a minute of breathing this gas, without any discomfort perceived. Inert gas asphyxiation has a similar effect according to literature and those forum users who have tried it. With N2O, you can also achieve relaxation and light euphoria after breathing it with air for a couple of minutes.

In fact, general anesthesia is available to many of us, you just need to look around better )) Here are some testimonies of other forum user who tried N2O on themselves

 
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locked*n*loaded

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Apr 15, 2022
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I've only been under twice. Once when I was 5 or 6 to get my tonsils out, and another time when I had a colonoscopy. I remember nothing about either time.
 
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outrider567

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Apr 5, 2022
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I've been put under three times, the last time for gallbladder removal, I was out for three hours, felt like 1 second
 
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dingokettle3531

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Mar 26, 2023
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Been there around 12 times? It's definitely impressive how they place the mask on your face and you slowly start drifting away, the voices of the doctors and nurses slowly starting to sound like white noise, and everything they're attaching onto your body feeling extremely.. weird. I never liked it because every single time I'd wake up confused of where I was, always looking at a white ceiling with no familiar faces nearby
Didn't happen to me but I heard a story of a guy who was going through some surgery, and they didn't apply the anesthesia well so he stayed awake throughout the entirety of it and it was pretty awful
 
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J&L383

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Jul 18, 2023
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I've been put under three times, the last time for gallbladder removal, I was out for three hours, felt like 1 second
It's been a couple of decades, but this is exactly it, you're under within a few seconds (once they had me count down from 10 and I think I got to 9) and then hours later you're awake and it feels like no time had passed. But of course you have a scar or some damage to your body that shows what happened!
 
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Fresh Soju

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Oct 11, 2020
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I've been put under countless of times before, and while I never feel comfortable with it, it feels less scary because I am surrounded by people and they hold my hands to make me feel less alone and safer.
Honestly going out like that would be really peaceful..
 
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outrider567

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Apr 5, 2022
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It's been a couple of decades, but this is exactly it, you're under within a few seconds (once they had me count down from 10 and I think I got to 9) and then hours later you're awake and it feels like no time had passed. But of course you have a scar or some damage to your body that shows what happened!
Yeah, I had three huge bruises on my stomach
 
Fall_Apart

Fall_Apart

Student
May 22, 2023
160
I had surgery for some respiratory issues a couple years ago and I remember very well that instant you mention. I remember asking the anesthesiologist about how it worked, but I can't even recall their explanation because it all happened so fast. There was already an IV on my left wrist, they just plugged something in it and I started to feel a very slight tingling sensation running up my arm, through my chest, down my right leg, then back up, all in a matter of seconds and then I just blacked out. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Next thing I remember was waking up with my head all numb, my nose full of blood and puss. It was an amazing experience and I can only hope SN with 200mg of zopiclone would feel like that.
In fact, the surprising thing is the feeling that precedes the loss of consciousness. Everything seems peaceful and despite the awareness of the surgical operation, you feel no fear, as if you were ready to go.
 
NeverHis

NeverHis

Student
Jan 14, 2024
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I've had several surgeries. For the most part, it's a blur from the moment I go in to the moment I wake up in another room. But I remember some details from some of them. They ask a lot of questions. They put a mask on you and tell you to sleep well.

Then I'm gone. For the most part. I don't know that I'm gone. I don't know anything at all.
Although at one time, I was at a concert held 20 years earlier, which was fun since I wasn't even at that concert in real life when it happened. And then I wake up, dazed and confused, needing a few minutes to understand where I am and why the nurses are talking to me.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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For me, it felt more weird than peaceful. Not unpleasant, just a weird tingling feeling in my temples. Almost like I could feel the drug rushing up towards my brain. I told them I felt dizzy- that was the only thing I could think of to describe it. They told me that was normal and then I was out. When I opened my eyes, the ceiling was moving because they were wheeling me back towards the recovery area. It was so bizarre though to have literally no comprehension of how much time had passed. I imagine death will be like that though. Here one moment, gone the next.
 
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usernamenoonecares

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Apr 18, 2024
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Yes, it's just like you describe it. Those who haven't tried it can replicate the feeling with a z-drug sleeping pill. The feeling is similar. Anesthesia feels like falling asleep with a sleeping pill, times ten. It's very peaceful.
What is the full name of the pill?
 
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KuriGohan&Kamehameha

想死不能 - 想活不能
Nov 23, 2020
1,858
For me, it felt more weird than peaceful. Not unpleasant, just a weird tingling feeling in my temples. Almost like I could feel the drug rushing up towards my brain. I told them I felt dizzy- that was the only thing I could think of to describe it. They told me that was normal and then I was out. When I opened my eyes, the ceiling was moving because they were wheeling me back towards the recovery area. It was so bizarre though to have literally no comprehension of how much time had passed. I imagine death will be like that though. Here one moment, gone the next.
It was like this for me too, more weird/eerie. I had already received a sedative before I even got put under, so I was already sleepy and tired, and the next thing I know it was like being teleported to another room with no memory of anything. There was no sense of time passing or awareness of what had happened, I went to sleep at 8 or 9 am for the surgery then suddenly it was the late afternoon. I didn't really like the feeling, especially because I woke up in terrible pain and could hardly stay awake.
 
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Even

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Feb 4, 2024
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I remember when I had my surgery because I had cancer. It's amazing how the feeling of peace and well-being comes over you, when you are about to lose consciousness. This is my dream on how to do CTB even if it is almost impossible to replicate. If you have not experienced general anesthesia, you cannot imagine how peaceful it is to leave. The fact that pentobarbital (N) has become so inaccessible, is really an abomination, but I do not lose hope yet. If you have had a general anesthesia, how would you describe your experience?
It's an amazing feeling, my dreamed method too.

I'm totally clueless on the subject, why is it almost impossible to replicate? What woud be needed?
 
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