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Jello Biafra

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Sep 9, 2024
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I can't emphasize this enough, as it seems that every week there are questions about N, and barbiturates in general.

The advent of benzodiazepines put a huge dent in the actual demand for barbiturates. Because they are significantly safer, doctors all over the world just stopped writing prescriptions for barbiturates, many, many years ago.

This left the only demand for barbiturates as right to die organizations and state governments that still used as much for capital punishment. The mfgs of barbiturates then decided that they didn't like the idea that their products were being used for capital punishment (mostly in the US). The main worldwide supplier of Pentobarbital, Seconal, and Thiopental was in Canada. This left only death with dignity, right to die organizations, as the primary customers, which is a teensy, tiny segment of the market. Considering that mfg equipment must be tied up to produce anywhere near a significant supply, it became unfeasible from a business standpoint to do this.

To make matters even worse, Seconal and Thiopental, which have been used in the past as a general anesthetic before surgery, and which are every bit as effective as Nembutal (Pentobarbital), were replaced by newer, more controllable anesthetics, namely propofol. Propofol has a half-life of something like 5 minutes, so when IV administration is stopped, the patient is revived very quickly.

Propofol is readily available from some countries - the problem is it requires a continuous supply, and if you were to try and administer it IV to yourself you would pass out and lose consciousness before you would be able to inject enough to do the deed. It would require an infusion kit and pump, which, unless you are a Healthcare professional is basically not doable.

From what I was told, and this came from someone who works in pharmaceuticals, even in S. America Pentobarbital is being fased out in favor of powerful tranquilizers that are much easier to source and obtain (referring to the veterinary market for euthanasia). Xylazine and Medetomidine, which is 20x more powerful than Xylazine, are what vets are gravitating towards.

In the US, Xylazine has been used by drug dealers feeling the pinch on worldwide fent supplies being drastically reduced. It is not a scheduled drug in the US, so dealers have generally found it pretty easy to obtain in bulk (by the kg) from China. This has led to a rash of ODs over the last few years. Because of the scrutiny on Xylazine now, dealers have now switched to medetomadine, which is also a large animal tranquilizer (think horses and cattle), but said to be 20x stronger than Xylazine.

Unfortunately, there were only a few major biosynthesis labs in China that were producing not only the tranquilizers, but also most of the world's research chemical supply, ie designer drugs, aka nitazenes and benzo variants. In the US they became wise to this year's ago and introduced the "analog act", which means just because you chemically change a drug to alter it's structure by an insignificant amount does not mean it's a brand new unscheduled substance. I suspect most countries have followed suit (Europe, Asia, etc). That doesn't mean research chemicals are unavailable, indeed, many still are and some that are many times more powerful than standard opioids or benzos like Xanax. But there is no question there is a huge shortage right now, as those Chinese mfgs I mentioned earlier were raided and taken down by the Chinese government just a few months ago.

From what I was told, Poland and some Eastern European countries still are producing some research chems. I was also told that Germany still is mfg'ing Seconal, Pheno and Pentobarbital. I don't know how true this is but I was shown a paper that stated something like 5 million tons of barbiturates were mfg'd in Germany in 2023. My friend has no reason to lie, as he's not trying to sell me anything, but maybe that's where South America is getting their supply of N. No doubt India still mfg's thiopental (aka Sodium Pentothal) but I don't know how legit that is.

As general advice, it's worth repeating that if you see N being advertised for sale, on both Dark Net and Clear Net - IT'S A SCAM. Drug dealers are in business to make money, and supplying people who want a total niche drug to ctb is just not even remotely realistic. Why would anyone risk that? They wouldn't, unless they have the IQ of a snail, and if that's the case, they aren't sourcing such an obscure, obsolete substance in the first place. Especially these Clear Net sites that advertise of just helping people peacefully ctb and offering to source it for you. DO NOT WASTE YOUR TIME OR YOUR MONEY! These are scams just preying on people. Personally, I hope they burn in hell, but whatever, don't even for a second engage with any of them.

I know I've repeated this info here before, as have many others, but it seems the popularity of PPH brings this question to the forums at least a few times a month.
 
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aufrechtm7

ā™” strxwberrymilk
Feb 14, 2026
351
I despise how substances are getting turned into "Philosopher's Stones", but I guess it doesn't really matter to these people anyway since the goal is to exploit those who are suffering and hopeless.
 
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Jello Biafra

Arcanist
Sep 9, 2024
476
I despise how substances are getting turned into "Philosopher's Stones", but I guess it doesn't really matter to these people anyway since the goal is to exploit those who are suffering and hopeless.

That's what grinds my gears the most. If you do a search on clear net (with anything other than fn Google) for Nembutal there are several websites offering compassion and just wanting to help you out and being able to reliably source Nembutal for you.

They are preying on people who are vulnerable, like scum going after people like us, who are suffering, as well as people with terminal illnesses rotting away from cancer and little old ladies who have no family left and just want the peace that the modern for profit medical industry won't grant them.

I don't mean to be rude or vulgar but fuck those assholes. Going after people who could be spending their measly social security check on some vague promise of being their knight in shining armor.

Please guys and gals, don't give any of these people the time of day. Don't increase their analytics by even visiting their websites. If any of it was even remotely true, this website and PPH would be all over it.

I don't want to be a debbi downer because I wish it was true just as much as everyone else - why do you think I spent so much time researching this? Anyways, I hope this helps - I certainly understand just as much as anyone else wanting a warm, peaceful deliverance from the dream we label physical existence. It still can be had, but the likelihood that it will involve a barbiturate is exceedingly rare.
 
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KuriGohan&Kamehameha

ęƒ³ę­»äøčƒ½ - ęƒ³ę“»äøčƒ½
Nov 23, 2020
1,858
I despise how substances are getting turned into "Philosopher's Stones", but I guess it doesn't really matter to these people anyway since the goal is to exploit those who are suffering and hopeless.

Maybe it sounds a bit conspiratorial, but I genuinely feel like within the next couple decades any substance with psychoactive properties or potential for fatal overdose is going to be tightly controlled worldwide to the point where they'll be completely inaccessible to the general public, even with genuine medical need. The needle seems to be moving towards, let's ban anything that has a chance of fatality if misused.

While I know it's still possible in some places, like Mexico, to purchase opiates or benzodiazepines without hassle, in most Western countries it is now nearly impossible to even get these classes of drugs prescribed by a doctor, even if you are suffering greatly and nothing else has worked. There's so much scaremongering about these drugs due to the addictive potential, even though benzos were the safer alternative to barbiturates back in the day.

Whenever I was growing up, it wasn't uncommon to see people being prescribed drugs from either class for chronic pain or psychiatric conditions that weren't improving, now you have to be on death's door to access them in most of the west. There is now a fearful attitude among many in the medical profession, that they would rather decrease the risks to themselves by not having to justify the prescription of narcotics, rather than actually treating patients. Obviously, this creates demand for a black market, one which is heavily cracked down upon, in many countries the punishment for drugs can even be worse than committing a violent crime, so it makes sense why these shops are fearing for their livelihood.

I anticipate it's going to get harder and harder to obtain anything that gives one that feeling of peace in the coming future, creating a rife environment for scammers. It's genuinely depressing, but it seems like most world leaders love the illusion of "safety" and don't give a damn about vulnerable people being scammed and resorting to risky business. As long as you're still living, the amount of suffering or hardship being endured is like water off the duck's back in their eyes, imo.
 
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aufrechtm7

ā™” strxwberrymilk
Feb 14, 2026
351
Maybe it sounds a bit conspiratorial, but I genuinely feel like within the next couple decades any substance with psychoactive properties or potential for fatal overdose is going to be tightly controlled worldwide to the point where they'll be completely inaccessible to the general public, even with genuine medical need. The needle seems to be moving towards, let's ban anything that has a chance of fatality if misused.
What you're saying isn't even really removed from reality, world governments have done far worse. We're already on track to destroying anonymity over the internet and being constantly monitored in our real lives.
 
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Jello Biafra

Arcanist
Sep 9, 2024
476
Maybe it sounds a bit conspiratorial, but I genuinely feel like within the next couple decades any substance with psychoactive properties or potential for fatal overdose is going to be tightly controlled worldwide to the point where they'll be completely inaccessible to the general public, even with genuine medical need. The needle seems to be moving towards, let's ban anything that has a chance of fatality if misused.

While I know it's still possible in some places, like Mexico, to purchase opiates or benzodiazepines without hassle, in most Western countries it is now nearly impossible to even get these classes of drugs prescribed by a doctor, even if you are suffering greatly and nothing else has worked. There's so much scaremongering about these drugs due to the addictive potential, even though benzos were the safer alternative to barbiturates back in the day.

Whenever I was growing up, it wasn't uncommon to see people being prescribed drugs from either class for chronic pain or psychiatric conditions that weren't improving, now you have to be on death's door to access them in most of the west. There is now a fearful attitude among many in the medical profession, that they would rather decrease the risks to themselves by not having to justify the prescription of narcotics, rather than actually treating patients. Obviously, this creates demand for a black market, one which is heavily cracked down upon, in many countries the punishment for drugs can even be worse than committing a violent crime, so it makes sense why these shops are fearing for their livelihood.

I anticipate it's going to get harder and harder to obtain anything that gives one that feeling of peace in the coming future, creating a rife environment for scammers. It's genuinely depressing, but it seems like most world leaders love the illusion of "safety" and don't give a damn about vulnerable people being scammed and resorting to risky business. As long as you're still living, the amount of suffering or hardship being endured is like water off the duck's back in their eyes, imo.

This is very true. The nanny state is very real and only getting worse. I don't mean to pick on anyone that's religious but a lot of it extends from this holier-than-thou we know what's best for you attitude that originated from the church. Meanwhile, their preacher is 3x divorced, fleeces their flock for money, has 3 vacation homes and is worth millions of dollars. What was that about rich people and needles guy?

I don't mean to put down all religious people, but far too many in the West think their religion is defined by going to church on Sunday when it should be the way they conduct themselves when they aren't in church. Not everybody, but far too many.

I also find it hilarious that alcohol is legal pretty much everywhere in the world when it's the source of 75% of the world's violence - or at least seems like it.

I can't even imagine a world, like the early 1900s, when someone could walk in to a drugstore, order a root beer and a bottle of Nembutal without a prescription or sideways stares.

Just too many people in this world who feel this incessant need to tell other people what's best for them. How about this? How about you people fuck right on off and live your own life instead of pretending like you walk in my shoes? /rant
 
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Serena fuga

Serena fuga

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Jan 15, 2026
34
I can't emphasize this enough, as it seems that every week there are questions about N, and barbiturates in general.

The advent of benzodiazepines put a huge dent in the actual demand for barbiturates. Because they are significantly safer, doctors all over the world just stopped writing prescriptions for barbiturates, many, many years ago.

This left the only demand for barbiturates as right to die organizations and state governments that still used as much for capital punishment. The mfgs of barbiturates then decided that they didn't like the idea that their products were being used for capital punishment (mostly in the US). The main worldwide supplier of Pentobarbital, Seconal, and Thiopental was in Canada. This left only death with dignity, right to die organizations, as the primary customers, which is a teensy, tiny segment of the market. Considering that mfg equipment must be tied up to produce anywhere near a significant supply, it became unfeasible from a business standpoint to do this.

To make matters even worse, Seconal and Thiopental, which have been used in the past as a general anesthetic before surgery, and which are every bit as effective as Nembutal (Pentobarbital), were replaced by newer, more controllable anesthetics, namely propofol. Propofol has a half-life of something like 5 minutes, so when IV administration is stopped, the patient is revived very quickly.

Propofol is readily available from some countries - the problem is it requires a continuous supply, and if you were to try and administer it IV to yourself you would pass out and lose consciousness before you would be able to inject enough to do the deed. It would require an infusion kit and pump, which, unless you are a Healthcare professional is basically not doable.

From what I was told, and this came from someone who works in pharmaceuticals, even in S. America Pentobarbital is being fased out in favor of powerful tranquilizers that are much easier to source and obtain (referring to the veterinary market for euthanasia). Xylazine and Medetomidine, which is 20x more powerful than Xylazine, are what vets are gravitating towards.

In the US, Xylazine has been used by drug dealers feeling the pinch on worldwide fent supplies being drastically reduced. It is not a scheduled drug in the US, so dealers have generally found it pretty easy to obtain in bulk (by the kg) from China. This has led to a rash of ODs over the last few years. Because of the scrutiny on Xylazine now, dealers have now switched to medetomadine, which is also a large animal tranquilizer (think horses and cattle), but said to be 20x stronger than Xylazine.

Infelizmente, havia apenas alguns grandes laboratórios de biossíntese na China que produziam não só tranquilizantes, mas também a maior parte do suprimento mundial de substâncias químicas para pesquisa, ou seja, drogas sintéticas, como nitazenos e variantes de benzodiazepínicos. Nos EUA, eles se conscientizaram disso hÔ alguns anos e introduziram a "Lei dos AnÔlogos", que significa que o simples fato de uma droga ser alterada quimicamente para modificar sua estrutura em uma quantidade insignificante não a torna uma substância totalmente nova e proibida. Suspeito que a maioria dos países tenha seguido o exemplo (Europa, Ásia, etc.). Isso não significa que as substâncias químicas para pesquisa sejam indisponíveis; na verdade, muitas ainda estão disponíveis, e algumas são muitas vezes mais potentes do que opioides ou benzodiazepínicos comuns, como o Xanax. Mas não hÔ dúvida de que existe uma enorme escassez no momento, jÔ que as fÔbricas chinesas que mencionei anteriormente foram alvo de batidas policiais e fechadas pelo governo chinês hÔ poucos meses.

Pelo que me disseram, a PolĆ“nia e alguns paĆ­ses do Leste Europeu ainda produzem alguns produtos quĆ­micos para pesquisa. TambĆ©m me disseram que a Alemanha ainda fabrica Seconal, Fenilpropanolamina e Pentobarbital. NĆ£o sei o quĆ£o verĆ­dico isso Ć©, mas me mostraram um artigo que afirmava que algo como 5 milhƵes de toneladas de barbitĆŗricos foram fabricadas na Alemanha em 2023. Meu amigo nĆ£o tem motivos para mentir, jĆ” que nĆ£o estĆ” tentando me vender nada, mas talvez seja daĆ­ que a AmĆ©rica do Sul esteja obtendo seu suprimento de N. Sem dĆŗvida, a ƍndia ainda fabrica tiopental (tambĆ©m conhecido como Pentotal Sódico), mas nĆ£o sei o quĆ£o legĆ­timo isso Ć©.

Como conselho geral, vale a pena repetir que, se vocĆŖ vir anĆŗncios de venda de N, tanto na Dark Net quanto na Clear Net, Ɖ GOLPE. Traficantes de drogas estĆ£o no ramo para ganhar dinheiro, e fornecer uma droga de nicho para pessoas que querem se submeter ao CTB (teste de abstinĆŖncia de heroĆ­na) Ć© simplesmente irreal. Por que alguĆ©m arriscaria isso? NinguĆ©m arriscaria, a menos que tenha o QI de uma lesma, e se for esse o caso, nem sequer estaria procurando uma substĆ¢ncia tĆ£o obscura e obsoleta. Principalmente esses sites da Clear Net que anunciam que ajudam pessoas a se submeterem ao CTB pacificamente e se oferecem para conseguir a droga para vocĆŖ. NƃO PERCA SEU TEMPO NEM SEU DINHEIRO! SĆ£o golpes que se aproveitam das pessoas. Pessoalmente, espero que queimem no inferno, mas enfim, nĆ£o se envolva com nenhum deles nem por um segundo.

Sei que jÔ repeti essa informação aqui antes, assim como muitos outros, mas parece que a popularidade do PPH traz essa pergunta aos fóruns pelo menos algumas vezes por mês.
OlÔ, passei meses tentando comprar N, tinha receio de alguns sites duvidosos (queria pó ou comprimidos), então decidi tentar o anestésico líquido (não sei se serÔ tão eficaz). Consegui comprar 200 ml de pentobarbital para uso veterinÔrio em um país da América do Sul. Fui pessoalmente à clínica para comprar com receita. Pretendo ingeri-lo com Ôlcool e alguns comprimidos para dormir... espero que este seja o método correto e rÔpido e que, finalmente, a dor passe e a paz chegue!
 
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Jello Biafra

Arcanist
Sep 9, 2024
476
OlÔ, passei meses tentando comprar N, tinha receio de alguns sites duvidosos (queria pó ou comprimidos), então decidi tentar o anestésico líquido (não sei se serÔ tão eficaz). Consegui comprar 200 ml de pentobarbital para uso veterinÔrio em um país da América do Sul. Fui pessoalmente à clínica para comprar com receita. Pretendo ingeri-lo com Ôlcool e alguns comprimidos para dormir... espero que este seja o método correto e rÔpido e que, finalmente, a dor passe e a paz chegue!
Sorry, I don't understand Spanish or whatever language this is.

I don't mean to be arrogant or anything, only that you will need to translate if you want me to respond.
 
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intr0verse

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Jan 29, 2021
450
Sorry, I don't understand Spanish or whatever language this is.

I don't mean to be arrogant or anything, only that you will need to translate if you want me to respond.
I have a feeling the message wasn't directed at you, yours just happened to be the latest reply and they just hit the "Reply" button....
Anyway, it's BR portuguese:

"Hello, I spent months trying to buy N, I was wary of some dubious websites (I wanted powder or tablets), so I decided to try liquid anesthetic (I don't know if it will be as effective). I managed to buy 200 ml of pentobarbital for veterinary use in a South American country. I went to the clinic in person to buy it with a prescription. I intend to ingest it with alcohol and some sleeping pills... I hope this is the correct and quick method and that, finally, the pain will pass and peace will come!"
 
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Jello Biafra

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Sep 9, 2024
476
I have a feeling the message wasn't directed at you, yours just happened to be the latest reply and they just hit the "Reply" button....
Anyway, it's BR portuguese:

"Hello, I spent months trying to buy N, I was wary of some dubious websites (I wanted powder or tablets), so I decided to try liquid anesthetic (I don't know if it will be as effective). I managed to buy 200 ml of pentobarbital for veterinary use in a South American country. I went to the clinic in person to buy it with a prescription. I intend to ingest it with alcohol and some sleeping pills... I hope this is the correct and quick method and that, finally, the pain will pass and peace will come!"

Ya, I always have a problem distinguishing between Spanish and Portuguese and was too lazy to look it up. But thanks.
 
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mushi_tamago

Wandered Through Thoughts
Mar 14, 2026
18
Just too many people in this world who feel this incessant need to tell other people what's best for them. How about this? How about you people fuck right on off and live your own life instead of pretending like you walk in my shoes? /rant

1st: thank you for the information in your first post. It helps to keep us aware of scammers.

2nd: If governments and doctors actually wanted to do something about OD & suicidality problems, they should get off their asses and do the hard, boring, unglamorous work of creating a system that can actually supports people. But that would include not taking bribes from pharmaceutical companies (which I feel is mostly done for economic reasons [as in Drug COmpany A wants favoritism over Drug Company B] and slogging through boring policy paperwork and hiring the right staff and continuously adjusting their approach.

But no, blanket ban on anything remotely dangerous because quick fix make voter number go up.
 
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Serena fuga

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Jan 15, 2026
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Sorry, I don't understand Spanish or whatever language this is.

I don't mean to be arrogant or anything, only that you will need to translate if you want me to respond.
Hello, I spent months trying to buy N, I received some from dubious websites (I wanted powder or tablets), so I decided to try liquid anesthetic (I don't know if it will be as effective). I managed to buy 200 ml of pentobarbital for veterinary use in a South American country. I went to the clinic in person to buy it with a prescription. Pretend to ingest it with alcohol and some sleeping pills... I hope this is the correct and quick method and that, finally, the pain will pass and peace will come!
 

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