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sapphoslastpoem

sapphoslastpoem

Student
Jun 23, 2022
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I'm pretty sure most of my problems in life stem from having to be stuck with an unsupportive and abusive father. My mother is at least mostly supportive but she lets my father walk on her and wouldn't ever speak up when he would hurt her or me. All of my low self-esteem, lack of confidence, shame around sex, having to hide my sexuality and even worrying about what others think is all a result of how my father treated me and still treats me. I'm also terrified of yelling, even when someone isn't yelling at me, I'm terrified. I used to try and hide in the cupboards as a kid because I was so scared, I'm a full grown adult now but nothings different. I still wish I could hide.
 
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Rocinante

Rocinante

My name is Lucifer, please take my hand
Aug 26, 2022
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I'm pretty sure most of my problems in life stem from having to be stuck with an unsupportive and abusive father. My mother is at least mostly supportive but she lets my father walk on her and wouldn't ever speak up when he would hurt her or me. All of my low self-esteem, lack of confidence, shame around sex, having to hide my sexuality and even worrying about what others think is all a result of how my father treated me and still treats me. I'm also terrified of yelling, even when someone isn't yelling at me, I'm terrified. I used to try and hide in the cupboards as a kid because I was so scared, I'm a full grown adult now but nothings different. I still wish I could hide.
Yes. I had to deal with abuse for a decade and a half. It is responsible for my lack of comm skills I think.
Also I am traumatized by any loud noises
 
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Monkeyman

Monkeyman

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Dec 27, 2022
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I also have those feelings of shame and fear because of abusive upbringing. To this day I can't help but hide things from others simply because of the trauma, I get nervous when someone audibly sighs near me, I can't hear footsteps around me without nearly panicking, etc...
 

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