Venting CTB

[leoneliona]

The closer I get to being able to CTB the more I'm like and I know part of it is SI but. I do think a lot of it comes from the fact that I've held on through some absolute insane dogshit and now that I'm finally letting myself give up it's kinda scary. I've never attempted before when really I should have a long time ago realistically because my SI is so strong LOL. I'm hoping I'll be able to get over it- funnily enough, the anxiety meds and mood stabilizer I was put on in the psych ward after being honest about my suicidal thoughts kind of got rid of the insane anxiety barrier towards not attempting kind of the opposite affect that they wanted but it helps me out I guess

 

[purebliss]

The closer I get to being able to CTB the more I'm like and I know part of it is SI but. I do think a lot of it comes from the fact that I've held on through some absolute insane dogshit and now that I'm finally letting myself give up it's kinda scary. I've never attempted before when really I should have a long time ago realistically because my SI is so strong LOL. I'm hoping I'll be able to get over it- funnily enough, the anxiety meds and mood stabilizer I was put on in the psych ward after being honest about my suicidal thoughts kind of got rid of the insane anxiety barrier towards not attempting kind of the opposite affect that they wanted but it helps me out I guess

That is precisely why they recommend taking Xanax before doing the SN method.

 

[leoneliona]

That is precisely why they recommend taking Xanax before doing the SN method.

Yup. Thankfully I've got it prescribed